An Announcement and a Thank You

I have done my best over the last 2 days to respond to all of your dm's to the best of my ability. The overarching theme between everyone on here is that we are all going through our own struggles and we all love each other. You are not fans... you are all genuine humans taking time out of your busy days to show me love and that means the world to me. I will not be engaging with any DM's on any other platform other than on here. Please allow me more time to go back through and respond further in a week or two. Things are very busy for me right now and i'm doing my best to reevaluate things and keep a level head. This has been one of the darkest months of my life but I have learned from it and I have done my best to grow as a person. I have many faults. I have many areas where i have made mistakes and I can improve. I apologize for any worry I caused any of you. I am okay. I am doing everything I can do to become better and strengthen my mind and ability to handle troubling situations going forward. This has been the longest gap in content ever on my channel in the 2+ year span i have been doing this. I do apologize for that and I wish I was stronger and could have dealt with this situation better. I will learn from this and not allow myself to get into such an emotionally devastated place regardless of what lies people say about me. it's all of our jobs to hold ourselves accountable and decide what we give our attention to. I no longer feel any of my attention should go into social media comments and DM's only comments made here on Patreon and by the people i know personally. I also no longer have many content creator friends and that is a choice i am very proud of. It was my mistake to expect friendship when the signs were clear that it was all business with these people. I do not operate that way and i will not change for them. i have cut them off and although you may see people i no longer consider friends in future videos, understand i thought they were my friends at the time and please do not interpret it as me being fake. I wont allow myself to poison all my memories because of my misunderstanding of relationships. i had plenty of good times with fake people and regardless of our standing now, the times were still good then.... Many of you have asked me about zillakami. He is an amazing friend and human... if anything it has been unfair of me to ask him to help me with these allegations. But he did out of the kindness of his heart. he is a great person and I am thankful I can call him a friend.... The future of the channel is not decided. I need more time to reevaluate and clear my mind. I am working on so many awesome things right now and i have confirmed 26 unreleased episodes in the vault. That is a number i am proud of. I may have over-invested in the production of content but now is the time for me and my team to focus on showing you the work we have done and for me to work on my mental, physical, and financial health. I have turned down 10's of thousands of dollars of sponsors, this is something i will no longer be doing. I owe it to myself to have money, it stresses me out to be in a financial rut and i hope you all understand when you see an increase of sponsors in the coming months..... As for the new 12$ tier, Nobody currently in the 5$ tier needs to do anything, you can continue at the five dollar rate without change. only new patrons will pay the 12 dollar fee... Of course none of you owe me anything and if you cannot afford or do not want to support me financially I 100% support that decision. Just giving me a single dollar is more than I could ask for, you are all so kind to me and i am thankful.... i appreciate all of you. Just know i am doing my best and we will get back to our regular programming as soon as this sneako situation has been dealt with. I hope you know that is happening very soon and we will move on as I see fit. allow me to do what i need to do with this situation for my mental health.We have so many fun videos in the vault and i cant wait to show you them as well as announce the many exciting things i have planned. As of now i can confirm my fight is against ice poseidon on november 19th in austin texas. this will be announced publicly on my social media when i'm given the green light to do so. more announcements will come. thank you all. i love you all. WE RIDE TOGETHER. <3

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