KOKMIK SERIES #22

Vin and I have been together for almost 5 years, and we've lived together for the past 9 months. In our first year of relationship, we rarely fought, but when misunderstandings happened, we wouldn't talk for the whole day.

When Vin is upset/annoyed, he avoids talking to me or to anyone to prevent saying things in the heat of the moment. I appreciate his maturity in recognizing that people don't mean what they say when they're angry. In contrast, I prefer discussing misunderstandings, but I sometimes struggle to express my feelings properly. I used to keep quiet and cry when something hurt me. Maybe it's from my childhood experience anyway. When Vin unintentionally does something to annoy or hurt me, I give him the cold treatment as a way to express my feelings, that THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG AND I DON'T LIKE IT but I don't say it out loud, leaving him clueless. It frustrates me even more when he tends to ignore me (not messaging me for a whole day) it hurts af, because being ignored makes me feel like I don't exist in his life. I thought when we lived together it would change but it didn't.  

So, Last week, as a live-in couple, we had our first real argument (Because of house chores)

We ignored each other again, but I couldn't sleep and spent the whole day crying alone in our room. Because He didn't enter our room or acknowledge me the entire day.  We both kept our pride and didn't talk throughout the day. Driven by emotions, I packed my things, considering leaving. However, the thought of leaving him pained me. I realized I couldn't live without him, but the pain and exhaustion were overwhelming. I texted him that I would leave early in the morning, scared and with thoughts like "What if he agrees?" and "What if he doesn't care?" I cried until I fell asleep.

Eventually, he found me still at home. I saw his teary eyes and realized something. We talked and realized our mistakes. I remember what he told me while comforting me, "We're just mad; that's why we did these things." So yeah at the end we made up. Sorry if this is too dramatic, HAHAHAH it's the story of me and Vin being a live-in couple. I don't know if you guys are interested in knowing this, SORRRRY but I don't have someone to talk to to share thisssss HAHAHAHHA anyways thank u KOKEYS