Unfortunate update

My Macbook which I am forced to use due to it being the only screen that doesn't cause me migraines, as you guys know is broken only after a couple of months of having it. It broke literally the second I went to set up the stream on it's own and I took it to both Louis Rossman and Apple and it's going to be a long time before I can get it repaired by apple and the quote I was given for Louis is that it wouldn't be worth repairing as it was a micro fracture on one of the wires to the LCD or something that that. Not to mention apple might not even cover it in the first place. I bought it secondhand and I can try to open a dispute with paypal but there is not promises I'll get my $2250 back. Mind you, this seller had thousands of positive reviews and only 5 negative ones too so this is sheer unlucky-ness. 

I don't have the liquid funds at the moment to buy another laptop that has the specs I need to stream because I did not anticipate my new 2019 macbook to randomly break on me the second I go to stream for you guys. I got really really unlucky here. So I'm still trying to figure out what to do to give you guys content. 

For right now, I have an apple care appointment on Friday because they are BOOKED (I went on Monday). Even when they get it they're going to have to send it in and who knows how long that will take. As soon as I felt better 2020 strikes again. I really feel like there is a curse that is preventing me from streaming at this point, first I got to the hospital, take months to recover than my mac shits itself despite being from a good seller, and a 2019 computer that was practically new. It's really demotivating not to mention I'm not 100% healthy and STILL need to see a doctor and can't use my insurance (health sharing) for another month despite paying $400 a month.....so with that I'm you guys can understand why I don't have the liquid funds right now to buy another mac in the meantime. 

I really don't want to have to fundraise for a new laptop so I'm going to be borrowing someone else's mac for the meantime but it can barely run streamlabs OBS (the software I use to stream) without lagging so I have some concern with that, as well as having to reinstall EVERY add on and program I use to make videos and stream. I'm sure you guys can understand my frustration and why I might be depressed considering all of this, and I'm sorry I can't pump out content as we'd all like. I'll let you guys know what happens on Friday, but for now I can try to redo everything and see if I can just make a video instead, I'm not confident that this computer can run a stream because it was lagging in the preview of the stream in my test-run. 

Thank you guys for your support