Update

Wanted to let you guys know what happened this week but things have been so bad its taken awhile. We have something called a free trash pick up, where we can get out multiple bags of trash and junk taken away for free and it was supposed to be last week monday, we called and were told it would be last week, so i had to get out bags and junk out which really cranked my pain up, and without my shot i'm not really recovering or bouncing back well.

for whatever reason they decided to postpone the trash pick up not a day but for a whole damn week, and this caused the trash bags to be sitting out there and someone ransacked them cutting them open and spilling trash all over the yard. I had to go out and clean it up or else we would be fined, because of loose trash.

so i cleaned it up and the bags had already been scavenged once i didn't think they would be again, but nope some ass hole(s) decided to rip open the bags again and this time dump the bags out and spill the trash all over, nd to add insult to injury dump their own trash into my yard and i'm not talking little stuff i'm talking metal frames, huge pieces of car parts that i couldn't even pick up, and stuff caked in i'm hoping is mud and not something else. There were little things to like a bag of cans of of beer and pop, boxes of cigarettes, old shoes, etc. What gets me is its free trash pick up this week if these assholes had just bagged up this shit and set it outside it'd have been collected but instead they just dump it into my yard and leave it there

so i not only had to clean up my bags again but also deal with the new trash littered in my yard. I had to go out there three times to clean it all, and as an aside for mental stress i asked my family to buy trash bags while they were out so i could finish cleaning, i texted it to them twice and they even called to ask what i was tecting cause my hands were shaking so bad. I told them we need trash bags so i can finish cleaning outside they said okay. They come home and no trash bags the first thing they said to me was we have trash bags. "no we don't, i used them all that's why i texted you we need trash bags" you even called me cause you didn't understand my texts and i told you. They said they forgot. No you didn't fucking forget you just thought you knew better than me and decided to ignore me when i'm dealing with this huge ass mess cause you don't fucking take anything i say seriously or listen to me even when i'm saying something important

so i had to dig through the basement to find trash bags to finish cleaning up which made my pain worse and burned what little energy i had left. so the trash bags were cleaned up twice and hopefully the trash pick up came today or else i'll have to pay out money to make them come out and clean this shit up cause i really can't do it anymore. I took so many pills and muscle relaxers just to get my hands to stop shaking. From my shoulders down I have been in so much pain to the point i can barely move, been dizzy from the blood pressure spikes, and been nauseas.

this has been my week outside of other things like my family making a grocery order when it wasn't needed and a little order being far from little. and asking me to do things when i'm already burned out and they just are either inconsiderate or so far out of touch with reality they don't think about the state i'm in for even a second

but that aside i did manage to work on bits and bobs when i could so i'll be posting the wips i managed to work on I don't know what else i'll manage to get done today and sadly despite all my best efforts i got screwed this week and there's gonna be roll over at least 5 fics while not terrible its frustrating because i've been working so hard to get the backlog down and stay on top of things had the trash pick up came when they said it would i wouldn't have had to deal with this mess twice