C6 Resumes Monday

C6 resumes on Monday. Gonna try a different schedule. Two panels Mon/Wed/Fri. Should be able to handle that. One thing I didn't like about the panel a day was how it exposed so many of flaws having these stand alone images that would usually be sitting alongside secondary panels. It just didn't look good, so I think the two-panel updates will help make it look less like shite.

Life Updates For the Curious and Bored:
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I appreciate the patience and support y'all have shown me during this latest content drought. For anyone curious about the psychiatric test this past weekend, it was not me talking with a psychiatrist as with the last one, it was me in a room with a woman who administered a series of tests that involved everything from blocks with shapes on them, to word association, to memorization and more. It went on for three hours and I was such a nervous wreck even the test administrator tried to help calm me. I don't do so well outside my apartment these days.

I was told the tests are to determine if my diagnosis matches my memory, as dissociative identity disorder and borderline personality disorder show certain patterns in memory. I asked what the tests revealed about me in at the end but she made it clear she wasn't allowed to share any test results. So now I'm just waiting. Again. I expect to be denied at which time I will appeal and begin this process all over again, which will likely result in a second denial, after which time I will have to get a lawyer (the kind who get paid out of your settlement) and then have a real chance. I know this because I watched my partner go through it after the cancer and subsequent chemo wrecked her body and left her unable to do much of anything.

In the meantime I've been busy trying to find a therapist to replace the one I've been seeing. MJ has been a fantastic therapist and a great support for me, but her agency is forcing her to terminate sessions with me as they decided I need a higher level of care. They told me this at the start of the year and MJ has been seeing me through a grace period intended to help me find a replacement. Turns out most therapists don't want to deal with borderlines and very few that do accept medicaid. So it's been a struggle.

My last session with MJ is next week and I'm trying harder than ever to find someone willing to listen to me cry at them with my insurance. Thus the lack of content this week. I have appointments Monday to see two more potential therapists (who they assure me take medicaid and can tolerate a bpd person) who want to assess my needs.

For those of you who read that self-pitying traumadump, I appreciate it. I've been lucky to have a community here that sticks by me regardless of my failings and shows real care and concern for me and that means more than any words I can type here. Without y'all, I'd likely be homeless or possibly deceased. Y'all give me a reason to keep trying. Thank you. Love y'all. See ya Monday with a new strip~