Happy New Year!

Scheduled this to go up at 12:00 AM for me! Happy New Year everyone! I feel an extra bit sentimental these days. I feel so lucky and blessed to be where I am. It feels surreal no matter how many times I think about it.

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This year was fun, stressful, full of big decisions, and so much more.

Stare down ended, and four months after it got picked up by Webtoon. It was always a dream to be an Original series. It always felt like that would be the most stable and secure I would feel. That opportunities would follow, and that I wouldn't ever have to worry. But those things were never true. I'm so glad I got to finish stare down here with you guys as my supporters, that the final chapter could go up here before anywhere else. I already had stability here, and just never felt like I did, but now I know, and I feel so secure. Nothing else beats having individuals who genuinely want to support me for my work without controlling me.

I can't believe my patreon grew so much even after SD ended, I didn't expect TB to grow to the size it became today. When I rushed to revamp it, it was because I felt like I needed to, my art was horrible to me, and I couldn't suddenly change the style that drastically in a new chapter. I went crazy during that time, I slept every other day, but I was able to, I wasn't forcing myself. I wanted to, I was in such a strange state, I've never been in before, hyperfocus x10000000. My mom was so worried for me HAHA, we had a thing where I'd ask her if I look okay and she'd tell me to go to sleep and I'd be like 'okay. zzz'. Idk how I did it LOL. 30 something chapters in like 2 weeks or something? I was doing 3 chapters a day? IDK the numbers don't even make sense anymore. People didn't trust me, and it hurt. Telling me my decision was wrong, I couldn't do it. Maybe that's why I strived to prove those people wrong by finishing it asap. Plus... with SD over I was scared TB couldn't get back on it's feet if I took too long of a hiatus to revamp it.

We were at 42k subs back then, now we have 118k. Insanity.

I feel like my illustration art improved so much, like look at this art I made!!! wow!!! I'm proud. I travelled to the US and met long time friends, and another canvas artist (ash - creator of love from above) who I lovee so much, visited the webtoon headquarters and drew Nil on a board with countless bigger famous webtoon artists characters. I feel closer than ever to the canvas BL community, I made some amazing friends here, reconnected with old ones elsewhere. I adopted an elderly cat. I love her so much.

This year had it's ups and downs. I've lost people. I still struggle mentally with anxiety, and feeling ill occasionally on update day. I have finally accepted that my nails will always be bitten. But I always know, I'll feel better after reading your comments.

So much of turning SD in a daily pass was stressful, it was so tight and demanding, but I feel like it was worth getting newer audience to read it, and to have an originals title. I suppose it was a flex thing, now I have it and.. it's aight. LOL.

Wild year. I can't wait for the next one. I have another comic coming out, a murder mystery slice-of-life in a urban fantasy world. My brain is happy with this one. I'll work on the last of the SD hardcopies, I plan to make a sleeve for all three books that'll come with any order. So no need to repurchase the first book. But I may have to do preorders on these books, because I'm not sure how many people would even buy the volumes anymore since it's been a while, so I don't want to overstock. Of course TB will continue, I have the next half year of chapters planned out (in bullet points). I'm very excited for what's to come.

Once again, thank you all so so much. Please stay safe and look after yourselves. All I hope for is you are safe and peaceful for the end of the year. Tomorrow I'm doing laundry because my mom says it'll set a precedent for the rest of the year. Let's see...