Rough Night
Added 2021-06-01 04:11:33 +0000 UTCHey guys, I'll be writing later today, I was going to go to Disney and have a nice relaxing day but tonight got kind of rough. Something just hit me and it felt like my life wasn't going to change, I mean I don't hate living with my parents, except I kind of do. I can't really be myself, try the things I want to try, go live like I want to because of lack of money which I know, I need experience and a good education.
My sister, left, to go have the life she wanted, to marry who she wanted and to this day my parents still don't know that she's gay and married to a woman, which I'm still wondering how long that's going to last. Anyways at some point tonight during dinner, I randomly started crying and my mom caught it and freaked out and I just told her that I missed my friends and they all kind of ghosted me, especially Zach with his new girlfriend and it just all kind of hit me today being so bored and not being able to talk to them. That was part of it, but it was also everything else to and wondering if I'm behind in my life somehow.
Sorry guys, I guess with no one else, you all are the only people that I can really talk to and won't freak out and kick me out like my parents probably would. Anyways, look later today for another addition to now chapter 6, hopefully it's leading where I want it to without being so sappy and you all continue to enjoy it. Good night!
Comments
I can definitely identify with you and although you feel like you’re the only one, I can guarantee that everyone else is either feeling the same no or have in the past. We are always here for you.
Ferris Beuller
2021-06-02 03:48:54 +0000 UTCI’m sorry last night was tough. I can identify with so much of this. Sometimes the feelings we’ve been stashing away just build up and overwhelm us, and they don’t have any consideration about timing. Even being in my 40s there are things about my lifestyle that I would be too uncomfortable to share with my parents. Thankfully I do not live with them, and I am confident that you have that to look forward to as well eventually. And I know you will do it on your own terms. Never be afraid to get as sappy as your heart tells you to.
Joe
2021-06-01 14:47:37 +0000 UTCSweetie, sometimes like just sucks and there isn't a lot we can do about it at the time. My thinking is to hang in there and tough it out until you find out for sure what you want and need to be happy. Those of us that follow you want that most of all, your happiness. HUGS
Dean Lanouette
2021-06-01 04:18:40 +0000 UTC
