grace
Added 2025-07-18 19:57:45 +0000 UTCi sit in the fire and i run from the fire and i am the fire.
i sleep for days and wake up and am fed by Grace.
my heart is tender like raw meat.
i spill coffee on my white blouse and i don’t care. i care so much.
i show up. i hide. i lay down and sleep more and pray to be protected while i sleep. i surrender and have faith. i remember when i had no faith.
i hold the demon and stroke her soft ringlets. i pray to jesus. and hanuman. i sleep and am protected by my father. when will i become the father?
keep going. i have not been challenged yet. i look in the mirror and don’t recognize myself but my cheeks are glowing and there is a light in the eyes. i have not been challenged yet, but my heart is wax.
i sleep and wake and wake and sleep again. when awake, i am whispering to myself i love you i love you i love you no matter what. i am a ship at sea. God is the quiet, timeless voice that in the midst of the dark ocean who whispers “i love you no matter what. i’m here for you. no matter what.” it is within me and beyond me. it is True. the father.
master is the one with the panoramic vision. not man, nor woman. gone gone beyond. and right here. now. the black sea, the mother, she is bottomless grief and that grief is the deepest love.
may we be guided and protected by THAT supreme intelligence that speaks in the hearts of all beings. may we listen deeply to that sweet, piercing, unfathomable wisdom which is here forever. may we humbly listen
