YOU ARE NOT WHAT HE SAYS (Erotic Audio Role-play 18+)
Added 2022-06-14 23:00:37 +0000 UTCHeeeeey...
Have you ever had someone try to manipulate you, tell you’re a bad lover, or too disinterested in sex?
Because that can suck - even when you know it’s not true.
So let's put that myth to bed.
😉
Snugs and hugs,
💜🧔🏻Matthew
[M4F] You Are Not Like He Said [Reassuring you] [Telling you truth] [You are not frigid] [You are not a bad lover] [MDom] [Binaural] [3D sound] [Romantic] [Sex] [Creampie] [Mutual Orgasms] [Immersive] [SFX]
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Dedra Perkins
2022-06-22 18:32:14 +0000 UTCIt’s the afterglow sounds you make that are just UGH !!! I have been utterly defeated you devil !!! Lol
Stacey Reza
2022-06-19 22:54:59 +0000 UTCYou are the most amazing woman so strong and beautiful and just all around lovely. Like that?
Ann
2022-06-17 22:45:18 +0000 UTCInnnna minnnnute immmma neeedaaa sentimennntallll man or woman to pump me up.
Katie
2022-06-17 21:22:11 +0000 UTCIn the spirit of oversharing (😉) I got my new toys this week. I ordered the satisfyer that was both the suction and with vibration. OMG I am in love. I also bought a couple of nipple things. They are like little plastic bulbs and you put on on and squeeze the bulb and it suctions them in place. So it doesn't hurt like clamps do. I am not a fan of clamps at all. Ow ow ow ow. I have only tried it once and it was weird. So jury is still out. It did make them stand up all nice an perky and honestly the more I fuss with the them the bigger they get. I don't mean they are massive or anything they are just more pronounced. I like it. It makes me happy. Haven't examined why nipping out makes me happy but it does. Not going to overthink it. One more thing I will say about the nips is that this past year they have become way more sensitive than before. Awakened you could call it. ALSO IT IS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Wonder what we are going to get? I am also home this weekend sigh so I get to be not driving to Seattle when he drops it. Hurray! TTT+T Good times.
Ann
2022-06-17 19:04:03 +0000 UTCTake care ❤️
Ann
2022-06-17 14:05:23 +0000 UTCOh Matthew. After being in full hassmat gear at the hospital all week with my namesake, this was 😭😭😭 to come home to in all the best ways. I'm emotionally spent so I'll just say this... thank you for the hope and realization that THIS exists. A man who recognizes when you dissociate, who values your presence over the sex, and who can gently keep you there and in the moment until gentle is the last thing you need. Sometimes it's the artistry I appreciate most, sometimes the open for to explore the fantasy, sometimes the silliness and sexy fun, and sometimes the sheer work and craft of the layered sounds and world you bring alive. But ALWAYS it's the humanity. 😘💜💜💜🤗
D
2022-06-17 13:31:43 +0000 UTCGirl, yes! And that audio has such a beautiful feeling about the connection and those little details fit together perfectly. Matthew narrated it as if it were a recent relationship, the romantic involvement, but the intimacy is light years ahead, as if they were connected in other ways - intellectually, emotionally - before physical intimacy. It's really beautiful! 💜
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-17 12:47:02 +0000 UTCI forgot to mention this and idk if anybody else did and I missed it, but the sound of like - the head on the sheets nodding in agreement was so interesting. It felt so so so sweet and I think just reinforced the connection 💜
Katie
2022-06-17 11:36:08 +0000 UTCGot to love the hormonal states of mind ( read with heavy sarcasm). You Linda are a very lucky woman. Sometimes the box or door just needs to stay closed. 💜🤗
Ann
2022-06-17 04:24:24 +0000 UTCToday in my hormonal state of mind I had a flood of emotions I long tucked away surface. Feelings of resentment, shame, broken heart, losses, all safely tuck away in a box, a box buried long ago. But today that box was sitting in front of me, tempting me to open it. I felt out of control, self doubt started to creep in.... am I a good wife, mother, friend...sigh. I sat at my kitchen table staring out the window, the box tempting me to open it, I look up to lock eyes with my husband, the most beautiful blue eyes I've ever seen, he walks toward me, grabs my neck leans in and kisses me. The kiss takes my breath away, his gaze never leaves mine, he brushes his lips across mine and whispers, "don't baby, don't go there." I blink a tear, he catches it with a kiss. All my self doubts "am I good wife, mother, sibling, friend?" disappear with his touch. I close my eyes and breath in his scent remembering he gave me a reason to love and to be a woman....fearless, strong, free spirited, loving, kind, gracious. We all need someone who is there to give us a reason. In reading the beautiful, kind, loving post in this special place created by Matthew, the support from all over the world, is beautiful, just beautiful🤗
Linda
2022-06-17 04:11:27 +0000 UTCI just noticed the photos in the Turret out your window, Matt. What a view! Thank you for sharing.
Titania
2022-06-17 02:51:31 +0000 UTCAnd f*ck covid. I finally caught it.
Titania
2022-06-17 02:44:18 +0000 UTCMatthew- I've been listening to this for the past couple of days, and every time tears prick my eyes. For me, it's not that I had someone tell me I wasn't good enough, it's the level of attunement you are showing. To have someone pick up on signals like that, to call a time out, to talk things through…that's next level. And then the assertions ("I'm going to love you harder…") and the removal of expectations: 🥰🥰🥰 That level of attunement isn't common even in rock solid long term relationships (or maybe I just keep picking ADHDers with wandering focus? F me and my type 🙄), and there's a bit of personal mourning here that much of that compassion and security has to be self-generated (like Katie and Kelsey mentioned). Your delivery here is the closest to straight conversation I think you've done yet. There's no seduction, no persuasion. The furthest from "fantasy," and yet the closest, because what do I actually want, in the end? Someone who sees me, someone who doesn't play games at the fundamental level. Well done. Heartstrings plucked. 💙💚💛
Titania
2022-06-17 02:43:43 +0000 UTCI noticed that are moments when I read all your comments and I do have a lot to say, but there are moments that words aren't enough and my mind is like 'Oh fuuuuck.' Really, Belles. HOLY FVCK. This group is something else, isn't it? You ALL are something else. I can't believe that this place actually exists sometimes. It blows my mind. Oh, Matt. Thank you for creating this space. I'm surrounded by people that I wish I had a chance to share a drink, and dance and laugh and cry... But you all are so real to me that the physical presence is not actually needed. I already have you all in my heart and I think this is the most precious thing about us. 💜
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-16 19:44:19 +0000 UTCSqueak it like your the dj ahahaha
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-16 16:40:44 +0000 UTCSo I have said a lot of “serious” things and I need to balance that out by letting you all know that no matter what fabric shirt I am wearing.. there is a certain point where my tits meet the laminated edge of my desk at work … and it makes a squeaky sound. It’s so annoying.
Katie
2022-06-16 16:36:22 +0000 UTC… 😐 what is H Preference? 🤭😅
Katie
2022-06-16 16:19:29 +0000 UTCKatie. No house points needed. It was all AI. Reading does it for me more than any other thing. I had to read this one. The cool thing is that as I read it I heard Matthews voice in my head and that was perfect #KatiefortheWINwithHPreference #KatieIsSoSpecial😘 I like summer of Ann. Sounds awesome.
Ann
2022-06-16 15:25:17 +0000 UTCSoooo hotttttt whyyyy ughhhh. 😭
Katie
2022-06-16 15:24:33 +0000 UTCLovebug I think you’re incredibly intelligent! I think having those negative voices in our ears for so long can feed into imposter syndrome for us in one aspect or another. It’s such a huge thing that you advocated for yourself! Especially when you’re working to ignore those little insidious thoughts. I also really like that you’re taking ownership by saying “I am”. I know it’s an uphill battle some days but look at you go❤️
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-16 02:07:24 +0000 UTCOne glass of wine is fine! Remind yourself you’re not escaping into it. You’re relaxing and enjoying the activity. It’s not to wash away anything. I also tell myself that my parents addiction stemmed from them wanting to escape their situation and it took more and more to do that. I think a glass of wine to simply enjoy your glass of wine is a splendid idea!🤗
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-16 02:01:27 +0000 UTCSomeone may I please have a glass of wine even though I live alone? I need permission. You know alcoholic parent and the slippery slope of addiction that I am deathly afraid of. However I really want a glass of wine and I never ever drink alone. I hardly drink so it should be ok. I mean I am of age well hahahahahaha so above way high above what would be considered of age. But school is out and I am tired and just want 1 glass of wine. I only bought one of those tiny mini bottles. I swear! I am just messy.
Ann
2022-06-16 01:45:27 +0000 UTCReposting. Not sure why other than to irritate whoever decided my post needed to be deleted. I am not very good at immersing myself in the audios. Working on it but I generally approach the audios as a voyeur or just detached. this audio was powerful and I needed to be part of it, which is why I transcribed it and wrote it as a letter to me from Matthew. I could immerse in the written word. I have been thinking about the audio a lot and while it brought up ugh with s3x in the past, I felt sad but not like all triggered. The interesting thing that it did trigger was my intelligence. I found myself crying about that not the s3x. Why? I think the message of the audio can be broader than just s3x. It speaks to insecurity. for me being told or having it be implied that I am not smart or intelligent or I am dumb or whatever plus other stuff led to my belief that I was not smart. (Frigid not good in bed) Recently I petitioned my university for a new committee chair person because mine has spent the last couple of years not doing his job. Wasting my time. Wasting my money. Why didn't I advocate for myself? Maybe his action or lack of fed into my insecurities and he was important to me in my program. (Dumb a$$ partner). I did finally advocate and I have a new chair person who is providing me with feedback and gentle pressure to get things done. (Matthew and s3x). What if I am not smart enough to finish my program. What If I can't get it done. What If I disappoint my new chair? With the audio initially, yes I thought about all the dumb rear-ends of my past my ex husband included. My s3x life right now is off the charts. (Thanks Matthew and Lovense) But it isn't that important to me I guess as it registered as meh. I was sad that's it. Does this make sense? Insecurity whatever caused it and whoever fed it sadly often are powerful in our minds. This audio spoke to me. That is why I needed to read it. So I could take the message and read the words to have them be for me. To understand them. I will draw strength form Matthews words. Whew what a day. For the record I had a neuropsychological exam about 10 years after my brain injury to make sure there was no lasting damage (parents deemed me healed when i got out of the hospital and didn't want to speak of it so no follow up anything) the results of the eval made me laugh and wonder what the heck. I had to reevaluate the way I thought about my intellectual abilities. Happily I am wicked smart. Not ego speaking just test scores which are suspect in my mind but....I supposedly am very smart. This is not the narrative I have subscribed to most if not all of my life. Anyway the idea that I am very intelligent did not get rid of the insecurities at all. I battle them daily. I suspect that if the audio was real it would be a battle Matthew would be helping "her" fight for a long time. he said he would fight for her. So sweet. I feel reenergized to continue to fight my battle What a multipurpose audio Matthew. Thank you. PS yes it is an ongoing battle but gains are made. ☺
Ann
2022-06-16 01:35:52 +0000 UTCANN STOP BEING SO NAUGHTY AND CONTROVERSIAL 🤭😭😑
Katie
2022-06-16 01:04:27 +0000 UTCOMG Patreon LEAVE MY POSTS ALONE 🤬
Ann
2022-06-16 00:51:00 +0000 UTC💜💜💜💜💜 I get this SO much. I did this Friday, on a different subject. It’s the hangover affect. But first of all, be so fucking proud of you for doing the work. It is SO hard, messy, uncomfortable and not in the ways we like. (😘) I have started to try and think of this process in a new way and I just share it for the sake of doing so, but it’s using the word grieving when I’m going through these healing processes, specifically identifying grieving the shoulda, coulda, wouldas. All the things that make it difficult to move on. I think there is power in not just facing the emotions that have been suppressed and just feeling them in general which is hard a freaking nough… but also taking a moment to grieve what didn’t happen, because when we grieve we come closer to a place of acceptance of what has happened or not…and then we can then find ways to appreciate how we have gotten to where we are … and where to go.
Katie
2022-06-15 23:51:09 +0000 UTCSo I’ve been so irritable today. Which I know means I’m going through the motions. Yesterday was such a huge release that now I’m dealing with the residual emotions that are coming to the surface. It’s the part of the healing process that doesn’t always get talked about I think. It’s not pretty. I caught myself being snappy. Had trouble focusing. Had trouble sleeping. Extra teary. I couldn’t just sit in my house today. I felt ready to crawl out of my skin. Healing is uncomfortable. It’s not always easy. And I know a lot of it is me working through my ptsd and flight or fight triggered by such a huge emotion. Letting myself move forward from sadness. Then through the anger and resentment. I was furious at everything. I just wanted to hurl a plate at a wall. I wanted to lash out. Anything to expel that energy. I gave myself space to feel it all. And then finally moved into forgiving myself for ever believing anything negative anyone ever said and taking accountability in my part in it. Now I just need some sleep and to cuddle. Like can I just borrow Matt’s lap, bury my face in the crook of his neck and be held while he rubs my back. Today is hard but tomorrow will be a little less. And then less the day after that. And I’m thankful for the process. It’s good. And it’s healthy. But it’s hard. It makes me that much happier to have a space like this to be safe in. And to vent to. And when I’m here I don’t feel quite so alone in the process. I think this was the last little bit I needed to let go of because now I feel better😅 I just keep getting more and more transparent so maybe I’ll regret letting that out but oh well lol
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-15 23:38:47 +0000 UTCWhat I was trying to express yesterday was that some times I do worry about how much I may come to emotionally depend on what I hear in these audios (this one specifically) and then create a reality that is neither “reality” or fantasy which is where I have gotten lost in the past. I wish I could say the things you are saying to me, to myself, and believe them just as much. I guess that’s my trust issue with the men. I will have to listen again to be able to discuss more thoughtsies, but I am so NOPE NO FEELINGS right now that I have to wait for a different moment. But the kisssesssss drove me crazy in the most beautiful way I will never EVER never ever EVER, say no to the kisses. Especially when they travel too. 🫠🫠🫠
Katie
2022-06-15 23:38:00 +0000 UTCIt’s crazy that these audios give us such an opportunity to learn so much about ourselves. I’m not sure if it’s because I didn’t commit to my first listen to the end and my subconscious started making plans but when I went to listen for real, I was so gosh I don’t even know how to say it …emotionally distant…than I was the first time. The tone, the kissing -ohhhh my god it was perfect- the intention… it was so good, and I was so turned on after it was over. The things that were said though… I look so forward to the day where I can get through it without identifying a new mental health obstacle, I think it will be peaceful. I was so detached and I think it will be a process to listen to this and feel like it could actually be applicable to me.
Katie
2022-06-15 23:31:02 +0000 UTCYes. Also, Dawn...stay safe!
Titania
2022-06-15 23:08:51 +0000 UTCI listened again on my way home from work (I may have a problem). This one...just...ahhhhhh Matthew. I can't get over how affected by this one I was. Let us all teach our loved ones they don't have to tolerate the bullshit. And also teach them they better not be the one saying horrible things to someone.
Dawn
2022-06-15 21:41:26 +0000 UTCI thought I'd posted the following comment earlier( from my iPad), but since I don't see it, I'll repost. Mea culpa if it does appear somewhere and I'm repeating myself... Yes! Yes! Yes! Ann — it’s the sadness conundrum I’m trying to work through/understand. I SO get what you’re saying - it’s not regret, per se, it’s something wider, deeper. For me, perhaps it’s being lulled out of complacency at an age when I thought I had become relatively self-aware. It has been humbling to have that perception challenged. Whenever we examine ourselves, our beliefs, our past actions, it’s dicey, uncomfortable. Perhaps the sadness is a byproduct of metamorphosis. Or maybe I’m just a crybaby. 😉💜 For anyone else whose cocoon is unraveling - may we all come to love the emerging butterflies 😘😘🤗🤗🐛🦋
Daphne
2022-06-15 16:39:58 +0000 UTCI love this. I love your little commentaries too. ( says as she writes an entire essay) 🤣Thank you Katja 🤗❤️
Ann
2022-06-15 15:16:44 +0000 UTCYes! Ugh it’s so hot. Kissing is beautiful, yes please😍
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-15 15:11:49 +0000 UTCI woke up this morning and realized we did not give enough appreciation to all the kissing!! It felt like the kind of kissing that you could feel all the way to your toes! Thank you Matt for the lip love 😘😘😘😘
Dawn
2022-06-15 13:57:42 +0000 UTCBest Day Ever! I'm done Friday and I can't wait. My middle schoolers are positively feral.
Patti
2022-06-15 13:35:47 +0000 UTCMaybe I should start with a disclaimer saying that this is purely for me to get my thoughts out. I probably won't speak about it anymore since I don't think it'll be necessary. Why does this sound kinda ominous lol it's nothing so serious, really! + It might make sense only to me I've not exactly been called frigid but I guess that's implied by calling me stuck up or a bitch simply for not "giving in" (could be emotionally or sexually). Or being called too much on the other hand. But I learned that it's nothing to do with me personally but people's attachment styles to some degree. Even though I'd be a hypocrite not to mention that I've got a fearful avoidant attachment style that's really hard to transform into a secure one. But, I'm doing a lot better. Although, every once in a while something triggers it. Could be a positive thing too, like this audio. I'm not gonna go into a lot of detail (says as she writes an entire essay), but the way this resonated with me caused an entire emotional storm in me. I've tried to think logically about it but that didn't work. Yes, who knew rationalizing your emotions before even feeling them wasn't really the solution *heavy sarcasm*, so I sat through them. Well, ultimately it lead to completely falling apart "in your arms". It's not even about any shitty guys or mean things said about me, but for someone to know me down to my core like this. Feeling like I've got nowhere to hide. I'd probably have a full on panic attack irl. I felt like I'd been turned upside down (idek how to explain it). It's not the first time I felt like this, but it does form a full circle with the first time I had such an intense reaction, just a little after joining. The situations are completely different, though. Also, I'm different from then, too. Having left my initial fear based reaction, I can say that this is a wonderfully healing audio (I never thought of it as anything else anyways). It was such a weird battle in me whether to fight the feelings or lean in, but I gotta say this was one of the times where giving in felt right, a relief actually. I have a lot more good things to say too, but tbh I'm afraid I'll start overthinking like I usually do and I wanna remain grounded like I am now. It's also probably nothing that hasn't been mentioned or that you don't know already, anyways. Ranting like this still makes me feel like I'm being kinda selfish but I know it's fine and I don't have to feel like that. Anyhow, I'm so very grateful to you.
Katja
2022-06-15 13:25:47 +0000 UTCLast day of school 🥳🥳🥳🥳🌺🌺🌺🥳🥳🥳. Summer school next week but pfffttt 4 hours 4 days a week with way way way more pay. Good bye you little ( high school not really little) beasts. I don’t think I will miss you. WAHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
Ann
2022-06-15 12:46:38 +0000 UTCHappy happy birthday Freya. Best year ever coming right up! 🤗🥳
Ann
2022-06-15 03:42:07 +0000 UTCHow lucky to have a new audio on my birthday! <3
Freya
2022-06-15 03:06:13 +0000 UTCIt's lovely. No beating up of feelings.
Ann
2022-06-15 03:01:53 +0000 UTCIs this audio kind? I don’t want my feelings beat up , just my pum pum pls 🥲🥺
Lanai [honeyhaunting]
2022-06-15 02:53:32 +0000 UTCHello, darlings! Just signing on after a long, hot day...it's 97f/36C and I had to work outside. Matt... sending you all this steamy, sultry weather to balance out your autumn chill and drizzle.😘 This looks like a compelling audio and an interesting discussion. Can't wait to dive in! Much love, all! 💙💚💛💜🥰
Titania
2022-06-15 02:53:16 +0000 UTC💜💜💜
Patti
2022-06-15 02:31:57 +0000 UTCYou know hahaha this was my ex-husband. I never really realized it before. I mean it wasn't exactly a super loving marriage thanks to pregnancy and upper middle class parents who were embarrassed. But he wasn't aggressive about it which is why I guess it was easy to slip under the radar. Nobody before him was much of anything or even consensual so...I didn't know. I knew nothing. Everything was always so fast and/or unfortunate. There is an assumption of knowledge with women and s3x perhaps there is an equal assumption with men too. Well sh*t. Interesting.....You know I thought for years I must be asexual. Masturbation for stress relief aside. Hmm.....I don't think I am. It makes me sad . Not so much for me for others who don't know. I don't regret a single minute of my life and would not change it for anything because my life is full and wonderful and full of promise and adventure. BEST DAY EVER and all that. But I do feel a little sad. Well good thing I have therapy tomorrow afternoon. Woohoo Elizabeth job security for you. 🤣 I am so glad I found this place. Thank you.
Ann
2022-06-15 02:31:27 +0000 UTCThank you for that❤️ Thank you for always being in our corner. And addressing topics that aren’t always easy. You’ve always handled them in a way that doesn’t feel like an affront. You do this thing where you take our experiences and remind us we have permission to feel them and work through them and it’ll be ok. That we don’t have to be trapped in them. Or we don’t have to hide them. Or that they’re not who we are, only parts of our stories. I’m really grateful to you for how you take care of us. Everyone really appreciates it and you. I think you remind people that it’s ok to let themselves feel safe. I really do think you hold a mirror up for us to relearn the way we see ourselves. Lots of love to you in all things Xx.
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-15 02:26:58 +0000 UTCHey Sunny! 💜 That’s totally the problem. I’ve read about it quite a lot in feminist writing and there’s even an acronym for it - the ‘MWD’ - which means the Madonna/whore dichotomy. anyway I hope you like the audio!! xx
Matthew Tower
2022-06-15 01:54:30 +0000 UTCWise woman.
Ann
2022-06-15 01:28:18 +0000 UTCWow. 🥵 And double wow. 😌😌 I love it so much that you have a new favourite, Linda! 💜
Matthew Tower
2022-06-15 01:23:43 +0000 UTCBtw, I dunno if you've received my letter yet (cause sick Matt) but remember: No kidnap pls 🤣🤣🤣
Maggie Ren
2022-06-15 01:10:16 +0000 UTCYou just killed me. I swear to God.
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-15 01:09:39 +0000 UTCDear Ann, I remember we were sitting out under the Patreon Banner one night when we'd only just met and I don't know why we knew we could trust each other. Why we felt the need to really start opening up to each other. But you told me some things, which I never forgotten. Cause I know how much words can get inside your head. Do you remember what you told me? Yeah. That you were called some names, like a XXXXXXX. Yeah. And told that you're not good enough in sex and that you're bad and bed. And now I think you worried if we have sex, I'll find out that that's true and I won’t want you anymore, maybe a little bit of that. Yeah. Well I just have to say, I love you so much and that's so fucking wrong on so many levels. I don't even know where to start. Ok? One thing, God, that is a totally charmless and unsexy thing for anyone to say. I mean, someone who tries to make someone interested in sex by calling them frigid isn't exactly Casa Nova material huh. Only some kinda of immature idiot is gonna say something like that. No wonder you weren’t turned on. And you know what else they’re the kind of person who would say something like that is somebody feels insecure and knows you're too good for them. So all they've got to work with is manipulation. Babe, I know how kind and caring you are and how you always look to see if the faults yours first. But if you're not attracted to someone and they haven't turned you on, that's their problem, not yours. And one more thing whoever said that they knew they were unlimited time. They knew you'd wise up. They weren't playing a long game. It was their last attempt to keep you with them just before you saw right through them and left ok. Can, you see what an obvious and silly tactic was now. And really it's kind of funny in a way it's like high school boy psychology. But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Words cut. Especially if you've been carrying around since you were too naïve to know they weren't true. Let’s be real, babe you are very sexy piece of ass. Matthew Dear Matthew Ummmm 😭😭🥰 Ann Dear Ann The reality is I am not some insecure fuck, who’s worried you're gonna leave me. I'm not scared of your past. I'm not scared of your emotions. I will love you harder. Fuck you harder fight for you harder and I'll never manipulate you. But if you wanna give yourself to me, I'm really gonna take you. So just say the word. Matthew Dear Matthew WORD! WORD! WORD! X 10000000000000000 WORD! Ann Seriously Matthew this was perfect I swooned, cried and was turned on. Perfect. 🤗 Now let's see if this is Patreon Mod fodder.
Ann
2022-06-15 01:03:18 +0000 UTCPatreon is janky AF tonight. My comment disappeared and now yours is cut off WTF!!
Alaina
2022-06-15 00:58:55 +0000 UTCNot a school teacher. 😉
Matthew Tower
2022-06-15 00:58:39 +0000 UTCMatthew, I categorically refuse to post anything this week that resembles an overly-fraught personal essay. Perhaps you would like to choose something else from my writerly repertoire? I could probable eke out a mediocre haiku, or perhaps a brief persuasive piece on why dinosaurs are better than unicorns. (I've already popped a narrative into the suggestions box.)
Patti
2022-06-15 00:47:09 +0000 UTCKelly we love an empowered slut!🤣 it’s a term of endearment for me at this point but even before that it’s just hot🥵 I always appreciate when you mention your dynamic along with some of the other belles because I feel seen. It wasn’t until the year before last that I let go of trying to force myself to follow “traditional” relationship dynamics and was like that doesn’t work for me. It always reminds me my normal is normal
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-15 00:44:41 +0000 UTCMaaaaaaaaaaatt 🥹🥺 I wish I could give you such a big hug after this audio. I’m having a lot of unexpected feels
darbyofshire
2022-06-15 00:38:43 +0000 UTC🥹🥹🥹🥹 Matt, you sweet puppy! I generally feel similar to how you describe, but for the opposite reason. My libido is often higher than my partners’, so I feel like I’m not good enough, pretty enough, sexy enough because they don’t want it all the time like I do. At the same time, I don’t like bringing it up much because I don’t want anyone to feel guilty for not wanting it all the time like I do. It’s a conundrum. With lots of opening up and reassurance from my fiancé, we’ve just come to the conclusion that I’m insatiable. 😅 And that’s ok. As to your first comment, I’m a slut and I have no qualms about it! That’s why we’re polyamorous and why I also get plenty of “kelly time” (and you, Matt, have become a regular part of kelly time 😙) when they’re not feeling it. Good thing I just got some kelly time before my arm starts hurting. Got my second booster, y’all!!! Taking shots, saving the world! 😁 Feeling like I got punched hard in the arm is so worth it if I’m keeping myself and my community healthy. Yay!
Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)
2022-06-15 00:33:46 +0000 UTCSo this is take 3 on my comment. I had to stop after around minute 4 and come back to finish. Glad I did, but man Matthew you really hit the feels on this one! Plus I’m hyper sensitive this week anyway with my 50th birthday on Friday and depending on the day depends on how I feel about it. I think you’re setting my bar too high on men; men my age just don’t talk like this and they should. What woman doesn’t want their partner say such loving things? I’ll be in New York City for a long 4-day weekend with some friends but I have the hotel room for myself. Maybe I’ll listen to the Friday audio when I’m back to my room. May even bring a toy or two and pretend it’s you! ❤️❤️💜💜
Lavender Belle (Jenn)
2022-06-15 00:33:14 +0000 UTCOh, Kris. 🥲🫂💜
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-15 00:29:22 +0000 UTCI was thinking about your emotions in this audio. 🥲🫂
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-15 00:24:19 +0000 UTCI would hug you so long if I could. To be diminished by a lover is a psychological curb stomping. Thank you reminding me that hurt happens but, so does caring. Which reminds me of what an older women told me that I should have believed sooner “There are no frigid women just unkind men (lovers) who don’t know what the fuck they’re doing.” Thank you, Maddy You are a very good man. XOXO 🖤🐇
BunnyRabbit
2022-06-15 00:22:22 +0000 UTCI pulled over to write this… I got a minute and a half in and had to stop. (I listened to Farmers Market in traffic yesterday and really enjoyed myself until someone tried to sideswipe me during the “show me how much pressure” part and it ruined the vibe 😂) I have rewritten what I want to say 4 times…. and I just deleted it again. So never mind, I’ll be back after I listen to the entire thing. I just know I felt more feeling in 90 seconds than I have in 10 years and whoaaaaaaaaaa buddy what are you doing. Okay I need to drive, though I wish it was to Seattle and not introspective village. & allllllllll the kisssesss They keep getting better. 😘
Katie
2022-06-15 00:22:11 +0000 UTCThat's good 😌
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-15 00:17:19 +0000 UTCHaha, I really do need to do an AMA huh?! Well I might need to explain that as an undergrad, I did a lot of non-specialist papers, and crashed friend’s courses - everything from graphic design to genetics to logic to musicology. (One of my proudest moments was getting an A- for a musical composition in a course I wasn’t even enrolled in 🤣). But I’m terrible with Math, so I often have dreams that I’m back in high school, actually paying attention this time and passing. So yep - I’d study math - so I don’t have to endure those dreams anymore. 😂
Matthew Tower
2022-06-15 00:17:19 +0000 UTCHey Matt, I'll bet you an orgasm that our clothes look better on the floor 😏👗👔⬇️
Dawn
2022-06-15 00:15:30 +0000 UTCSo many emotions. I think I need a wine. 🥲
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-15 00:12:47 +0000 UTC🥰 Thank-you for being you too, Tracie! I feel pretty lucky that we get to make each other‘s worlds a little richer. 😘xx
Matthew Tower
2022-06-15 00:08:16 +0000 UTCI just heard cum called high fructose p0rn syrup. My life has changed forever 🤣
Dawn
2022-06-15 00:06:55 +0000 UTCThat's just beautiful to read that you're in a better place right now, love. Just... I'm sharing this hug with you. 🥺🫂
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-15 00:03:20 +0000 UTCHola Georgette! I did one paper at University, but it was stuff I knew inside out already because I had a part-time job in that area, so I didn’t take it further... 😁
Matthew Tower
2022-06-15 00:00:22 +0000 UTCHa nice, 69 comments 👀 And I'm sorry Matt, no letter has arrived yet? If not, imma send another one! 💞 Take care y'all, and a good night x
Lisa xx
2022-06-14 23:59:54 +0000 UTCDawn - it made me feel things too. I felt all super-protective while I was making the audio. At least until the end. Then I was just ravaging you!! 😅 😘xx
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:55:59 +0000 UTCBabe, I wish I could give my soul so you could hug it. I've been there. I love you. You're one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. I'm truly honest about it. You deserve love and care and respect. 😭❤️🫂
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-14 23:54:33 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing your thoughts, Matt !I'm very glad that women have started to reclaim the terms "hoe" and "slut". It seems like women can never please anyone in that sense. Either we're too prudish, yet in a way it's seen as being "pure" but when we make it apparent, that we're just as sexual as men and enjoy it, then we're seen as "whores", "sluts" and whatever else. Anyway, hope all you lovelies have a nice day/night and I can't wait to listen to this audio in a bit :).
Sdwwd
2022-06-14 23:51:58 +0000 UTCSo my first thought was I can’t do this one. But I’m glad I did. I’ve talked about my past often but there’s aspects of my past relationship I’ve not talked about here. At the time I only spoke of it my best friend. So my ex had a group of women that I slowly found out about and then all at once. They took it upon themselves, along with my ex, to all laugh and joke that the reason I deserved to be cheated on was because I just laid there. Said horrible things about my lack of ability to please a man, and that’s why I couldn’t keep one. Then they stole my photo to put a face to the convo and took it to social media. I dealt with the bullying that whole year. And his response when I pleaded with him for all of them to leave me alone was he had needs and I was his second choice anyways and couldn’t live up to her. So this whole thing was really intense for me. Not being scared of our past is where I lost it. I have this fear that maybe it’s too much. I mean it’s not the sum of who I am but it’s definitely made me grow into who I’ve become. Theres’s still days where I think I’ve been ruined. No one will want damage goods. But they’re a lot farther between now. It was nice to have your voice say things we all hope to hear in those types of situations. Still turning my walls into windows I see lol
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-06-14 23:51:27 +0000 UTChttps://ibb.co/ZM5vnvx
Dawn
2022-06-14 23:48:39 +0000 UTCDenee - I hope the audio is a big word-hug for you. 🫂 My guess is that even though you realise this kind of manipulation is a lie after you’re out of the relationship, it can still sting at times. 😔 Biggest congratulations for getting out of that relationship. Not everyone can do it. 💜
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:45:33 +0000 UTCHoly fuck Matthew, damn! By far, for me, this is the sexist audio EVER. It is raw, loving, caring and hot! You're in the moment, and your expertise has a lover is evident, you can be gentle and rough at the same time. I swear I had an orgasm just listening....well done Master Matthew well done💜😍🤗😘
Linda
2022-06-14 23:44:55 +0000 UTCUm wow how dare you put feelings in my porn good sir! Think I knew this was going to hit a little too close to home when you said “Come back to me”. In my early sexual life I flopped between periods of hypersexuality and complete abstinence, I was always either too much or not enough for the people I was with and trying to navigate the world of relationships and dating as a then undiagnosed individual with ASD on top of trying to repress my asexuality was frustrating in ways I can’t properly express. I found myself craving the attention of people who I should have known better than to trust with my journey, one person even said himself that the thing he liked most about me was my inexperience yet whenever I didn’t perform to his standards it was always my fault and I should do better, be more, but he had no intention of teaching me. Thankfully I’m in a better place now, I know myself and how my brain functions but the impact of those people has left me with lifelong wounds that I’ve learned to live with and having them torn open again with this audio was strangely cathartic. Guess it shows how much I’ve grown over the years to hear you address these specific insecurities of mine and believe you when you say none of it matters, that I’m worthy and accepting and deserving of love, that I am enough without even trying to be. I don’t know what the point of this comment is, I don’t know if anyone will relate or read it but hey ho 😅 Thank you for all that you do Matthew, you’re so much more than just some sexy man on the internet but you know that already 😜 Snugs and hugs from across the world xx
Niamh
2022-06-14 23:43:52 +0000 UTCHave you ever been a teacher?
Eternidad
2022-06-14 23:42:52 +0000 UTCRequest impossible to fulfill: I wish you were a dirty talker and that I found this audio twelve years ago. One of the hardest battles in my mind was understanding everything you said in that audio. I had to rebuild myself for years and still, I often can't see myself the way people see me. One of my best friends said 'You look beautiful today, Falla.' And my answer. 'Oh, it's the makeup and the dress.' And then she smiled at me and said 'Why don't you take the fucking compliment?' But I'm learning to accept that and love who I am every day a little more. I'm in tears as I type this, and possibly my head is far from being able to define what this audio meant to me. Stop talking to my soul, Matt. I'm lying, fuck you, never stop. But I have to say, a part of me knows that when I take off my clothes for your voice, I am accepted as I am and I am adored as I am and that takes me to a vertex of acceptance and love where I feel perfect within my imperfections. Thank you for making love to us today. It was what I needed. You're beautiful, Tower. You are the most adorable fucking man I've ever met. This audio made me want to walk with the tip of my nose from your shoulder to your earlobe, leave a secret kiss on your neck, and then bite your ear slowly. And then climb on you and do Shakira moves. 😌 Thank-you, precious. 🥺 The world doesn't deserve you, but I'm grateful that we have you here. ❤️
ਏFallaਓ
2022-06-14 23:42:09 +0000 UTCDearest Matthew, week after week you spoil us. All the smut and filth is an absolute delight. The hours spent fantasizing about your body pressed into mine, your tongue curved around my nipple or riding high between my thighs, cock caressing my cupid's bow, are far more than I could admit while retaining any sort of dignity. You mind makes such fantastic experiences and I'm so glad you choose to share them. For a man whose voice is laced with lust, your words couldn't be sweeter. The consideration you put into your audios, the way you listen and learn from all of us here, the time you take to show that you care, it all means so much. Recognizing there is healing to be had even in this odd, fantastical space you've created tells me so much about the heart of empathy beating inside you. I and a number of belles/beaus have been on the brutal receiving end of abuse by partners. It's not a sexy topic; It's an incredibly difficult one to broach. Regardless you acknowledge it. You discuss it openly and honestly, remind people they are safe, and put your fucking heart in it. Your genuine concern and sensitivity for us here is so endearing. Dearest Matthew, I cannot help but think of a much younger self, a more naïve self, who heals more and everyday by thinking about a man across the ocean, and smiling. I don't know of any other creators who manage that. I can't name a creator who makes me cry, laugh, and masturbate in one 15 minute post either. Just you. I consider myself very blessed to have found you. I'm pretty agnostic about it all but I might just start believing in angels if you stick around💜
Kris
2022-06-14 23:40:16 +0000 UTCBesides Literature and Audio Engineering, are there any other subjects that you would be interested in studying?
Eternidad
2022-06-14 23:32:52 +0000 UTCFor all kinds of reasons, many, from beginning to end, this was something quite special. And boy, did I need special today. Thank you for being you❤️🦋x
CaperBelle Audios 💘
2022-06-14 23:32:15 +0000 UTC👋🏻Hola Matt 😊 Have you ever studied cinematography?
Eternidad
2022-06-14 23:29:40 +0000 UTCThis audio made me feel things, and not just those things fellow perverts (or sluts). Incredibly warm and moving Matt, the fantasy for many, having physical intimacy with someone who definitely has emotional and intellectual intimacy as well. Can you say best boyfriend ever? 💜 Bravo Handsome, bravo
Dawn
2022-06-14 23:27:53 +0000 UTCYesssssss. I would wear the sh1t out of that shirt
Dawn
2022-06-14 23:21:56 +0000 UTCHey Daphne! Exactly! And context is to words what the room and lighting is to a painting. - - I’m really glad the topic was brought up! 💜
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:21:14 +0000 UTCMmmm, tart.
Dawn
2022-06-14 23:21:10 +0000 UTCWell I didn’t expect to listen to this and start crying. I was with a manipulative emotional abuser for five years. Another new favorite audio.
Denee Leery
2022-06-14 23:19:32 +0000 UTCEee needs his 'ed read, Meg! 😊 Hey there! xx
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:14:06 +0000 UTCSlow dancing boobies 4 eva. 🥰 I'm great Maggie - hope you're well!! xx
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:12:54 +0000 UTC“You can be a slut of anything.” That’s a tshirt. 🤭🤭🤭
Katie
2022-06-14 23:11:15 +0000 UTCHey Bunnikins, what's hoppin'?
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:10:46 +0000 UTCIt's all about the POVs... 😁
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:10:26 +0000 UTCI'm a Tower slut and proud of it. And also, just a slutty person in general. I have been told that I secrete sexual vibes even when I'm not trying. Such a compliment!! And I agree the words said at the right moment can be exhilarating. Other words you use that stand out Tart. Right ( as a directional term..."bend right over" that's actually my favorite. I love when you use that. I think it's just part of your speech pattern, but my goodness it tweaks something in my head. Hope you are having a lovely day Matt. I hope you had the world's best cup of coffee today. 💜💜💜
Raegan Howard
2022-06-14 23:09:49 +0000 UTCSemantics, nuance, context are to words what graduated color, hue shifts, values are to painting. I love having my perceptions tweaked (among other things) - thank you, Matt. “Slut” has a different tone than it did an hour ago. 💜
Daphne
2022-06-14 23:09:25 +0000 UTCThe individual on question needs to see a medical specialist. Something is obviously wrong with his sense of taste 👅
Meg_just_Meg
2022-06-14 23:06:09 +0000 UTCMatt, there's boobies in this! https://youtu.be/oGdVSvsiaOk You're gonna be disappointed again, though 🤣 (I hope you're feeling better!)
Maggie Ren
2022-06-14 23:05:51 +0000 UTCHello Gorgeous 🖤🐇
BunnyRabbit
2022-06-14 23:01:53 +0000 UTCPOV: you’re here for the comments 🙃
DJ
2022-06-14 23:01:21 +0000 UTCAlsoooooo! Just a note on my use of ‘slut’ or similar terms in audios which came up in the comments on the last post. Well, to start with, I hope it’s apparent I’m not using them in a shaming sense, but just to be sure we're on the same page, I thought it would be good to drop you a note on my thoughts about it? No doubt the word was once the stock insult of misogynistic building-site louts and bitchy gossip-girls. Recently though, I think usage of the word has changed, and that historical usage is more a TV cliche than a reality. Maybe it’s due to intersectional feminism reclaiming the word, or movements like the SlutWalk, or maybe it’s meme culture, or increased understanding of other sexualities due to LGBTQ+, maybe it’s the legalisation and legitimisation of sex-work, or books on polyamory like The Ethical Slut, or maybe it’s better social gender equity overall. Maybe it’s just culture. I’m not sure. But words like ‘shut’ and ‘hoe’ have been reclaimed for many people, and for others I’d say they’re a lot less powerful than they were. You can be a slut of anything. If you like ice-cream you’re an ice-cream-slut. You can join a group for sluts and slut-fans on Reddit or start a Twitter account and post anonymous pictures of your body for fun and appreciation (and I know several brave Belles do already!). You can use it as a common tag to describe your sexuality on dating and kink apps. Even activities once deemed slutty are mainstream. Where I live, pole-dancing classes for fitness-sluts have even opened to men. Dress codes have relaxed to the point that if a woman is told to cover up, it becomes a news story where the context is debated, airlines apologise, cafe workers are fired. I even saw an ad recently which was desperately trying to recruit men for a sex club where the amount of woman wanting the gangbang experience exceeded the amount of vetted men willing to participate. (For me, it’s not an ad I’d actually answer, but I found the fantasy hot, and thought you would too - hence audio 😁). I'm babbling a bit now, but my point is that the concept of the slut which once meant ‘promiscuous and easy’ is now used often as term of endearment - and a way of saying unabashedly: I enjoy my body and why shouldn’t I? That said, I understand that the word will always retain some power from its etymology and history of its usage. Thankfully it does! Because if it didn’t it wouldn’t be sexy to use in dirty talk. So yes, in an audio when I say something like ‘oh my god you’re turning me on, you hot little angel slut’, I’m conscious that I’m still pulling a little of the chain of history to use it as a trigger word. In that sense, I’m using it in the same way as you use a swear word like ‘fuck’. As you probably know already, taboo words / curse words / swears - have long been known to work as emotional regulators, providing psychological and physical release. Studies have shown that using words like ‘fuck’ can actually alleviate pain by about one third. Similarly, words like ‘slut’ and ‘cunt’ trigger a sexual release for many people in the right moment or context. Rather than shame, it can be a release of repression. If you’ve ever stood on an empty beach and screamed at the sea, you’ll know what I mean by the cathartic effect of using dirty words. There’s a great release in saying things and hearing things said, that we’d normally suppress. So when I use these kinds of words in an audio, I use them assuming these contexts. I’m speaking to you as a person who can say unabashedly: I enjoy sex and why shouldn’t I? I’m reaffirming that for us both. And I’m also saying it to toy with the taboo, for the fun and frisson and naughtiness of it, and for the emotional release and catharsis. I just wanted to be sure you know that I’m never saying it like a greasy lout on a building site might. It’s always in love and naughtiness, M xx
Matthew Tower
2022-06-14 23:00:59 +0000 UTC
