AFFIRMATIONS: PLACES TO GROW (Relaxing, ASMR)
Added 2022-05-10 23:09:04 +0000 UTCHeeeeey.....
Hope your week has started well!
Here's a little comfort audio which I hope you might find calming and relaxing. It's totally SFW and I hope it will make a good meditation or sleep-aid for those who aren't ASMR tingleheads :)
Hugs and snugs,
💜🧔🏻Matthew
*I realise this is the first SFW audio I've posted in quite a while... If it's not your thing, don’t worry because I have very naughty plans for you on Friday. 😜
**I’ll be posting a little update note in the comments below if you’re interested in what I’ve been up to and/or Turret related matters!
***I’m online for a few hours too if you want to say hello - just working on some insta poems and stuff! xx
Comments
Human sound blanket. #perfect
Ann
2022-05-13 21:54:02 +0000 UTCI fell asleep to this last night. It was nice. I like how the more time goes on the longer you pause. I kinda dose then it’s like oh hi 🤗 and then I go sleepy again. So I missed out on the introspection this time. That’s my free gift with the reading of this comment. Thank you for being a human sound blanket. 🫂
Katie
2022-05-13 19:00:38 +0000 UTCI listened to the audio on the way home from work again last night. I feel that I missed a lot the first time. Perhaps I was caught up in the frustration of Matt having the issues and focused on my irritation of that situation. Perhaps I just need to hear things more than once to really grasp everything. This audio was one of the most enjoyable I've ever heard. So inspiring and uplifting. It made me take a step back and truly think about what was being said. It was audio truth. I walked away feeling powerful and self assured. Thank you Matt for the beauty of these words.
Dawn
2022-05-13 15:51:21 +0000 UTCWow your art looks great. Hope your time with your fiancé is exactly what you both need it to be. 🤗
Ann
2022-05-13 11:43:16 +0000 UTCHello, my lovelies! I probably won't be able to chat tomorrow. Gonna be helping my fiancé with some emotional stuff. But I wanted to drop in now and say I love you guys! And to show you some progress on a new project I'm working on. I usually go into great detail in my art, so I'm challenging myself with minimalist portraits - strong women! I have 10 planned, and this is my first. https://ibb.co/Vqp6BTy Gonna replace the Lorem ipsum with quotes from the individual women, but I'm really liking the concept of using background text to show their silhouette. Others I plan to do are Greta Thunberg, Harriet Tubman, Marie Curie, and more! 😁
Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)
2022-05-13 08:29:43 +0000 UTCTomorrow's ensemble. I love summer 🌞 https://ibb.co/ZznXGhF
Dawn
2022-05-13 03:02:11 +0000 UTCVenus you said in Katie's feed that you are listening. Operation Heathen Drawer is on. You have Nora which is great. Might I suggest Dolce because that little doll just covers it all. Slide one end in and notch the other end out. It is a nice little toy and you can walk around with it. I like sitting in the rocking chair with it in. Anyway you get both parts of PMM awesome patterns. I actually like it better than Nora probably because I don't have to worry about it slipping out. So that would be a recommendation. Satisfyers are great for just some serious clit action. Penguin dude does not disappoint. Not connected to BT so no pattern but sometimes before sleep you just want something quick and the satisfyer...well satisfys. Oscii is a nice one too but it only has one head so to speak so you will only feel one part of the pattern. It is nice and the girth I believe is a little smaller than Nora. I like to pair Oscii with the satisfyer. Oooohhhhh then there is the backdoor toy. put that in with another toy and boy howdy will you come crazy like. Lovense allows for two toys to be played with at the same time. So imagine back with the [wait looking up the name] Hush2 and Dolce hitting both inside and the clit. That is all three at the same time. OMG and with the newest patterns OH WOW!!!! I am on it this weekend. The newest patterns are.....Man I have a final due today and It is 45 minutes until I turn into a pumpkin and here I am dreaming about toys. Not super eloquent but hopefully I got some information across. I really do need to explore other toy options. If anyone has a suggestion I will take it. Sharing is caring. 😈 Now back to school work. UGH! Hey if I put dolce in right now do you suppose that I will be motivated to get the final done faster or would it hamper my progress due to distraction? Hmmm....
Ann
2022-05-13 01:21:59 +0000 UTCI know yall are going to be like "don't worry about it" but I'm sorry for the lack of facts. I really didn't expect to be so busy so soon after I "came back" the last time. I don't have time to do a fact everyday, but I'm going to do them when I can 😊. Don't fight me. I want to do it lol. I heard the first Owl of the year last night, so now I'm sharing Owl facts. 1.) A group of owls is called a Parliament (they have my vote lol 🤣) 2.) Barn owls can recognize the shape of their face (💜) 3.) I love them. (This is a very important fact shhhhh 🤫🤣)
Maggie Ren
2022-05-12 20:02:31 +0000 UTCComming home after the longest trip since 2019 this was totally what I needed. Thanks & good night 💜
SİNdarElle
2022-05-12 18:48:05 +0000 UTC😳😏
Ann
2022-05-12 18:22:19 +0000 UTCToday I am wearing my first sundress of the year. You know what that means Matt? No estoppel usando ropa interior 😈
Dawn
2022-05-12 16:27:28 +0000 UTCWow there is so much to see in that picture. I love it. Thank you for sharing 🥰
Ann
2022-05-12 14:32:27 +0000 UTCGood morning my loves🌱https://ibb.co/Csc3VRC
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-05-12 14:24:16 +0000 UTCYay!!!!!!!! Go bunny!!!!!🐇💃
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-05-12 14:17:20 +0000 UTCBunny Dance So it’s official I finish my program and I will be a official certified teacher. That’s all assuming my payment clears…. 📓🖍✏️🖤🐇
BunnyRabbit
2022-05-12 14:09:37 +0000 UTCNicely said. 🤗💜
Ann
2022-05-12 05:55:25 +0000 UTCThank you for this, Matthew 🥹💚
darbyofshire
2022-05-12 04:53:52 +0000 UTCIts something quite different this relashionship we have here. I have been in this patreon for more than six months (when I got in we were like 200 ladies). And we all always got along well, we have known matthew in diferent ways that he never ever had to actually speak directly in order for us to understand. Even tough the man behind this beloved voice has a face, most of us always respected this privacy (and you, ours - cause we know you always took well care of our data). Is very sad that this has happened, but you are doing all for the best reasons. 💙 The belles folder, Its nice to think that after my comments (not so often) you actually know a small piece of me, we all have so much of you... This mutual friendship and crush feelings we all here share for one another (belles and Matthew and all) is very real and always makes us feel light. Mat, everything changes, but you and your voice (and the mistery of your face) will always be the most delicious crush to fall for. So its all the same and its ok. 💙
Sall
2022-05-12 04:41:36 +0000 UTCSaving yourself from the tower tennis elbow huh👀🤣🤣🙌🏼 Maybe he’s a dapper gentlemen does that help😂
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-05-12 02:48:39 +0000 UTCAnn!!!! I think this is the one I’m going to get. It’s like the penguin, but without the adorable bow tie so I won’t confuse my innocence lol! https://www.adameve.com/adult-sex-toys/vibrators/clit-vibrators/sp-satisfyer-breathless-by-adam-eve-108021.aspx
Katie
2022-05-12 02:14:07 +0000 UTCWell that is just perfect. What a wonderful quote. Thank you so much for sharing Linda. I am writing it down on a sticky note to put in my journal. Sleep well 🤗💜
Ann
2022-05-12 01:50:24 +0000 UTCHello lovelies! I love the encouragement, support, kindness and beauty of all you lovely ladies, such a gift😊. I would like to share a quote that I found that has been my mantra of strength and resilience, I hope you can find the same.......I will not be another flower picked for my beauty and left to die, I will be wild, difficult to find and impossible to forget....quote by Erin VanVuren.....It is bedtime for me, goodnight lovelies🤗
Linda
2022-05-12 01:46:14 +0000 UTCI’m so excited to see your video! I totally get the social exhaustion recover period! And I’m glad you took the time. Introspective hangovers. Hydrate!!! 💜 Maybe with your coffee mug! 🤷♀️🥰
Katie
2022-05-12 01:13:41 +0000 UTCThank you Ann for your beautiful words and all the encouragements! I'm so so happy to see you thriving like this. How you challenged yourself and still continuing to do so shows just how strong you too are. You're beautiful in every shape and every size. Growing is painful but knowing we're not alone makes all the difference. It's truly my pleasure to have met you. 🤗💜
Katja
2022-05-12 00:41:07 +0000 UTCMy Anonymity I found refuge in my anonymity. I held the shield up not just to protect myself but also to hide. As this past year has gone on, I have shared openly and freely (probably too much) my questions, concerns, struggles, and triumphs. A few years ago I made the decision to be as authentic and as transparent as I can. How can I expect people to be real with me if I am not even real with myself let alone them? As I opened up here my goal was to speak up so that other would see what I questioned or was going through and maybe gain hope, or understanding, or a sense that maybe they aren’t alone. How can I be authentic me if I don’t challenge myself and push my boundaries to find out who I really am. I have explored so much here over the past year and learned so much about myself. I spoke on the AMA audio. OMG, I put an audio of me coming in the turret. Yea mostly I just did silent breathing, grunted a couple of times, and then laughed. Super sexy hahaha but that wasn’t the point. The point was to challenge myself. One area that I really struggle with (this is one of many) is my looks. I am not thin, I am aging (I made a deal with the time fairies, but time still passes) and frankly I am not even ‘normal fat’. I hate clothes shopping because nothing fits. Up until recently (internet) it was almost impossible to find a bra that fit me; think barrel torso (thank you children) and size B boobs. Not easy to fit. Anyway, putting my face here seemed like the next step towards owning who I am and working towards being ok with it. Nah not just ok with it but loving myself. I am not an it. Moving out of the shadows. I strive to be me always and I am finding new parts as I chip away at old parts. I posted my picture and write this in honor of those who are on a path of self-discovery and acceptance. YOU are stronger than you think. YOU are beautiful. YOU are not alone. With love, Ann DeChenne Not Anonymous Anymore
Ann
2022-05-12 00:22:29 +0000 UTCHad a dr. Appointment today. All I thought of was dr. Matt Who has this in the exam room lol https://ibb.co/8NW7ND5
Dawn
2022-05-11 20:16:15 +0000 UTCYes!!!
Titania
2022-05-11 18:52:12 +0000 UTCThis text is beautiful! It got me very emotional. I don't have the ASMR tingles but I do have the Matt voice shivers.
Laurence
2022-05-11 18:25:40 +0000 UTCMore like subconsciously I know but still find it semi surprising it happens. I mean candy truly is my tel. Huge craving, than I Buy a bag and eat it al. Next day party starts and I'm still surprised it's that time again...but than remember the candy🙈 🤣
NeonVall
2022-05-11 14:39:44 +0000 UTCAaah I'm so tired it's not funny anymore 😩. Just got home from work and been busy since yesterday sinds 5:30 AM ..almost 35 hours later. I love the job very much now...😑 Im going to take a shower and then I'll will start reading the comments or just listen to this audio and take a power nap. Post this convo of the day here with a client, age 86: Client: Granddaughter broke up with girlfriend… know I don't mind… these kind of relationship. Me: I don't mind it at all either. Do hope she's okay though? Client: But you know in the bible... Me: *😑silently thinking: omg don't mind ... refer to bible ... old people, old people!* Client: Adam was there and alone and... you know, just looking for fun and then *points up* God listened and Eve came. 😂 Me: 😂 Yes, that's the story of creations. Adam was bored so God lifted him up, shook him back and forth and when his rib accidentally flew out there was Eve. Made to banish boredom. Client: * chuckles* So I can therefore understand this. I mean I get it too because *subtly shake head at partner* Me: 😀 nod..*starts to wonder* Customer: And that's why I understand men, same kind of .. you know.. Move 😳 Me: 👀 uhuh.. client: But how?? how woman?? I just don't get it. How does that work? How does it work? Me: 😶😶.... Do you want me to tell you about the birds the bees and the flowers??🤭
NeonVall
2022-05-11 14:28:09 +0000 UTCThis has nothing to do with anything… Just something I have wanted to share but haven’t yet… Ever been able to tell the EXACT moment your period has started and you feel like a wizard? 🤭 🪄 Hope that made you smile at least 😘
Katie
2022-05-11 14:25:35 +0000 UTChttps://vm.tiktok.com/ZML736tps/?k=1 just thought this was a good little reminder and wanted to share. It's something I personally often need. And Matt, maybe this could be a bit of inspiration for your poem to come together 😌. Have a great day everyone!
Katja
2022-05-11 11:05:22 +0000 UTCOh dear, wonderful Matthew, I am so sorry this is happening to you, especially after the precautions you took. :( I hope that *somehow* this is a gateway into something new and interesting, and that there won't be any huge personal costs to you. Like others have said, we love you and want you to be happy and flourishing. While I understand the time of the Belles' Turret has run its course (you are making a good decision and I support you 100%) I am sad that it's going. It was one of the things that brought this community into fuller expression of mutual knowing and care, even back when we were just sharing recipes and hobbies. We opened up, we blossomed after that. And your feedback, Matt, the sweet little notes, and your attention to detail...well, that did a world of good. What are the patreon rules for linking NSFW pictures in the comments? The audio was wonderful. I intend to absorb it more and come back with more feels and words. 💙💚💛
Titania
2022-05-11 03:16:39 +0000 UTCDon't get me wrong, I love the naughty audios but as someone who is addicted the Calm app I'd rather listen to your voice during my meditations. Glad I have another one to add to my rotation, I practically have the one from November memorized 😂
Alaina
2022-05-11 03:14:26 +0000 UTC💜D - you Princess, that’s such a heartwarming message and I’m so incredibly honoured that my voice inspires those feelings! Your brother must love you a lot to let you call him Matty!! 😁 But thanks for such incredibly kind words and for supporting me to do whatever it is I do! I’m so glad the timing has been hitting the spot too - I hope Friday’s does… 😉xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 03:02:14 +0000 UTCYeah, how've you been doing? I'm really looking forward to the AMA post. What's new in the Turret?
Eternidad
2022-05-11 02:56:09 +0000 UTCTotally dig the SFW's
Eternidad
2022-05-11 02:49:40 +0000 UTCThe Espresso Martinis help, Kelly 🍸 I’m kidding - mostly - but I’m really all good now thank-you! And the end of the Belles folders is not gonna stop us appreciating your new art is it! 😉 xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 02:45:56 +0000 UTCOkay serious post and then we shall pretend this never happened so I can go back to being the weird animal fact lady (Also sorry about lacks of facts. I thought I wasn't busy and then the universe laughed maniacally at me.) Matt - I hope you realize and understand that those of us who truly care about you, we always have and always will. I don't like to speak for others, but I think it's okay to say we want what's best for you. And that no one wants to see you be hurt in anyway. You're the Tower, and we're the guards protecting it. And I will fight you if you think differently. I'm not going to beg you to go through the burner, but if you happen to come across what I sent, you will know further what I mean. 😘 Okay back to weird Maggie this didn't happen shhhhhhh 🤫
Maggie Ren
2022-05-11 02:29:18 +0000 UTCIt's such a cutie!! 😍 Now all that's left is the voice and hugging light 🤣
NeonVall
2022-05-11 02:28:17 +0000 UTCThe theme of growth and nature is just perfect. I really love this audio. I didn't get a chance to comment on Friday's, but I loved that one too. It makes me happy that you're setting boundaries for your safety and your energy. Having the folder was fun, but the biggest lesson from it was that we CAN share ourselves. That's still true even with the folder gone. Thank you for encouraging us to continue sharing here in the comments. And the discord. I feel like I'm finally getting a handle on how to use Discord. Is the PO Box still ok or do you need to let that go? Do what is best for you and your time management. I'm still working on editing my holi-date. This little project inspired a lot of introspection that I'm still processing. I was worried my daily life was too boring so I ran around like crazy for two weeks filming a shitton of stuff. It was socially exhausting and I am only just recovered enough to start interacting with humans again. I ended up going to too many places and filming way more than I can use. In parring it down, I'm having to ask myself what is important to me and what is a good representation of me. I know it's been said a lot, but, dang, I never would have expected the intellectual and emotional journey that has stemmed from joining this Patreon.
IndyJane
2022-05-11 02:25:58 +0000 UTCI almost forgot my nerd alert. https://ibb.co/ypZ1mQ7
Dawn
2022-05-11 02:21:03 +0000 UTCGoodnight you gorgeous humans! 😘
Dawn
2022-05-11 02:13:41 +0000 UTCHmmm…. Thank you for spinning my cogs….
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 02:10:31 +0000 UTCSo after notification that new audio has come out, I put this off to listen for as long as I could. I just came home from late shift and in a few hours I start the day and I still had to prepare this. Since the time now indicates that it is wiser to skip the night, made some coffee (Yes, Mona coffee 🙈) and thought some no screen time with this audio. Have to admit I couldn't listen completely because thoughts were elsewhere. But do you know that moment when you are busy with something, you listen to some music and than sometimes you suddenly hear something of the music you have on? So I just had that, also quite coincidentally with the kisses part. So what I heard sounded good but I can't report more on content until tomorrow after work. And then I opened the coments… what an opening. I want to bring you a comfort blanket with a hot mug of coco, whipped cream (or something else comforting) and a big smooch. Because what sht that this is all happening now. Can understand that this also does something to you since you invest time and energy to create something and these kinds of negative experiences are not rewarding for your hard work and can have the opposite effect. The Turret folder I can understand.. I also thought of the things you were thinking about. But the sense of responsibility is less since this is something you have built up of which I can be gratefully a part. But because of this, the maintenance falls on you with all its advantages and disadvantages, so if something happens it is a creation, an extension of you that will be affected by this. Of course also a shame because what was shared was great! It also added to this community that I was also impressed what everyone wanted to share with each other and get to know everyone as person and country they came from. Matthew, Thank you for everything you do for us, all the time you put into this and all the fun, relaxed and sexy hours we can have with each other every week. And then part 2 of that message. I just can't get my head around people doing this. The audios and Merch that they steal from you..... There is a saying better stolen well than badly thought, so if you believe in that there always is something good to learn when bad things happen.. Mabey it might be that you are on a very good track!! Those who do this probably see a certain benefit in it and cannot achieve this themselves due to lack of creativity or simply not wanting to put in the time but still want benefits And I am very sorry that your privacy is not valued! I mean like why?? The world is already full of selfish egoistic people, so why chase away the people who try and make the world a bit better en enjoyable place? Be happy and Enjoy it's there! and don't just investigate someone in a deep dive internet research, what can have consequences on someone's life, just because you can't stand the fact that some things remain secret. Then sign out, go cry in your room until it's out of your system and get on with your life! they wouldn't like it either if it happened to them. Sorry if this comes across as aggressive but it just so tiring that things seems to work this way. And with that said.. Matthew I love you, your mind and your soul..and *coughs* body ( can't leave that out 😆😉 ). But no Joking truly Thanks again for all that you do! 🤗😘💜 And also a big love shout for everyone here! I Love this place that carries the voice and hearts of all the Bells, Beau’s an Members of the court ❤💜❤
NeonVall
2022-05-11 02:09:23 +0000 UTC💜 Linda - thanks for sharing these parts of yourself with me too! What you’re saying about trying to please people reminds me of a funny - but no less true - song by The Smiths - (Heaven Knows… ). I know what you mean by needing a tune up though. Nicely said. That has been me exactly this week! xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 02:07:21 +0000 UTCBut also this happened yesterday😉 https://ibb.co/K0RgpB7
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-05-11 01:54:10 +0000 UTCThank you for allowing me to harass everyone with my 🥥🥥🤣 so many things that allowed me to embrace my shadows too that I don’t have the opportunity to on my socials. (Last time my pics got stolen and put on an onlyfans type site🙈💀) but anyways, you winning claw machines and giving us affirmations is doing my heart in🥹
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-05-11 01:52:28 +0000 UTCSpeaking of poetry and saying naughty things, I came across this on Reddit the other day: Poets are like terms of service contracts. They use many words and elaborate eloquent language to describe how they are going to f*ck you.😜xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 01:46:27 +0000 UTCHey Sarah Ruth! Yeah, it feels like ages since you first shared your artwork in there… it will never be forgotten though! 🥰 I hope this audio is a good sleep aid too. And I’ll have to make a 2022 compilation at the end of the year again! xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 01:37:49 +0000 UTCMatt...you absolute prince!!! Is it wrong that I no longer arrive on Tuesadays & Fridays surprised when you "knew" just what I needed, but rather come with expectancy that if I hold space there WILL be things I needed? It's the closest I've come to calling you Matty... but since that's what I call my older brother I just can't. I feel that sentiment of love, appreciation, and looking up at you with adoration and thankfulness for your wisdom and protective care. I just also chose to acknowledge how sexy those mouth sounds are, and that the shivers you bring are delightful beyond just ASMR value. 😉 Thank you for adding value beyond just sexy time. I believe the world is a better place because of you and how you choose to share your gifts, Matthew. I'm so thankful YOU exist and we get to defy the laws of time and space. 😘💜🤗
D
2022-05-11 01:37:49 +0000 UTCUgh, I’m so sorry you have to deal with trolls and jerks online. Such a$$holes. 😢 I’m gonna miss the Belle’s folders, but I know you’re just trying to do what’s best for everyone. I sincerely hope you have something or someone comforting and reassuring to help through tough times like your voice is for us. You’re such a beautiful human and you deserve all the praise and affirmation you give. 💋💋💋
Kelly (Your Friendly Neighborhood Pansexual)
2022-05-11 01:31:16 +0000 UTC#CryIfYouNeedToKatie #JustDon'tGetStuckInSaddness #❤
Ann
2022-05-11 01:28:23 +0000 UTCJenn - it’s so lovely to hear you’ve listened to an audio that many times. 🥰I get attached to certain ASMR videos in the same way and maybe more, so I always wondered if anyone has fav Towers they listen to more than a handful of times. Also, Happy Birthday for next month sexy!!!
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 01:24:51 +0000 UTCPart of me wants to say a lot of sentimental things and let the tears fall… The other part of me is thrilled to not have to learn anything new about Dropbox. I can hide behind humor and still be authentic yes? #overcaffinated But really. If my love was a river…. 🫣🤭 But actually really. This has become my little home….fuck nope I can’t. Too many feelings. ✌️
Katie
2022-05-11 01:23:47 +0000 UTCTruth!
Ann
2022-05-11 01:22:58 +0000 UTCYour tough thing....YOU are TOUGHER! You got this. And we are here if you need us. 💜💜
Ann
2022-05-11 01:22:46 +0000 UTCTuesday’s and Fridays are the best days of the week. Thanks for another amazing audio, Matt! 🥰
Autumn
2022-05-11 01:20:53 +0000 UTCI'm really so sorry that you had to go through all that. I honestly feel for you as I would for any friend that I have. I admire how you stay so strong and positive, and also tender hearted. How sensible you are to think of everyone else who shared themselves in the folders and making this hard decision which in the big picture truly is for the best most probably. You're a beautiful human inside out, Matt. And for the audio, I've often thought about my identity and worked really hard (still am) on separating my self worth from other people's opinions and feelings. Especially the ones who don't know me. I have a tough thing coming tomorrow that will probably test all that, but I'll keep your comforting words in mind and let them keep me company instead of feeling all alone. I'm sending you much love! 💖 p.s. today's poem is so wise. I wish to love and be loved like that. A big hug!
Katja
2022-05-11 01:19:11 +0000 UTCI was just thinking, Matt, if you ever write a book, please publish under your pseudonym so we can know it's you 🥴
Dawn
2022-05-11 01:10:31 +0000 UTCAnn’s face!? 😃🥹☺️
Katie
2022-05-11 01:10:13 +0000 UTCHey Deanna! You could definitely use some moments of relaxation! It’s nice to see you popping up now and again on the social accounts btw…. 😘 xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 01:00:39 +0000 UTCThank you. Needed this after the chaotic day I had. 🥰
Amanda B Carlson
2022-05-11 00:49:45 +0000 UTCLately I've been a bit of a recluse, keeping to myself with no particular reason, I don't know, perhaps self care from the chaos of everyday life. The older I get the more quiet and solitude becomes my new best friend. Some days I feel like life is so much work, trying to please people who could careless if you existed but yet here I am. So amidst my self deprivation I read these words... exhale, live, free your mind, focus on your path and move forward.....been there, done that, let go, don't ever go back....move forward on a path toward enlightenment.... I am a soul that from time to time needs a little tune up, a time to bring me back to the center, in my solitude, I find myself in me and I find myself in you, Matthew, your words of affirmation are lovely and will keep me centered. Even through time, distance and space I am thankful that on a dark, lonely evening not so long ago a voice captured my attention and a spell was cast. The voice was sincere, passionate, naughty, with bit of mischievous humor, and kind....with a bite to my lower lip, I smiled (have not stop since) Thank you for sharing YOU with all of us Belles in waiting. Peace, Linda
Linda
2022-05-11 00:43:35 +0000 UTCI am so excited for this. I listened while making dinner because if I listened sitting down I would fall asleep. I have given myself the afternoon off and I am going to hang out here for a bit and I have 1 hour until it is 6:30 and then I am call it quits and going to sleep. Thank you for this bedtime gift. As for the D Bags who violated your privacy and basically you...they aren't worth the words to describe them. It was an attack on you but as a result, our community and that is unacceptable. I love what you have created here. I love the Belles Beaus and MOC. I love the fact that i have found and loved parts of myself that I didn't even know existed before you. I love you! And I look forward to many more years of loving. 😘🥰❤
Ann
2022-05-11 00:42:02 +0000 UTCMatt, we love to flirt and say naughty things, but your poetry just, I can't even explain it. It's just wonderful. Please share as much of it as you can 😌
Dawn
2022-05-11 00:38:14 +0000 UTCAnd we are barely half way. Hope the rest of you are good at least💞
Lisa xx
2022-05-11 00:37:54 +0000 UTCYou are a mind reader Matt, this is exactly what I needed - this week is kicking my ass 🥲 you are a doll!! ❤️
Lisa xx
2022-05-11 00:33:47 +0000 UTCI am just going to sit back and let everyone say what I want to say. So WHAT SHE SAID! 👆
Ann
2022-05-11 00:29:55 +0000 UTCA soothing audio is perfect this week ❤️ I’ve been listening to the Peaceful Compilation a lot lately to help fall asleep, so I was excited to see a new SFW audio ☺️ Sad to see the Belles folder go…the end of an era, but it’s a reminder that the community is growing and that’s something to celebrate! I can’t believe how much this space has evolved over the last year, since I joined. I don’t participate as much as I used to, but I love this weird lil community and am grateful we were able to share a bit of ourselves in the folder while it lasted ❤️ x
Sarah Ruth
2022-05-11 00:24:19 +0000 UTCLove right back Kris! 💜 And a smooch on the eyelid for the saltiness. 🥰😙🤗
Matthew Tower
2022-05-11 00:21:40 +0000 UTCI still haven’t thought of anything profound to say. Maybe it’s emotional whiplash. I hope that it pushes you in a direction where you can embrace your authentic self in it’s entirety and not have to leave parts hidden in the shadows. I have a lotus tattoo because they only grow in the mud. It reminds me that sometimes you have to go through the sh*t but the end result can still be something beautiful. I’m very sad, but very happy to still have you here with us💜
Venusinaphrodite_
2022-05-11 00:21:18 +0000 UTCI’ll try sleeping to this tonight but I still fall asleep to the one you posted January 11. I’ve listened at least 20 times to that one, more than any other. And your line “the bodies of the beautiful still age” really touched me. I miss the body I had through my 20’s but I’m working to accept that for being a month away from 50, I look pretty damn good! 😀
Lavender Belle (Jenn)
2022-05-11 00:20:28 +0000 UTCI just had to say "come" to my dog three times to get her in the house. Why is it any other time I wouldn't have snickered when I said it? You all are bad influences... Keep it up 😎
Dawn
2022-05-11 00:17:04 +0000 UTCWrapped up in bed listening to this, you really know just the things to say to get my brain to be quiet for a change. I left my toxic job last week and I’m still getting used to the change, I know in my heart I did the right thing but I guess my brain is still playing catch up when it comes to how I’m feeling about the decision 😅 I’m so sorry about the reddit creep and having to deal with the stresses of it yet equally glad you’re sticking around although I will miss our folder full of fun. And I had just taken some video to make a travel date too! 😜 Maybe I’ll still make it just for fun and it will make its way to those who want to see it. But for now, I’ll sleep and get some much needed rest ahead of an appointment with my GP and hopefully a roadmap to feeling better and more like myself again. Le mo chroí go léir 💜💜
Niamh
2022-05-11 00:08:19 +0000 UTCOk Matt! I don’t know why this made me cry. Must be all the damn hormones 🥺🤣😭. Thanks for this. I love these affirmations audios. They help me relax a lot. Especially when I’m at work. Love the insta poems too. Have a great day everyone. See you all Friday!!💜💜
Deanna Tyson
2022-05-10 23:59:57 +0000 UTCWell said lovely
Raegan Howard
2022-05-10 23:54:34 +0000 UTCAh, I want to say just one more thing. You, Matthew, are one of the most enlightened and special people I know in this life. I don't know you in the usual way, I'm not your next door neighbor and I don't go to parties with your friends, but I consider you a person in my daily life. I say for all the people here, you are more than a voice. You are poetry, soul and art. You are so special that not all words would do justice to who you are. So I just hope you know that your art, your beautiful laughs and your heart changes lives and that your soul is a pure treasure. Sorry, I'm emotional after what I read. Stay good, ok? I know how difficult it is to write from the heart. But I just know that you can do it with your eyes closed. Thank you, precious. 🥲
ਏFallaਓ
2022-05-10 23:49:02 +0000 UTCOh...this is so beautiful. Why am I crying? This is the best I've felt in weeks... how did you do this? My Love💜💜💜💜
Kris
2022-05-10 23:45:36 +0000 UTCNo one is safe from Slo Mo Moby...thank God 😏
Dawn
2022-05-10 23:44:35 +0000 UTCI needed something relaxing — it’s like you knew that I’m defending my thesis tomorrow
Meg_just_Meg
2022-05-10 23:44:32 +0000 UTCThat was babbling brook Katie. Lake Katie actually appeared about a half hour later… and I’m STILL doing damage control. I need waders and a shop vac. I spilt the T and it looks like a freaking P(ness)! That damn Slo Mo Moby vid. Vaginal exorcism. Holy, WATER! 🤭
Katie
2022-05-10 23:43:38 +0000 UTCThis really is profound today. Your note and post broke my heart a little. For all of us this is considered a safe space to be who we are. The fact that your safety/anonymity is being compromised is infuriating. Even though I'm sad to see the turret go, please know that we support whatever you need to do to be as comfortable as the rest of us. I know this may seem silly, but I see so many here as kind of family. Dysfunctional and dirty 😈 family, but the best kind of family. Hugs and snugs, let us know if there is anything on our end that we can do to help. 😘🤗😘🤗
Dawn
2022-05-10 23:41:32 +0000 UTCI already know what I'll be listen to when it's sleep time. 🥲 Matt, I just wanted to stop by and say that you literally rebuild all my brain chemistry and light up my soul. Oh, I missed so much hear your voice. 😌🥹 I hope you can continue to do what you do. Hey Belles. I love you. 💜
ਏFallaਓ
2022-05-10 23:40:34 +0000 UTC😂 Lake Katie "flooded" on the couch?????? 😜 xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-10 23:36:37 +0000 UTCI’m really excited to listen to thissss. (You know these are my FAVORITE) Let’s see how introspective I get 😬 Ummm… so for the sake of embracing change…. What does this Rorschach test of part one of my last night mean to you 🤭 I call it “I should have brought a towel, but that’s ironic.” https://ibb.co/Wx5LGpg
Katie
2022-05-10 23:32:09 +0000 UTCIt’s crazy how energy can translate through technology. I had a feeling something was up. 😏 And while I kinda feel like a gut punch of my favorite show ending, I think it’s the best call. I think w have all gotten a little swept out of the reality of this fantasy world and I’m okay with setting boundaries. I am SO grateful for those folders though. Like so grateful. So many insecurities dissolved. So many connections made. Just the joy of looking into each other’s lives…and you’re right. It’s not like that is no longer an option. I’m sorry the “creep” has caught up to you… it was only a matter of time I think, but that’s still sucky to have to make so many accommodations now just to keep this here…and I appreciate you for that. Ohhhh Mattt. Thanks for being upfront and rational and sexy and present and all those other things. 💜💜💜 #teamtower
Katie
2022-05-10 23:26:04 +0000 UTCHey Maggie - how are you? My sister hasn't arrived yet! (On Saturday I was getting the spare room prepared while I had a chance to get to furniture and hardware stores!) xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-10 23:21:01 +0000 UTCThanks so much Raegan! It really is all my pleasure though - I'm just so flattered that you're reading them, and they're being shared... 🥰 Hope things have settled down for you a little. 🤗 xx
Matthew Tower
2022-05-10 23:17:55 +0000 UTCHi Matthew! Did you have a good visit with your sister?
Maggie Ren
2022-05-10 23:17:48 +0000 UTCHello!! Your poem today was beautiful. I'm sure this is going to be much needed and lovely. Thanks for all you do for us Matt.
Raegan Howard
2022-05-10 23:10:53 +0000 UTCHey - just a little personal update from me! I've had a little break from being online to get some grown-up stuff done, make my guest room a little nicer for my sister who is visiting soon, and just relax writing insta poems (I'm addicted) and start learning how to tie some basic Shibari knots (if only they'd told me about this artform when I was 10, I would have gone to Boy Scouts dammit 😜) With much 😭 sadness, I’ve decided to remove the Belles folder from the Turret. I will miss it so much, but there are a few reasons which have been stacking up slowly, with a tipping point hitting me this morning (which was not the lovely submissions I got in the dropbox today - I hope they will be shared again by the makers in comments!). If you want to know the reasons please keep reading, but otherwise please skip to the celebratory last paragraph! One that had already been most strongly on my mind is that maybe Beaus and Esteemed Members of the Court don’t seem welcome to participate own this aspect of the page. It hasn’t created any direct issues that I’m aware of, but I have wondered if people who don't identify as 'Belles' might have felt excluded. So if you’re reading this and you have felt that way, I seriously love you in all your youness. That wasn’t intentional, and I would certainly have started a new folder... Another reason though, is that it’s growing a bit too big for me to be able to host. Some may remember that, to start with, it began as a little joke folder in which Genade suggested so everyone could send me a funny pic of their belly-button. 😂 But it grew and grew organically, and with the development of Belles making these amazing video-dates (massive thank-yous to Bibi, Lucy, Venus for those total treasures) I would have to rethink and look long-term at how I can host that level of material in terms of data… 😅 There’s also a minor, but still time-consuming issue. Every once in a while, there are requests from people who ask me to “remove their files”. I noticed another today. I realise people will come and go, but in the past this has involved me going through every single folder and any available past turret emails to ensure I get everything they’ve sent - checking with them about often dozens of items over months…😩 I just don’t have the time anymore - or desire - to do that amount of admin! There are other bigger reasons too - along with some other Redditors, I experienced some trolling a few weeks back about the Merch store and an audio on GWA, then last week I was made aware of some doxxing and off-site gossip discussing my identity which has meant I’ve had to go into discussion with my employer, as well as other organisations in NZ, news outlets, and Google, to have articles and info on me removed - basically wiping my IRL existence off the internet. So over the last week, I’ve been questioning the ethics of hosting your private information too. Especially seeing as I can’t prevent being downloaded and shared by 'anyone with the link'. Most importantly though, I want to say goodbye to the Belles folders by giving the biggest, most heartfelt and slightly wistful saudade-filled THANK-YOU!!! to everyone who contributed, for being open and brave enough to remind me that there are real people behind the keyboards, and for teasing the hell out of me with sexy pictures, showing me your writing, sharing your Tiktoks ((** please join Mae’s growing list of subscribers @ushii813 **)) and feeding me your recipes, letting me crush on you, dirty-talking me, sharing your decor, your boobs, your voices and art, and most amazingly, your gorgeous faces - all of which are permanently etched into my memory. I’m gonna miss it like hell. But hey - we still have the comments for posting links and pics and videos, right? And it’s been cool to see so many connecting via their social accounts too. Hopefully I can be a slightly bigger presence there now instead. Especially if I can work out a way to bring my two beautiful worlds together. I'm working on it. 😁 🥂 To old memories, and to making new ones. Please post boobs in comments below instead. Joke. 😂🤣 Seriously. Love, Matt
Matthew Tower
2022-05-10 23:10:02 +0000 UTC
