Last summer with José Piña in June '24, Berlin - part 3

Good evening & hello to the new year :)

I started slowly and quietly into 2025 and - as you've probably noticed - took the first week off. That was nice. I honestly love the beginning of January, lots of people don't, I know, but to me it always feels like the world is still a bit asleep. It's okay to take longer to answer, to not be reachable all the time, to enjoy long mornings (cause the sun also still takes its time to get up too ^^) and to go for long winter walks. And that's basically the vibe until my birthday, which was yesterday. I made a party on Saturday evening to celebrate into it with everybody - I think we all had a great time, at least I did. :)
I'm very happy about the people I have in my life, it's very important for me to have love & appreciation around me and people I feel safe with, same as for them, everyone was very attentive and sweet. We were more than 30 people, with instruments around too - but nothing got broken during the evening, not even a glass! :)

Last week had started with a different feeling though - my grandmother died. This long awaited message still shocked me, she's the first one of my close family who passed away. Weird feeling, it's so final, there's nothing to be changed about it anymore. To quote my grandfather: "She's released and I'm relieved." - she was very sick throughout her last years, caused by dementia & parkinson. The last time she really recognized me was probably three years ago... The last time I visited her is just two weeks ago, at least that, I'm very happy that I could see her before. And it is good that she could finally say goodbye to the world and leave for another :) It's good as it is.

I wrote a song about her the day after she left, I wrote the music and melody last summer, probably around the time when these pictures were taken, but didn't have words for it until now. The lyrics came to me last thursday night, when I came back from the movies and felt super emotional. We watched 'We Live In Time' - a great great movie, but quite intense, a really good melodrama with Andrew Garfield and Florence Pugh. Uff that one really got me (big recommendation! but if you watch it have some tissues around, I stopped counting how often I cried). When I arrived at home, I was alone for a couple more hours and shaped the fractions of words I collected the day before. It felt easy to puzzle them together, in flow, they were just falling into place. That's how it should be.
I'll probably share them with you on Sunday :)

Hope you're all doing well, all the best for 2025!

xx