Patreon reopening

This day has come. Really, I am just as surprised as you are, probably. It's been.. a good while. And if I can be honest for a second, I'm hella nervous. Growing up in a household and social bubble where you aren't supposed to like or be proud of things you make, I always felt stressed whenever people wanted to support me. Moreover, I was taught that I'm supposed to refuse any help, even if I am in trouble. But thanks to support of all the kind people, back in 2018-2019 I managed to gather enough money for one of my biggest dreams: getting out of my home country, to study in Europe, something I thought I could never achieve. This is getting a bit too sentimental, but I grew up in a poor family where I had no money for even such things as school lunches and my body adapted to this sort of poor lifestyle to the point that even now I eat only once a day (lol). So when I was able to go to Europe to get a degree, I was blown away. Things got busy, a lot of things happened and I was always working in order to live the better life, trying not to rely on any passive income because my brain worms kept telling me that what happened back in 2018-19 was just an insane amount of luck and people that were too kind to someone like me. (This text is becoming a whole wall SORRY HAHA)

Anyways, now I became a better artist and yet I still struggle with imposter syndrome. Will it ever get better? Probably not. But right now, trying to work on commissions at the same time as going to school and searching for a job, I realized that perhaps I hit that point where I can't handle it myself anymore. Tuition and visa fees are getting a bit too much for me to bear, this month I got injured and my medicine spendings hit me a bit too hard, I got to the point where I've got no savings from my past artist alleys and commission work. This situation is scary and as someone who was always prepared for the worst scenarios before, I see no other way but to rely on others, even if I know that there are people who want to support me, it's still a bit hard to process. I don't have much to offer as of now, besides silly sketches, HD files and things I never posted. But I hope soon enough I can add many more things to the list, especially since I finally got to the point where I'm not tomato red when drawing boobs (I know I seem like a down bad person but IM ACTUALLY SHY).

TLDR: Not sure where my train of thoughts went halfway through this post, I guess what I'm trying to say is that in this year of 2025 I want to become someone who can accept someone's kindness, become more productive and for f sake start drawing BOOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you choose to support me, I appreciate it with my whole heart. I am awkward and bad with words but I hope I can show you that I mean it. Thank you.