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It Was Always There

Who goes from a simple butt sketch to this? WHO??????

A little ode to an old man finding his repressed sexuality and self 😭 Aaahh! I'm feeling this.... But this got me back on track, who knew all it would take was just crying about Enji?



[ Enji, Hawks, Endhawks, Rei ]


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Comments

I can’t cry today because of my talent show but I’m crying anyway aaaaaa

Bontras Snide

Stop! I'll cry! ;-; why is this so beautiful

ynot.hawks

Hi so. I wasn't expecting to cry at the end there but the way you've drawn the expressions is so viscerally beautiful. Thank you.

Muchymozzarella

This is so impossibly beautiful....seeing the youth come back to Enji's face in that last panel makes my heart ache in the best way.

AssortedGeekery

THE WAY YOU DRAW YOUNG ENJI IS SO *deeeeep inhale* RIGHT. The way he steadily gains his muscle mass as the years go on…. brUH *chefs kiss*

DWW

It took me a week to not fall to pieces reading this again, but I think the most beautiful bit is seeing the youth in Enji in that last panel, seeing that young man snap back into focus so many years later. Pete, this is glorious. πŸ–€

Wandersong

I want to watch BHNA bc of your EndHawks but I ALSO just want THESE versions to exist in my head PHHHH

MaityB

I'm a woman, but when I was a kid I would always look at the underwear section in women's catalogues so this resonated with me hard. And it's so lovely 😍

Ellen Chambers

this is soooo well written and illustrated, this one hits really hard in the best of way! β™₯

Mattson Cunther

I will say that this is so sexy. But I will also say I'm fucking sobbing it's beautiful too? You did a really great job of storytelling in this? And like I am shook

Fall (Layne)

Idek what to say, almost 200 comments probably speak for themselves and also I would sound like a broken record when I say again that your art and story telling skills are goals 😭

Ashyscribbles

Really well done, especially in love with the transition in the middle πŸ₯Ή I wanna hug this man so much- and you! You do him such beautiful justice Pete

Nat

This is so fricken beautiful-

Mandy

that last image just made my heart so happy!

Leo

I’m literally breakdancing on the floor right now

HUHHH

Not me crying into my morning coffee 😭 This is so beautiful, I can't πŸ’•

Vaana

Crying and throwing up

Adalid

I cried in three different languages…

STARKERMYDADIES

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Pete

Oh my god I’m so happy for you! It’s a big thing to go through, I’m glad to have made something that resonates, even if by accident πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Aaaaahhh thank you!! πŸ˜­πŸ™β€οΈ

Pete

Thank you πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

Pete

Lovingly bakes loaf πŸ’• thank you πŸ₯Ί

Pete

Of course! Thank you πŸ₯°

Pete

That’s by design, I’m afraid πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•

Pete

Aaahhh that’s good to hear! A little prescription of hurt/comfort to fix all ailmentsπŸ’•

Pete

Thank you so much! πŸ₯°πŸ™

Pete

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Pete

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Pete

Thank you! And aaaaaaaaaa please please please! πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ’•

Pete

Thank you πŸ₯°πŸ™

Pete

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Pete

Thank you! πŸ₯°

Pete

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Pete

Thank you πŸ₯°πŸ™

Pete

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Aaaaaaahfgdgfhf Thank you!πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Thank you so much Mika πŸ₯°πŸ™

Pete

I’ll keep that in mind for when I retire to a tower as a gremlin wizard who makes sneaky deals for ppl’s souls πŸ€”πŸ˜‚πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Well you’re in good company with that πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•

Pete

Thank you!πŸ₯°πŸ™

Pete

Gotta keep y’all on your toes haha πŸ˜‚πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Had to start from somewhere πŸ₯°

Pete

Young Enji is so cuuutee! And ooooh man you’re right, he would have had to switch sheets daily just from accidentally scorching them πŸ˜‚

Pete

Thank you so much, Nia!πŸ˜­πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

All it takes is a smile, iturns out!πŸ’•

Pete

All that melancholy needed a sickly sweet cherry on top πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Thank you! πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

That’s them summed up right thereπŸ₯ΊπŸ˜­ thank youπŸ’•

Pete

Thank you so much, Cath πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Endhawks feelings are never late, nor are they early - they arrive precisely when they mean to! πŸ˜‚ thank you so much !πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

☝️☝️☝️☝️😭😭

Pete

Thank you πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Thank you!! And the more I look at him now, the more I think he has the same vibe to him as I imagine Shouto having πŸ€” i think young, a bit oblivious but genuine wonderment is a good description for it, yeah πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

For real! πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Enji has that effect πŸ₯Ί thank you so much! πŸ’•

Pete

Why yes! Yes I am πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•

Pete

Same same same!! Anytime the fire metaphors come out, it’s one-way to sob-city πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

Aaaahh!! Thank you so much!πŸ₯ΊπŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

I strike when you least expect it πŸ˜‚πŸ™πŸ’•

Pete

Sometimes thing that hurt, are good 😭thank you!πŸ’•

Pete

That continues being the highest praise, that my stuff can hit even without knowing the source material! And on top of that, that it feels validating - this came from a somewhat personal place too, so hearing this makes me even happier. Thank you so much πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Ellie!! Thank you πŸ’•πŸ’• you know me, gotta keep y’all on your toes with the sad stuff in the midst of horny πŸ˜‚

Pete

All four steps of hurt/comfort right there!

Pete

KEvaaaaa aaaaa let’s cry together….! πŸ˜­πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Can you imagine the euphoria of drawing those smiles after all that old man angst πŸ₯ΊπŸ˜­πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

Thank you so much! πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

Jfgsjgwjgfuwg ok ok ok but he would have tho…! πŸ˜‚

Pete

Thank you πŸ’•

Pete

Honestly, that’s all I need to hear πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•ty!

Pete

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Pete

Nooooo what a timing! πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

It felt right for him πŸ™πŸ’•

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Pete

Those smiles felt therapeutic to draw, somehow πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•

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Pete

Thank you, always at your service to disrupt work flow with feelings πŸ₯°

Pete

HOMOTIONAL, if you will! Thank you πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

Pete

Both for balanceπŸ₯ΊπŸ’•

Pete

πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸ’•πŸ’• I have a lot of emotions holed up and they shall all take form in Enji for now…….

Pete

Thank youuuuuuu!πŸ’•πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

Thank you πŸ₯°πŸ™

Pete

πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜‚

Pete

Thank you πŸ’• Happy tears this time!

Pete

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Pete

Thank you so much πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ₯ΊπŸ™

Pete

Well I am!!😭😭😭

Pete

That peach can hold a lot of emotion πŸ˜­πŸ’•

Pete

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Pete

Tears are best shared πŸ˜­πŸ’•

Pete

Oh I do have The Nerve ❀️

Pete

; _____ ; I love this so much

pige thomsby

Bruh, this could not have been more perfect timing. I just started to let go of my religious trauma, and I am finally allowing myself to be happy with a girl. I’m going to cry this comic is beautiful 😭😭😭

Humble.b.umble

Legit crying cus this is so beautiful and heartfelt! Amazing and thank you for sharing this with us!! πŸ’š

Poeticcentaur69

my stomach fluttered, this was beautiful

doon πŸͺ¬

This got me tearing up thank you for this bread πŸ™πŸΌ

GremlinDave

This is stunning. Thank you for sharing ❀️

Kats

πŸ₯² Why am I so emotional

Merry Anwanet

I'm feeling a little under the weather and this made me feel a little better πŸ₯Ή just every page, I could feel the emotions πŸ’›πŸ’›

Haha Hala

Not sure I can even put into words how beautiful this is!! The shading and how expressive Enji’s eyes are… so perfect. Hawks is gorgeous as always and the last panel is just pure happiness πŸ’•πŸ’•

Hylianprincess

Ohhhh 😭😭😭😭

Belle

I'm sobbing it's beautiful!!!!

FillyBoy

oh my god this is incredible!!! you may have inspired me to write a fic…

spacehorse

OMG it is so beautiful!!!

Becky Full Of Frills

Wow….WOW

Angie Gone

Omg Pete this is so beautiful 😭β™₯️

writeathome

Sobbing cause I love this so much

Jessica V

No words just thanks, this comic is beautiful

Maggie

The last page πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί oh my heart !!

hunty__dumpty

Holy shit. That was so beautiful πŸ₯ΉπŸ’•

Kate

WOW I LOVE THIS THE SENSE OF LONGING IS SO GOOD WOW! I LIVE OLD MAN GAYS FINDING THE WAY TO FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE THIS DID SUCH A GOOD JOB OF THAT! ITS GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL AND YOU KNOCKED IT RIGHT OUT OF THE PARK! I LOVE IT SO MUCHHHH😍😍😍😍

Red!

Thank you for the hotness and the beautifulness

Mika Rosen

I got full body chills when I read the line about fire and then got butterflies when they started kissing

Mika Rosen

The way you write oh my gosh

Mika Rosen

Pete if you wanted my firstborn I'd give it willingly

Vex

IM CRYING

Asher

This was the best to read first thing in the morning. I love the way you drew the expressions on their faces at the end. They are so genuinely happy. 😍

Katelovesvlogg

Oh my, I was expecting horny and then you hit me with all these amazing *feelings* that are just the cherry on top. Amazing <3

Robin

Humble beginnings.

Thiriously

Young enji is such a treat. Plz bless us with my high school enji discovering his sexuality. I’m sure that fire quirk didn’t help when the hormones were raging 😌

Princess Pineapple

Pete this is SO beautiful I’mβ€” this is so soft & tender & it feels so so accurate to Enji πŸ₯Ί the first & last panels have my heart, this is so beautiful πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί

Nia

That last panel...man that got me.....

Paige

PLEASE THE LAST PANEL IS SO SWEET I HAVE CAVITIES NOW πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί

JQbrainrot666

ohh my heart this is beautiful Pete trurly

Swiftkill

Oh that was beautiful

tsuchinoko Tourmaline

this feels extremely accurate and I'm having a hard time quantifying just how much I am emotionally flailing over this endeavor: wait a minute vulnerability isn't weakness??? hawks: ye endeavor: πŸ₯Ί

maggiekarp

Pete, this absolutely incredible. The sheer amount of emotion coming these pages is stunning and I am undone. πŸ₯Ίβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ

Cath

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

MagpieCrime Fancy

SIR. Howβ€”whyβ€”I didn’t ask to feel things this morning! But I will thank you bc omfg 😭 this whole thing. Just the entire thing. Gdi

Sydmicky

i love young enji so much πŸ₯Ί i love this so much, pete you love making me cry 😭

leo

I'm living for young Enji in the first panel. That look of, idk what to called it, wonderment??? That look when he was looking up from the magazine isbjustvso endearing.

Paula Gomez

😭😭😭😭😭 I am sobbing!

taylalynn

Endeavor embracing his truth. You love to see it πŸ˜­πŸ‘πŸ‘

Christopher Jones

OH MY GOD 😭 now IM crying about Enji 😭 I…love this so much what the fuck

RiverGlass

I’m not crying, you’re crying πŸ˜­πŸ’•

Chaotica

Okay but the narration in this is also so beautiful. The comparisons to fire when it comes to Enji get me every time.

Blue

😭😭😭😭❀️❀️❀️❀️

FunnyLittleCreature

PETE IM CRY πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ’™

Blue

I'll say it again, I've never even watched or read this series, but your art has me so emotionally invested in these characters!!!! This was BEAUTIFUL and so validating!!! As someone who wasn't able to understand/put a name to their sexuality until they were in their 30s, I felt this so deep in my soul... Thank you. πŸ’œ

Olivander Addams

Pete I'm cryinggggg😭😭😭 Legit this hurts so bad but at the same time this is so wonderfully written I want to read it again and again. Fantastic work πŸ’–

ElderberryElias

Bruhhhh this hit so hard 😭😭 I was not expecting a feels trip this early in the morning haha

izuzuchan

PeeeeEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeetttteeeee!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The deep breathing I’m having to do to stop from openly weeping at the airport. Peeeeeeeeeeete! You did a wonderful job! So beautiful! And the last image with Enji and Hawks! Priceless! Absolutely wonderful. πŸ—£MAGNIFICENT MAAAAAAAGNIFICENT πŸ‘πŸΎπŸ‘πŸΎπŸ‘πŸΎπŸ‘πŸΎπŸ‘πŸΎπŸ‘πŸΎ Thank you for my regular dose of serotonin. πŸ’•

DeboRAWR

Please Pete you going to make me cry. No, wait, too late. This was really lovely to read, even if it was just something that came about from a simple butt sketch xD Now if you'll excuse me imma go cry in this corner about the last page and how fucken happy they look together and imma just be dyinggggg over the page 9 and how friggen angelic hawks looks. akdfjjdkhfbksdf HNNNNNNN No horny just soft soft sobbing from me ; v ;

Ellie

shitting crying screaming throwing up

allii

PETE IM CRYING, my hormones are already missed up enough …AAAAAAA I love every bit of it, the hurt the yearning and ahhhh that last slide my hearrrrrt 😭

Liltkeva

GRRRRR WOOOF WOOOF ARRRFFFFFFFF

Liltkeva

😭😭😭😭 them all smiley in the end 😭😭😭😭😭

Mo

😭😭😭😭😭😭

Kid.

AAAAHHHHHH πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’– I am absolutely In Love with this, you always make such amazing comics!!

Grayson Severud

this was absolutely gorgeous and perfect…. and still all I can think about is how Hawks would have WRECKED that sweet little young Enji 😭😭😭

Ren

Crying this is so beautiful

Paige Nat

Dude! 😭😒 this is so beautiful I dont even know what to say the emotions are so strong aaaaahhhh..I love them both so much πŸ˜–.

Katelyn HellionπŸ‘Ύ

😭😭β™₯️

Joe

PERFECT 😭 β™₯️

Brian Carter

Sobbing at 7:43 am in my work parking lot 😭 ❀

Leeloo Dallas Multipass

Im crying. Thanks for this 😭😭😭

axxxel

Holy God. What a tribute.

sleepdeprivedtechie .

SOBBING

Satanic Court

MY HEART

Mynsii

THE LAST PAGE REALLY ??? I WAS SCREAMING. Amazing ;A;

June

YES THIS IS AMAZING. My HEART.

Mimblewimble

peeeete this is beautiful, you make me cry 🀧😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Vinka

I'm at work reading this and gosh still teared up 😭😭 this is so beautiful and sad. It's always impressive how you catch the feelings in your art even while not using so many colours and bdjsksnddnkf ❀️❀️ Sooo good!

Shape

HOT AND EMOTIONAL. HOTLY EMOTIONAL? EMOTIONALLY HOT?? This whole thing is lovely but that last image. OMG Pete. My heart. πŸ’•

treeonfyre

😭😭😭😭 BUT ALSO 😍😍😍😍 HAPPINESS!!!!!

Riley

i dont even have words!!!! how you do this!!!

Adwian

This is SOOO GOOD im cryin rn and them SMILING AT THE END??? WOW

eddi

omg dude πŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯Ή

Nagy Dorottya

Beautiful!!! Just beautiful art, and story telling.

TheCottonCandyZombie

BACK AGAIN WITH MORE TEARS come onnnnnnn 😭😭😭😭

blacknoise

Oh my god this is so beautiful. The last frame has me in literal tears

nope

Such a perfect goodnight story before bed πŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯Ή

akira sargeant

This is LITERALLY so beautiful and wholesome. 😭😭😭 I love the idea of Enji finally finding himself and that last page genuinely made me tear up because BOY do I relate to that. ❀️❀️❀️

Sunshine

IM NOT CRYING 😒

PPFiend1420

crying over repressed gay enji but also appreciating his peach throughout the whole comic

SpaceNip

PERE come onnnn you can’t DO this to me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭MY HEART

blacknoise

Gods Pete bringing me to tears here !

Rowen Reed-Peacock

How dare you make my heart flutter on that last page HOW DARE U PETEUS MAXIMUS

Alice


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