Winning Over

I took two steps and fell flat on my bottom.  Mommy smiled down at me through her glasses, her hands on her hips.  This wasn't fair... I couldn't even walk!  Where had she purchased this diaper?  Why was she punishing me?  I looked up at her with pleading eyes and sucked on the pacifier.

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"I did try to warn you, you know - I told you that if you kept slipping your diaper down your hips and sneaking off to the toilet, that there'd be problems. Didn't I promise you that?" 

This wasn't all punishment, though, she knew that and I was sure of it. I picked her up off the floor and held her by the hands.

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I couldn't stand without holding Mommy's hands.  She was so much taller, so much more confident, with that bright smile... I blushed and had to look away.  Ever since we started dating, she had regressed me further and further.  I never fought anymore.  I... I liked the attention.  She led me by the hands over to a chair and sat herself down.  A twinge of fear shot through me.  No, not another spanking!  But she pulled me down on her knee in a totally different way, with her thigh between my legs.  I... didn't understand.

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The fundamental notion of sharing something you love with someone you love is in making it not an object of shame or disgust, disinterest or otherwise, but to make it a topic of joy and affection. I held her hands. I pulled her onto my lap. And while humming and smiling, I began to bounce her.

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The soles of my feet left the floor as she bounced me softly on her thigh.  The soft padding rubbed between my legs.  I held Mommy's hands for support.  At first, it was nothing more than a weird feeling.  A new sensation.  And then, it was more.  Warm, tingling.  Pressure, release.  Helplessness as she bounced me.  I let out a moan behind my pacifier and my eyes fluttered closed.  This... this felt so... good.

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Hearts were won in a simple thought and minds were won in the beat of a heart, and in that moment, I knew I'd won Bella over in both of her realms. She smiled and sucked her pacifier, I hummed happily to her, and bounced her on my knee. This was no longer my thing forced upon her anymore - this was hers. This was part of who she was. This was Bella.