The Densest Egg (Was Me All Along) Chapter 16

Patron Exclusive Story based off real life Experiences that should have but didn't crack my egg

CW, some internalized transphobia/"Its just a fetish" dumbass arc

Deep breaths, I’m in the men's section. There’s nothing to be nervous about. Yes I know what I’m here for. But this shouldn’t be so nerve wracking. Ugh, what’s wrong with me? Just, get a couple sizes bigger and try it on.

Okay, I got it. I just need to go to the dressing room and take a couple pictures to see how it looks. No big deal. Why am I so shaky? I feel so conflicted. It’s a men’s shirt, but I’m gonna be using it a feminine way? Yeah, girls look super hot when they have button ups and oversized shorts on, but that’s because they’re actual girls. I just pretend to be one online.

Jacket and shirt are off now. Just the bra I wore underneath. Oh gosh I hope no one noticed. Maybe I should have gone with a thicker outer layer? Fuck it, too late now. Time to do this.

…Fuck…fuck…why do I look so hot in this? Me, a guy, in an oversized men’s white button up, and from the neck down I look like I could be a girl. At least, maybe if I had better hips. I have to buy this. I can sleep in it and pretend to be a girl in the morning when I look in the mirror…and also post pictures online. Yeah, that’s why I’m doing this. Just, god I can’t believe this works. I almost want to cry. But, why am I so turned on by this? It’s something so simple and minuscule. Why is this so hot?

Okay, definitely hit a new low today. Nothing like getting so excited over how feminine I looked that I rubbed one out right then and there in the fitting room. Luckily I’m hella quiet and the store was dead today. What is my life anymore? Why can’t I just be happy with what I have? It’s not like I could ever actually dress like this full time. Not like the girls I see online. They’re so lucky, and pretty. I wish I could do that. But I have to settle for just being me. This fetish is really messing with my head.