😭 My unhappiness 私の不幸
Added 2025-05-19 18:52:58 +0000 UTC[Passage is in English since it's on my inner thoughts]
Being an AI Artist, it had been this achievement of creating horny art that would satisfy my fans and myself too. But one area that I did not feel well was the love that I should be getting from a relationship. Being from a medical community that is mostly straight and even criticised the gay community for spreading sexual diseases, I was forced to be in hiding from my friends and family that I wanted a relationship with a man. Instead, I had to be online to look for such love.
But with so many obstacles and rejections, I collapsed. I did ask myself if wanting a relationship with a man was wrong in the first place and that I should force myself to be straight, which I did not want to since it does not fit me in the first place. I really wanted to cry for not being isolated from my friends and the community but also now being thrown away online where I have seeked refuge of. I feel like at this point I wanted to give up on dating and punish myself for what I have done and that it does not make me feel like myself anymore...
