Patreon tier changes, some explanations, hopefully a return to a better time soon?

Hello everyone. I’m very sorry that it has to come to this, but I have some big changes to make in the immediate future. Please give it a read if you can.

To start things off, I am cancelling reward tiers starting in October and urge EVERYONE to change their pledges to a different tier before October.I just can’t do it, I’m really sorry, but it’s been very bad for my mental health on top of school, I’m a year behind and very unhappy about it.

I WILL finish every owed reward, I have them all written down in an Excel sheet and I will reach out to you over time to get them all finished by the end of December. It’ll be a hard time, but I promise I’ll try my best to get it all done, you guys deserve it and will get what you are owed.

I can open up an alternative tier, but that one will be without rewards, and maybe some other benefits. Unfortunately, I cannot offer a discount at the moment because I am not in a financially stable situation and considering I’ll be spending most of my time on catching up, my income will be very limited. Please give me input on this if you want to support me with more money and I can open up something new.

More official news aside, it’s been a very long time since I’ve made an announcement, and I know, that’s not nice. Life has been very difficult. I may talk to many of you daily in voice chat or just chitchat on the server, but my mental health has been deteriorating for a while because of covid, extreme school stress and the piled-up rewards on top of minimal support from parents, not being able to exactly make enough money because of my own problems and being stuck in a constant state of anxiety over it. I think it’s time to admit to some of those things instead of pretending that I can fix it on my own and just start tackling the problems in a transparent way. I don’t know how long it will take me, but I’ll try to seek some help with the mental side of things while catching up with work, and hopefully by 2022 I can say that I’m in a better place. It’ll be a hard journey but one that I must take if I don’t want to end up an even bigger mess. I struggle a lot with art for over a year now and I don’t know how to make it better, but I’ll keep trying new things until I can figure it out.

Unfortunately, my biggest worry, and why I’ve kept the rewards up, is financial stability. I don’t spend a lot but rent + food + transport is still quite a lot together. My parents don’t give me the money they promised to give me, so I’m essentially on my own in a lot of this. Unfortunately, I see neither option as good – if I keep the rewards up, I will never catch up, but have relative stability as long as you guys can tolerate me being a slow idiot – which is definitely not an infinite period of time, and it also makes me feel bad, because it’s extremely unfair towards all of you and I fully realize that. The alternative that I’m going with is giving up the rewards and hoping my savings can last me at least 4 months and that I can HOPEFULLY figure my shit out within those 4 months. I’m not going to speculate about anything bad, I think I can trust myself enough to make it, but the thought definitely scares me a lot because I’m about to head into the hardest year of school so far and I don’t know how I’ll manage both at the same time. But hey, got to keep some optimism. So yeah, I’ll be taking on more commissions in the future, and will try to clean out my FA and Twitter, start posting.. get things going again.

For that last point, I’m not entirely sure if I can do it alone, so if someone is willing to help me out with posting and give me their precious time, I’d appreciate it. I’ve tried to do things alone, but I clearly can’t, so as much as I don’t like it, it’s time to ask for help to get back on my feet.

Sorry guys, I hate to disappoint you and it really doesn’t make me happy. But I will try my best, admitting things are shit are the first step after all, I suppose.

Thank you everyone who has supported me so far, thank you to my friends, and thanks to everyone who’s been there overall. I may not always reply or always talk to you, but I appreciate every single one of you, and I want you to know that if I had gone silent on you, it’s not because of you, but because of me being a shitty friend and having absolutely no energy to even reply to people.

I hope everyone has a good day and thank you for reading.