Important announcement : Requests are closed

Dear followers and supporters,

It's been a while. I know many of you have probably wondered where I disappeared to. The good news is that I’m not sick—I’m physically fine, getting plenty of rest (maybe even too much). My mental health, however… that’s the real issue.

A while back, I listened to a podcast where they talked about creators fulfilling follower requests until they lose themselves. At first, I didn’t pay much attention—until I experienced it myself.

It feels like no matter how well I do, it’s never enough to meet boundless expectations. I have to fulfill endless demands, each in a different style and for different people. Every image brings a voice in my head asking, “Is this good enough? Should I go back and make it better? Am I missing something?”

At first, I thought this drive was pushing me toward something greater. But no—it felt like sinking into something before I even realized it.

I looked back at my older work, remembering how fun and exciting it was. I can still recall that feeling clearly, but to be honest, I haven’t felt it in a long time.

Maybe it's the same situation as Joichiro Saiba from Shokugeki no Soma? Even though I’m nowhere near as skilled as he is, haha.

The podcast also said that supporting creators doesn’t mean you can ask them to do anything just because you paid.

Yes, you did pay, and they fulfilled your requests—and I really have tried to meet your expectations. But over time, more and more requests piled up, each pointing in a different direction. Followers waited their turn in queue after queue. The more I traveled, the more companions joined—and the more destinations they wanted queued up.

Especially for projects I was proud of (Yelan and Seras) where I carefully planned, experimented, and nailed the timing of ideas. It’s hard to recreate that level of work again and again, yet I was still asked to do it.

All this, combined with endless expectations, turned into stress that left me creatively paralyzed. When work stalled, the delays bred dissatisfaction. New requests kept filling in endlessly. These pressures followed me everywhere—even when eating or sleeping. On top of that, real-life problems crowded in from all sides until… I just couldn’t handle it anymore.

I’m sorry to announce that I will be closing off new requests from now on. As for the list of requests I’ve already taken, I’ll work through them gradually as appropriate.

To be honest, I also have my own paths (characters) that I want to explore to do just like all of you who’ve made requests.

I don’t know what will happen after this announcement, but at this point, whatever happens, must happen.

I want to thank you sincerely for the encouragement and for checking in on me, and to everyone who’s continued to follow and support me even while I’ve been away—or perhaps because you just forgot to cancel your subscription, just kidding…

Alright, I’m going to go grab something to eat. I don’t know what feedback I’ll find when I come back, but I hope it’s something I can accept. Thank you if you’ve read this far.

Thank you.