I can't say SHIT online anymore - Podcast

I've always loved your Patreon posts/podcasts, I've NEVER gave up on them I've always been here and I've said it before, You have a friend/fan for life in me. Listening to this actually made me feel a lot better about myself cause I've been struggling; my depression level has spiked uncontrollably, constant sadness (mainly due to missing my parents; especially with my birthday coming up). I feel like I have so much in common with you cause I too feel like I can never express how I feel without someone getting bent out of shape nor twist my words around to make me look like the bad guy, something that I've experience just this past weekend which ties into a stressful situation regarding my sister and I've been very upset with her the past couple weeks; in regards to a dog (rottweiler; 5 months) that she got without even discussing it with me first as I'm trying to work on myself (trying to find work so I can build myself an income, eventually I want my own place), trying to put my life back on track. I am passionate when it comes to dogs, don't get me wrong, I LOVE dogs BUT now was just simply NOT the right time, I FEEL, to get a dog cause I already have a lot on my plate and caring for a dog was the LAST thing I'd thought I'd be doing but then I look into his little eyes and I'm filled with sadness cause I'm conflicted. I've tried to explain how I feel but my sister and brother-in-law took it as I was being selfish and inconsiderate (my sister turned on the waterworks and my brother-in-law berated me, which made me angry). This is probably why I stay quiet and rarely express HOW I feel about things based on past experiences where I could never express my opinions nor voice some concerns without someone misinterpreting my words and painting me out to be this cold-hearted, selfish person (and I'm NOT) as it does nothing but make me angry and wanna lash out. You also mentioned about people around you trying to stir up mess, for me, it's to why I'm a private person and why I DON'T LIKE people in my personal business (especially in regards to my sexuality, which I'm trying to keep a secret from my sister & brother-in-law), trying to create chaos. I could go on and on, cause I don't have a whole lot of people to talk to to begin with but I'm actually feeling a bit better since listening to your podcast and you mentioned to mention something positive about one's self and for me, that's me trying to put my life back on track and the first step with that is trying to find work (and start building myself an income) and to better my future and I thank you for that. Definitely looking forward to your next posts; whether they'd be here on Patreon, YouTube or OnlyFans, Keep on Shining : )

JimmyH