ASMR has helped me in so many ways i couldn't fall asleep counting either till the thigh video came out i started to count the claps . I was counting 1234 fast than 123 slow i wore that video out i know it was probably meant to be sexual but im kinda wierd counting the claps i didnt think anything about it till my partner woke me up on top of me 1 night he thought i was listening to porn .
Sometimes i feel like everyone is watching me especially if they R behind me i feel like they might be noticing my limp and its usually here at the gym when i feel that way ive come along way in the last 3 years i really dont give fuck about what people think of me anymore im lucky to be as hot as i am at my age and condition i mean it could be worst i could look like the fat queers that stare at me that work here i think most them have some mental shit going i dont hold anything against them for their rudeness and i really dont take time to fix my hair before the gym and i probably wont ever it takes every ounce of energy i have just to be here. I love these podcasts .
