Patreon Podcast #13

And im glad u talk about real stuff that really happens with real gay people about friends and other stuff . I hope u can stay monitized and motivated .

Like i always do im listening to this again at the gym 😆 these R good mental therapy 4 me . The Holidays R here and my partner always has these small parties going on till after the first of the year with all his gay friends or colleagues they call each other they R mostly in the medical feild. I dont have anything in common with most of them but some i really like being around last year at the new years party i tryed to talk to a few of them they were talking about hobbies and what was relaxing after they came out of a surgery. I suggested ASMR and i talked about it 4 a hour the whole time they acted how interesting it sounded and asked questions about it. Than later in the night i over heard them making fun of me . I stayed cool but it made me really nervous and i was trying to open a bottle of red wine and spilled it all over my new clothes i got 4 xmas 7 other guys there i didnt think anything about it and i took my clothes off and tryed to club soda the stains out before they set in .That same couple that was just making fun of me were breaking their necks trying to help me rubb the spots out. That made me even more nervous and knocked the club soda over and it spilled down the front of my white underwear. I had them wrapped around my finger the rest of the night . My partner saw how weird they really were and ive never had to lay eyes on them again. Im not at all suggesting u do that or giving any type of advice im just getting stuff outta my head i dont make freinds real easy myself and im so not looking forward to the holidays its something i go thur with every year 4 him. Im always worried about what someone thinks of me worried if im correct or not worried if im dumb worried if im keeping up with the trends worried if im to old to do this or that worried if im pleasing everyone and everyone is happy and having a good time. im to the point i dont give fuck what anyone thinks bout me i really am to that point in real life and social media too i dont give a fuck anymore. It is what it and thats all the fuck it is and thats all im gonna be i dont care if their a brain surgeon or a cocky ass nurse nope i just dont give shit ! I love these podcasts they R better than ASMR sometimes! And i didn't comment again 4 a reply or like that would be kinda awkward .

I’m sorry to hear that these “friends” made you feel this way, it’s such a hypocritical thing when they hurt your feelings then the next there like “are you okay” bla bla 🤦🏻‍♀️ If you don’t feel comfortable around them, don’t hangout with them, you’re supposed to feel good when you hangout with your friends, not negative energy if that makes sense, also about the social battery thing, I can relate to that, I’m an introvert as well, we as introverts need to recharge, it’s never wrong, it’s a normal behavior, I have no idea why people make it seem like a weird behavior, sometimes I just want to be alone to recharge and collect myself, or just to relax, people need to understand that. And about the YouTube thing, it’s so stupid that they demonize shirtless videos honestly, I’m 100% sure that there are many people who film these types of videos and YouTube doesn’t demonetize the videos, YouTube is just being weird, your beard scratching video wasn’t sexual to he honest, honestly I want more videos like that one 🥰💜 It was extremely soothing and comforting, I love it so much Anyways I apologize for my long comment, much love to you 🙏🏻 I really hope your week gets better for you 🤗💜

Artzilla Aysha

Well ur straight friend sounds really Gay Ahhh u do want freinds its just ur drinks wore off to soon . Looking forward to the new video Ahhhh gawd we love u too hon 😘❤