Magic Potion Side Effects (+ Health Rant)

I think the druids did not know the side effects the magic potion could have on girls...
I'm happy for that :D

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Hey guys. So, I mentioned some updates on this post, and I'm gonna try to summarize them in 3 points here. If you guys are interested in reading it, it might be useful or helpful if you're trying to know me a bit more or struggling with some mental and emotional health issues too.

1 - I have AuDHD, which doesn't define me, but it does mean I have a harder time dealing with stuff that most people - apparently - have an easier time dealing with, such as: interruptions, schedules, organization, willpower, motivation and a bunch more stuff. What it also means is that, when things get tough, I have an even harder time keeping myself organized, so that's mostly why, when things get tough, I easily lose track of what I was working on and have a really hard time getting back on track.

2 - For the past few years, I've been the only male able-bodied person in my close family, and that hasn't changed much now that I'm in a relationship again. Overall, that means I have to solve a lot of issues, from helping physically to being there mentally for my mother, grandmother and my younger half-sister. I have been struggling with that for ages, trying to find a balance of taking care of them and me equally, but it is nearly impossible (partly because of what I wrote in point 1). My psychiatrist says that this is (obviously) a major cause of my chronic depression and anxiety. What I mean to say is, I have a ton of stuff in my personal life that I can't stop from interfering with my work, my art, my hobbies and my health.

3 - What that all means is, it tends to become a spiral: Things start happening that break my schedule and/or organization, I get frustrated and can't deal with it very well, I still have to find a way to keep going and be there for those I love, I fail on a few occasions, get frustrated, fail more, blame myself, can't keep pace with work, can't find time to relax and have fun, get more stressed, fail more... Eventually, I hit rock bottom. And from there, I have to fight a dark urge that most people with depression know very well.

My point with all this is not to look pitiful or whiny or whatever. I just want to share with you guys - the people who help keep me alive - something that I've been dealing with for the majority of my teen and adult life, and only now I'm learning to recognize the pattern and deal with it a bit better. I know I'm not alone, and I want to show you guys that you are not alone too - we all struggle. And what's most important (as my doctor also told me) is that we don't be too harsh on ourselves when we struggle. We don't need our own minds to weigh down on us when everything else already seems to be doing so.

Be kind to yourself, be as kind as you can be. The world is getting hotter, things are tough all around, at least try to cut yourself some slack and be your own safe haven instead of your insecapable prison.

That's mostly it... I'll try to keep you guys updated with some WIPs and I'll open new comms at the start of next month. But there'll be more art before that, so I'll remember you of that later heh.

Thanks again for being here, everyone. I'll keep in touch.
See you all later.