Midnight, money and working on comics

So... Hey everyone.

For anyone interested in how I'm feeling and the reason why posts have been so few and far apart, check the text at the bottom.

About the images: I wanted to show you guys the process I go through when making a comic. It takes a long time for me to get a single panel, let alone a page, done in a way I think is acceptable or even good. These are not finished, as they still need some amount of inking and the speech bubbles, but should be done in another day or two.

By the way, I'm gonna probably post the entire comic on Gumroad or some other place as a way to get some extra cash from this. If you guys have any suggestions on websites or stores I could put this up on, please let me know.

Also, I'll probably do a timelapse on the next work I do. Been wanting to try doing one from zero to complete drawing.

Thanks for sticking by me. See you.

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Thanks for scrolling here.

I know this month has been very slow with content. Tbh, I was very down these last 2 weeks. This is the 3rd time I'm trying to post this, and every time I write like 15 lines of text and then I erase it all because I don't want to upset or bother anyone with the details or whatever. So I'm just gonna make it a separate text.

So, long story short is just that I just don't have a very good financial situation right now.

That's an understatement, but wahtever. 

And it's got me worried about the comming months, especially with holiday season almost upon us. So I had the idea of finishing one of my comics for the first time in forever, and I chose the Midnight one. My friend (and commissioner of this particular storyline) helped me decide the final pose and details, and I was trying to work on that and keep my teaching stuff going.

But all this got me really stressed, burned out and a little frustrated with myself. More like a lot. And worried.

I've been taking some meds for my anxiety, which cost money which further boost my anxiety - hahaha - and so it just loops back around.

So I wanted to apologize for not being around a lot. I know some of you already know me enough to recognize when I'm not feeling ok, and I can't tell you how much it means to me when you try and talk to me or even just say "hey, I'm here if you need me". Sometimes I'm so down, I can only draw once I read one of those messages. That's how important a simple "hope you're doing ok" is to me. Truly, thank you.

I've been trying to keep a steady schedule of work, even though some days I can barely get out of bed. Even writing this now is something I have to force myself to do, as my mind keeps yelling at me that no one cares and everyone will just think I'm a loser or a bother. Yet, here I am. And I'm gonna keep fighting this problem and trying to give you guys the best art I can as fast as I can.

Also, sorry for sometimes taking so long to reply. Sometimes I'm busy, sometimes I'm depressed and sometimes I'm just worried you guys will be mad at me for taking so long.

But... Yeah. I guess this was all I had to say.

Oh, also, if you guys want to help me in any way - financial, emotional, metaphysical (joke) - please, feel free to message me on Discord. I'm gonna try to be around tomorrow. Now, I'm just gonna go lie down a bit.

Thank you.