Video stockpile, depression, friendly bugs
Added 2019-02-02 01:56:55 +0000 UTCI've been stockpiling almost-finished projects lately because, well, mostly depression. I have this whole series of FPGA videos that I had convinced myself I need to edit and finish all at once. But they don't have some great story arc or anything, they're project videos and edited monologues from the live streams. I've been worried about releasing anything at all before I finish that entire group of videos, and then I simultaneously feel like those videos won't actually be that good anyway so I should just release them, or they won't be good so I should just delete them and move on.
Anyway, I'm making progress on that. In the mean time, I made something kinda different. If you like bugs, it's a video (and live stream) about my new pet critters.
New video on Diode Zone: https://diode.zone/videos/watch/7c5031cb-12bf-4ada-9483-c0b6b17ac732
Also on YouTube: https://youtu.be/OTv6rKqdohY
You can hang out with the new isopod colony live at https://live.diode.zone/eyesopod, or check out time lapse recordings at https://diode.zone/video-channels/eyesopod/videos
Thanks again for your support, I'm trying to be less nervous about posting stuff and interacting with you all, but social things continue to be the hardest part of this job no matter how I slice it.
Tuco sends many meows and cuddles. He's been awfully demanding of attention lately, but he's so sweet and affectionate. And right now he's sleeping on the desk next to me :)
Comments
thank you <3
2019-02-09 22:46:42 +0000 UTCThank you for bringing isopods back into my life. They were fascinating and wonderful to find under rocks as a child and it had been too long since I watched a few wiggle about.
Zach Fredin
2019-02-03 22:26:24 +0000 UTCHi. I've dithered over this reply, because I'm bouncing along the bottom of my own depressive episode, and trying to be supportive doesn't ring true/helpful to me, even if I might have tossed a draft that may have been positive for you. Instead, I'd like to make a request that, independent of anything else, you keep your Patreon open and charging. So far, even though other things I'm doing feel meaningless, bad, or worse, my support of people here feels like an unqualified good. It helps me to know that I've got a connection, however heavily mediated by this platform, to you and Tuco and now the bugs. I'm all too aware of how easy it is for any request to feel like an extra burden during depression, and I hope very much this doesn't impact you like that. Just that you keep this open, even if you feel you're somehow not living up to your expectations, even if you don't post here at all. There are some of us for whom the connection is enough--just knowing that we both know the other exists. Thank you for everything.
Glen E. Ivey
2019-02-03 18:28:53 +0000 UTCI like the stuff you do and am happy to support it, even if your output may be somewhat irregular. :)
Jamie Magin
2019-02-02 05:35:10 +0000 UTCHey, it's up to you if you delete stuff, but FWIW your monologues have been gold. It's great to see you problem solving and working on stuff - even if I can't always catch it live. Sending good thoughts your way.
Adam Baxter
2019-02-02 03:56:23 +0000 UTC
