+ small real life update

I have amazing news you guys! I will probably be able to do a local program that helps artists with their creative businesses! After so many months of trying to get a job without luck I'm so happy someone still thinks I'm worth something out there. I could cry happy tears 😭

So the place I had the interview with has a program for artists, where they help and coach you with your own creative businesses. It will be a 6 month program and I don't have to pay anything as it will be covered by my unemployment insurance, meaning I will also keep the same amount of money I get right now. And it's tailored to what I want and what I need, so the next conversation in a few weeks when we start will be to decide what I would benefit from the most.
              This exactly what I needed, I still can’t believe it’s true 😭 Thank you all so much for sticking with me through these difficult times, I love all of you deeply ❤️

+ update:
I'm starting the program already on the 29th of March, I'm hoping the working from home will be extended though the Swiss government is lifting most restrictions already on the 22nd of March instead of in April. If I have to go there in person it will be almost 4 hours of travel a day, which will ask a lot of me. It's also not sure yet how many days in the week I have to be there and what I'll be doing exactly. So I can't really tell you how things will go from that point onward.

The date is much quicker then I had expected... They told me they probably wouldn't have space till April or later, so I was kinda going with that. Days are hard right now and filled with a lot of anxiety. Everyday I'm scared I will never see my grandma or my parents alive again, I live 800 km away from them separated by at least 2 country borders. My father came to visit twice when it was possible, but I couldn't leave and so I haven't seen any of my other family members for over a year now. I'm used to being alone but this is a different level, it just gets to much at some point.
            I'm also to hard on myself for not doing enough or good enough, which doesn't help. I really hope this new chapter will lift my spirits, and open up possibilities I don't seem to get at the moment.