Split time - April 2019
Added 2019-04-04 00:08:11 +0000 UTCHonestly, since I didn’t know why I was doing this series, I didn’t plan on taking these mirror pictures. But when Anastasia grabbed the mirror to check her face, I knew I needed to do something with it.
It’s only when I realized what was the meaning behind this project that I understood how much these few pictures were necessary. Indeed, they represent the “split” moment, when my brain start switching completely its point of view on the person and transforms everything they’ve done into something bad. When before I would have seen a nice smile, I now see a manipulative face.
It is extremely hard to live with this. I love people, I need human contact, but I can’t be close to anyone (besides romantic partners, surprisingly. But even in these circumstances, it’s still hard to manage). I want close friends, I want work partners, people I could trust, but my brain is way to scarred after everything I’ve lived.
I have to heal. I can’t do it alone, and it’ll take time. Isolation is too painful for me and I really hope this hard symptom will only get better.
I start having ideas for the final part of this series and I’m waiting for Anastasia approval (fingers crossed).
Also, I am already thinking about another photoshoot about another aspect of my mental health issues and another photoshoot I really care about is happening very soon.
Have a beautiful day!
Model: Anastasia Miller ( http://instagram.com/anastasiaxmiller )
Light Wizard: my beloved Dan Leonard ( http://instagram.com/danleonard__ )
