Behind the scenes, life update and future plans

I felt such a urge to share a lot of my thoughts, but now that i sit here it all became just a huge mess in my head xD so lets see if i can sort this out somehow.
Warning; it might be a long one, so i'll try to mark the different segments with BOLD UNDERLINED text, so that u can skip to whatever part interests you.

Future plans/wants:

Get more structured in general with my posts and whatnot.

Figure out what i want to do with Patreon.
    Because as you guys might know by now, I'm not a big fan of patreon when it comes to uploading stuff, making posts etc. for several reasons.
Thats why I only upload pick-a-prints and art-packs here; Since i see no benefit in frequent posting(I might be wrong in that!?) and to be totally honest, if it wasn't for patreon being the most trusted pledge platform, i would've used something like "upgradechat" for Discord, but i know not everyone is a Discorder. What do you guys think?

Open commissions for patreons
I will (hopefully) open up commissions again within the next couple months.

Previously its been a big stress factor for me but I've come up with a couple formats i want to test out and see if it makes things better for me;

Writing a Terms Of Service, that gives me more creative freedom. This might mean that some details and faces might not turn out the exact way you would want it to, but that's the reality with art. When it comes to 3D, its especially hard to recreate the feeling of a 2D OC, since colors, face shapes and whatnot doesn't work the same way in 3d

Making a couple different tiers/commission variants

Tier 1: Nonex-light comms: Request a scenery etc. of any of my original characters (cheapest version)

tier 2: Costum comm: Creating your character with a simpler scene/background.
This is where things get difficult: the price will range anywhere from 150-400 euros(estimate) because some characters would be easier to fledge out. Compared to 2d art, i have to physically make each layer of clothing contra drawing some extra lines, these things can take a lot more time in 3d to get right. So deviance in anatomy from my original characters and fidelity will significantly alter the price. I wish it would be easier to make a pricelist, but as things are rn its very hard for me

Tier 3: same but with a more complex scene that might take me a while longer



Current problems/life
Im still and probably will be affected by depression and stress for a time to come, its not a heavy one, but it affects my daily life, it might also be something different than this, but my doctors and whatnot havn't been very helpful to try to help me find out what it is.

My life can feel a little like this: On good days, everything can be fine, i can have loads of energy, not feel any tension, nausea or whatnot, i can do everything.
Then boom, out of nowhere i can suddenly become very fatigued, very on edge and drained, this can last from days, to weeks.

As most of you probably know, my living situation is sub optimal atm. I live at my uncles to be able to pay rent. 95% of the time its very nice to live here, but those other 5% are very bad for me. My uncle has a tendancy to drink+work or drink+loud music during the night, which keeps me awake. Not just that but the music can be heard easily in the whole house, bass is also very penetrating.

Im sort of a beat/drum-head, so its very hard for me to not notice or fasten my head to a beat when its very audible, and having my peace forced away from me makes me mentally and physically worse.

So even if i have all these new things i want to learn and change
, I only have so much energy to do things. And its very hard to balance progression in art, and dealing with my general problems, everything from organising things, to posting online, to getting better at listening to your needs, make events and whatnot.

Becase i do want, to make more things like YCH or other fun commissions or whatnot for you guys, its just that it demands so much extra energy and setup for me, that i usually never have left over after ive done my usual art. Yes i can push some time aside for it, but a lot of the time i just need to art, to feel good.


I want to move out
I do want to move out because of the situation above, but I will most likely have to pay 3-4 times more every month to be able to do so, if im to find a decent place without anyone else. And the reality is that i don't really have anyone to move with.

Moving out of country is something that i've recently started to think about to, to get exposure to new cultures, possibly smaller fees and whatnot.


This was a lot, if u read trough it all u must be as crazy as me xD, anyways idk what this post is; guess its a vent/update post. Its hard to reach out to ya'll, and i feel like this is the best way to do so. I might be weird, ik, but idk. I want to share and be real.

Be well <3