Heart results with cardiologist this Monday

So this Monday I am off to the cardiologist after a month or so worth of intense tests and monitoring.

I really hope they can figure out this fainting issue. 

During this time I kept a log of every incident that happened, my diet and other personal things (like going to the bathroom lol). 

I have noticed a pattern with my fainting, so I sent it all off to my cardiologist. 

The fainting/dizziness issue and back pains have really lowered my quality of life. I also miss being able to drive myself around or being able to stand more than a minute. I am so afraid of even showering. One time I was showering and nearly fainted and I don't want to crack my head open. 

I have a social worker who said she would look into getting me a detachable shower-head and a chair to sit on but after 11 months, they still haven't granted the funds to pay for it which is really frustrating. I swear sometimes it seems they don't care. I just want to be able to safely shower and be mobile again.

My kids are still staying with their mother until these tests are over and the fainting improves. I can't even cook for myself at the moment because standing for more than a few minutes results in a drop in blood pressure.

My average blood pressure has been about 112/70 (a bit low for my age and weight) and one time it was as low as 87/54. When my blood pressure was that low, I literally felt like I was on a boat, swaying across the water. I was even struggling to speak and concentrate. I had to go to hospital for that and they gave me a drip over 4 hours and some glucose. They were so shocked to see my blood pressure, they said it was that of an 8 year old!

It's been a tough couple of months. I haven't been well, I miss my kids and my girlfriend has also not been well. At times I feel extremely lonely. 

I also want to thank everyone for their support and for those of you who have become friends from Patreon. You each have your own stories, problems and difficulties in life, but please remember if you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

We don't have to suffer alone.

Hope you all take care,

Antonio