What Little Me Would’ve Asked For 🎁 Day 9 of 24 Days of Christmas🎄

When I think about Christmas as a kid… my kid self wasn’t asking for practical things or sensible things. Oh no no no. Little me went straight for the good stuff.

If baby felka had a Christmas list, it would’ve gone something like:

• an orange ATV (obviously).

• ATV gear so I wouldn’t cry when I fall.

• A big puffy dress I could spin in until I fall over dizzy (layer with ATV gear).

• A horse. Not a pony. A horse.

• And snow. Lots and lots of snow. Enough to sled in, to roll around in, to rip it on an ATV until my cheeks were frozen and my hair smelled like winter and gasoline. you have no idea, not joking.

The other night, after an unhinged Jenga night with friends, I walked them out to their cars. It was quiet. Cold. Snow drifting down in that soft, magic way. I stood there a minute longer, nose in the air like a little wild animal, catching the familiar scent of gasoline in the snow.

And instantly—instantly—my whole body wanted to be ripping around in it.

My brain started problem-solving:
Maybe I rent a cabin just for one.
Find some guy on Facebook Marketplace willing to rent me his 4-wheeler.
Spend the whole day (and let’s be honest, the whole night too) mobbing around like a feral little snow creature.

Just the thought lit my chest on fire. And then I laughed, because… little felka would be SO proud. She would look at grown-up me and think:

“You still play. You still have fun. You still chase the things that make your heart go fast. Desire does not go away, but you can try to bury it.”

And that… that made me feel like I’d done something right.

So today, I want to challenge you. Encourage you.
Take a moment and think back:

What would little you have asked for at Christmas?
What would they have wanted to play with after school?
Before chores? After homework was done?
On snow days or quiet days or days you felt most yourself?

What made little you feel alive?

You deserve to touch those things again. Even just in small ways. Even just in the ways you can afford right now. Because that kid version of you didn’t go anywhere—they’re still in there, waiting to be invited out to play.

Let me know in the comments what little-you would’ve put on the list. I want to read them all. 🧡

love you, mean it!

~felka

p.s. In case anyone has 5 big fish laying around, just added a new gift to my Throne xD it's an inside joke between us now, haha.