Update
Added 2024-09-18 10:24:12 +0000 UTCSome of you have been waiting for a little while and told me you're still interested in my life updates, so here is one. (sorry if it's a little bit to read)
Just returned from 3rd psychiatrist appointment.
first of all, I've been a little bit more mentally stable these past weeks, distracting myself with new things as well as some drawing, (will post later today)
First appointment, we talked about my issues and what I feel causes them and getting to know about my past.
Second appointment, I took more tests and then we talked about the tests I took.
Today, we talked more in depth of my issues and future plans.
I was told I should think about taking a break from helping my mom, sisters and aunt so I can take more care of myself, I don't like the idea but my psyciatrist told me I put more time into caring for others than I do with myself (I don't think I do? but when I look back at things, it may be hard to admit it's true)
I don't feel happy if I know my family and friends aren't happy so I do all in my power to try help where I can and it makes me feel better, knowing they're better.
I hate to talk about myself like this as I feel like I sound more self centered if I just talk about myself.
But I guess this is how we figure out what really is wrong with me and ways to make my life a little bit better at least.
So I was also given a homework, to write a detailed beginner plan I need to do then build up from that, since I basically live a life without a plan, and that means I got no system, which means I throw myself on autopilot more frequently.
I guess I am scared of changes, because I've been disappointed so many times in my life, so the thought of me having to get a car license and move out to a different city or country scares me because I don't know what's gonna happen in the future, and my psychiatrist told me I should focus more on today and tomorrow, than things weeks, months or years into the future because that hasn't happened yet.
So until my next appointment, I'll be writing a detailed plan which I will act upon to steer my life in the right direction as a start.
I am also afraid for posting these updates because I feel like I am disappointing some of you that I post "just words" instead of drawings or animations, the things I am actually known for, not my life issues.
So I am sorry.
I am working on some projects to post on here, it takes a little bit longer because of my mental health.
-Leto
Comments
Those are all great revelations and I'm really happy to see you are talking to the right people. It is okay to focus on yourself, if you are not in a happy place with yourself, that should be the priority before others. Those people who love and care about you will understand. It shows that you are a caring and kind person and that is truly why most of us are here. I love your art, but the person behind it is just as beautiful. We are all proud to see you discuss these topics so openly so you can heal. Keep it up Leto, You are doing great!
Arch
2024-09-30 23:09:52 +0000 UTC*Tight hugs* I can relate to your story and perhaps I have a few steps ahead (about moving, facing challenges like licenses and such) but you did already something I wish I did and it’s to seek help, which I believe will do you so much good. I only know your art and the sweetness you express with it but thank you for daring to share these things and get to know a little the amazing guy behind all of it.
Ragark
2024-09-30 07:59:57 +0000 UTCGlad you’re doing better! The updates are relieving because we know your getting help and feeling better which makes us happy! :D Always remember we are here for you! <3
Truvo
2024-09-25 18:35:58 +0000 UTC*hugs* you certainly are not disappointing me. It is good to hear that you have plans and are working on moving forward. take care
Alden
2024-09-21 03:52:07 +0000 UTCFirst I have to say, I'm happy you're still around. And I'm happy you're making a little progress with finding out what's possibly wrong and how to address it. Take all the time you need. I'm always happy to read some words from you, glad you found help. And if there's some art in between the text posts it's nice too. But you are more important. *hugs you tight*
Render
2024-09-19 19:44:12 +0000 UTCLove you Leto and as long as you are comfortable talking about we will always be here to listen
Todd
2024-09-19 14:16:28 +0000 UTCDamn... i realte to this so much i feel like reading myself on some point. What i'm trying to say is tou are not alone leto and you are understood, we all love you and what the best for you. You made the first steps and these are the harderst to take keep going. I promise it will get better. I know it migjt be hard to think about yourself and that you feel like it selfish you feel like others are more important and you want to be there for them and support, protect them. But as a friend of mind told me once. It is noble and proof of ypur kindnes to want to be an armor or a support for other. But a rusty armor or an unstable support won't be at best. It is important to love yourself and take care of yourself my friend. You are loved, and we all want the best for you ❤️
papy Mick
2024-09-19 11:40:50 +0000 UTCI enjoy reading these updates from you. it tells me you’re okay, and reminds me that I’m not alone going through this. My last homework assignment was several different things and kinda overwhelming, but we just need to make it one step, one day at a time. Im proud if you for trying to get better, as hard as it is sometimes
Christopher Baker
2024-09-19 05:33:37 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need to leto.
Dogering
2024-09-19 04:15:17 +0000 UTCI’m happy for you bud, just remember to take it slow and steady. Progress doesn’t happen in a day, it will get much much better and therapy is one of the biggest hurdles for lots of people. The fact you could admit you needed one shows just how strong you are, after all the strongest people I know aren’t afraid to be vulnerable sometimes! Just don’t overwhelm yourself, stay calm, and if you need to vent or say anything, we are here for you Leto. ❤️
AFoxGuy
2024-09-19 02:54:21 +0000 UTCDon’t be sorry Leto, it’s nice to hear what’s going on, don’t be afraid to be honest with everyone. We want you to take care of yourself before you worry about us and posting art. At the end of the day, we’re all still gonna be here for you.
Alto
2024-09-18 16:58:22 +0000 UTCOh heyy, Glad you're doing better. It's okay to take time. Don't worry about posting these texts. Adequate people understand the situation. No rush on arts.
Lef
2024-09-18 16:22:09 +0000 UTC“I don't feel happy if … my family and friends aren't happy so I do all in my power to try help where I can and it makes me feel better, knowing they're better.” Yup, there’s the crux of the issue right there. It sounds like you give so much of yourself to others that you dont have enough for yourself. You drained yourself to the point where you didn’t have anything left to give. So you were ready to give up. You are not responsible for other people’s happiness. And some people you just cannot make happy. My sister and I had to get over that crap from our childhood upbringing of having to be People Pleasers at all costs. Walking on eggshells constantly to keep others from being disappointed in us. It was liberating knowing other people are responsible for themselves and it doesn’t all fall on me. Take a step back and see how your loved ones do when you take the emotional training wheels off of them. They might actually succeed on their own, surprisingly. Without you having to be their constant emotional safety net. (You’re not blaming yourself if something bad happens to somebody else, are you? You might be a victim of some past Manipulation.) It sounds like the overall goal for you is to be able to take some time, and time-out, for yourself without feeling selfish or guilty about it. See what your doctor says about this. A lot of this feels a little too familiar to me, unfortunately. Glad that you are getting help.
patient_zaero
2024-09-18 14:28:43 +0000 UTCI greatly respect and admire that you allow yourself to be vulnerable and are able to speak openly about your mental health journey. Very glad to hear you are making progress. 😌❤️
Kaizoku Risu
2024-09-18 14:10:32 +0000 UTCI’m really proud of you for taking this step to focus on yourself. It takes a lot of strength to do that.
Strawberry Puptart
2024-09-18 14:01:07 +0000 UTCFWIW, I've been in therapy for over five years now and it DOES get better. You're taking your first steps; the end of that journey is -you- (if that makes sense).
Stu Fox
2024-09-18 13:36:31 +0000 UTCI really appreciate the updates, we all want the best for you! Take all the time you need, focus on yourself, we can wait for art. (It's worth the wait anyways)
_DJ_
2024-09-18 13:03:27 +0000 UTCYou have shown tremendous strength in sharing this and going through the recovery process. Try to be proud of it, because we are proud of you! You got this. 🥰
Alex Kidd
2024-09-18 12:59:54 +0000 UTCSelf care is never disappointing your journey as a person helps shape your art. In my opinion your willingness to share the road ahead is art in itself painting a portrait of life experience that is both unique and in some cases familiar. Scary at times but also hopeful. None can say they know exactly your feelings or even that they understand fully your pain but in being with us through this path of self recovery we can relate with parts of the events and feelings. Thank you for being with us through this.
0ttz
2024-09-18 12:58:00 +0000 UTCAdmitting such things takes courage and it might help you to figure out what is happening that causes you discomfort. Sometimes the realization what is happening is the first big step to take, before you can try to improve your situation.
CorWolf
2024-09-18 12:51:03 +0000 UTCWe all want nothing more than for you to be happy! We're just glad to be hearing from you and that you're on the right track!
BudZ2003
2024-09-18 12:28:57 +0000 UTCThere's no need to apologize, if you just post your life's dealings here, then that's fine with (speaking for myself) me. I mean, first you need to work on you, then you can work on other things, and we'll be here regardless of what you choose to do. So, don't let it get you down, we're here for ya, and we're here regardless if your posts are art centered or life centered, as mentioned before, we're here for ya, lots of love to ya.
Cisneros Roel
2024-09-18 12:03:52 +0000 UTCLeto, even if you completely gave up on making art, as long as you were doing well (or at least working towards it) I won't be disappointed. Take as much time as you need; it's far more important that you are in a good mental place than anything any of us think about you.
erroneum
2024-09-18 11:39:58 +0000 UTCYou’re putting in the work on your own health and well-being, Leto. That’s so important, and it is also hard work! I’m proud of you for doing it. ❤️
LightsGaBlinken
2024-09-18 11:27:29 +0000 UTChappy to hear ur making progress. and that stuff sound pretty standard. they try to get more of a timeline of ur life events and try to get to know u better so they can help u better. been there, done that. and the psychiatrist is right. try to first focus on closer days before trying to focus on longer distance on the future. aka baby steps. its never good idea to take a massive leap all on ones on these things, these things take time and same with the meds, on my case. it took few weeks before they started to kick in and same goes other way around when i stopped taking them. at first i might go few weeks and be feeling ok then my mental health falls of the cliff and i have to start from zero. and for the arts? take ur time. ur health is more important atm and we can wait. also getting updates is nice to hear. stay strong, u will pull through this. i believe in u ♥♥♥
Hebu The Lone Wolf
2024-09-18 11:17:12 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need bud, we'll still be here to support ya
KixError
2024-09-18 11:02:17 +0000 UTCYou don't have to apologize dude sure we all love the art but we all care about you more. I'd happily take a text update showing your doing a bit better then art while your in this state. ( I apologize if doesn't come out right, just know we're all pulling for ya 🫡)
Peridot
2024-09-18 10:48:29 +0000 UTCRemember that you're the only one that can truly watch out for yourself. The therapist is right. Take baby steps, but overtime your mindset will change for the better. For the future, don't let your family push you around if you have to take care of yourself first. Not sure if that is an issue, but I've seen too many bad families take advantage of their own members because they can
Revamp Skunk
2024-09-18 10:39:19 +0000 UTCI'll gladly take text updates over art if that means you're taking care of yourself, so keep 'em coming as long as you're not too uncomfortable with them! I am, however, looking forward to what you'll be posting later today 👀 Much love, I hope you found a psychiatrist that you can get along well with 💙
Ari
2024-09-18 10:36:07 +0000 UTCHappy to keep hearing about how you're doing hun. Do what's best for you, but know there are a lot of us in your corner 💙💚
BlazeTheFolf
2024-09-18 10:33:52 +0000 UTCIt can feel awkward to incorporate more self-care into your routine, but it can be vital for one's stability and self worth. A lot of people tend to stigmatize their own self-care as being selfish, and it takes some time to work through. It sounds like you've found a good therapist, and I'm excited for your progress!
Chef Foxxo
2024-09-18 10:33:00 +0000 UTCThere's no need to apologize Leto, people may enjoy the things you do but that doesn't mean people only want that, like me, I may not know you, hell I just barely recently found you, about a week before your posted the thing that started all of this, but that doesn't mean I don't care about you. There's plenty of people who'd rather know your happy and healthy then struggling in silence
Skyler
2024-09-18 10:30:08 +0000 UTCI'm glad to hear that things are getting slowly better. I for one, don't mind these posts, as mental health is a really important topic that needs to be talked about more.
Tiger
2024-09-18 10:28:48 +0000 UTCI think, and I'm sure I speak for most, if not all of us here, what we want from you is to look after yourself, to take care of yourself. Baby steps are still steps forward, and that's always a positive. We'll be here, and you need to think about you first and foremost, rather than us, a bunch of people from the internet. <3
vrienzy
2024-09-18 10:28:29 +0000 UTC
