Polyamour's drama

I can't stop thinking of that boy. So I visited him in the clinic. Vid: https://www.dropbox.com/s/cwur46a2iom29la/inshot_20220926_022302107.mp4?dl=0

I wouldn't call it romantic. It's just such a mixture of feelings! I feel that my Heart opened to him, I feel like a Mum, I feel like a desired woman, sister... I know that at times my body reacted real good to him: he showed true feelings. And his body was sooo receptive of the massage! I gave him just a lil backrub, but he was almost purring 😅 So I'd love to check if Tantra, Love can do any magic in such cases. At one point I even felt like we were happily crazy lovers: it was before he left for the train station at 1 am desperate to meet his dad by 8:30🤦 but it turned out that Golden (the curtain dance) was his favourite song. So we were dancing goodbye like happy children, laughing at the door and he yelled 'Taya I love you! Coz you don't believe me'. This memory still brings tears into my eyes. I feel that I was born for Love. And I have immense capacity, but... Seems like I have to find it in the darkest corners... Last time I felt careless and free in love two years ago, with my student lover😅 And I really miss it when my heart sings. Lack of Love makes me unhappy, eager, vulnerable. So surely I don't take Yura as a Man, but I'd love to check the power of Tantric communication.

I have only one stable Lover-friend now. It's My Guy in ZSU🥰 he's a classic Hero in my mind, real Soldier. But I have no idea when we meet again 😢 My first visitor in Lviv became my regular client, and I want to try to teach my nanny Tantra massage on him))) Her name is Anna, she's divorced, never had vaginal orgasm, has an autistic child and often feels depressed. She's so sweet though! Jan simply loves her! So I want to gently try Tantra therapy with her❤️

Ahaha Handy Taya😋 I need to remember not to 'Tantriate' 😂 people without their request. So I'll keep observing for now.