Life Update (Stuff gets heavy, here)

So

Gotta love life with its unexpected surprises

A couple of days ago, me and my mom got letters from my apartment's landlord's lawyer saying that that we had an eviction date for January 18th, asking that we had to come up with $4,095 before the next month, where it would have been bumped up to 5,208. In a massive panic, I was forced reopen commissions as a final push in order to TRY to fight up before the month was up

Fast forward to Tuesday where we never gave us a proper date for eviction, thanks to saying the apartment's staff explaining to us, so they COULDN'T kick us out yet. But thanks to very kind and willing to big stacks of cash to keep me and my mom from being kicked out of our apartment IN THE START OF FUCKING WINTER

As if Wednesday 2AM, our rent has been paid and we clear to move for the remainder of the year, and with a HEAVIER load of commissions. You gotta use the skills that you have, I suppose. For the first PROPER time this year, I felt actual peace, like something within said "You can let go now" I have fighting within some personal demons that when I have the slightly upward strive, I get kicked back down and just stay where for a long while before I snap out of it the cycle repeats all over again, and the thoughts of feeling like a complete and utter fucking failure not just as a person but most importantly as a MAN.

Since late summer to winter started, I was regaining the thoughts about killing myself and thinking about what could be the most cheapest and quickest way to do it, I thought my ACTUAL job was going to be my main source to income to primarily use but That shit didn't fucking WORK and with my mom getting a good chunk of her SSI mysteriously stolen from her, I had to do double duty and slowly I felt more and more the cracks creating and spreading. But I want to thank with every itch of my heart to, what I want to say a close mutual of mines, who with his help with getting me back into seeing a therapist and getting remediated gotten his ship called my sanity back in normal waters before heading into an one way road to suicide. With this eviction shit happening all near the end of the year, I would wrote my suicide note, posted it, grabbed the sharpest knife in my kitchen and let the devil work

So thank you BurstingSeas. Your simply kind act of kindness ended up helping me get back onto the right path and saved my life.

Moving forward, I'm on strict commission road map duty, starting with a remake to one of my animations, Sugar, Spice, and Everything Ice, this time the whole time involved. If I lock-in, I can get the Taiyang/Ruby/Yang animation out by Christmas since I have every other scene animated and render minus the intro because I thought that was gonna take the longest. I have an additional 12 commissions to add on the queue. It sucks but I rather it goes this way and not the other

I want to say want to personally thank every single of you that started to support my, continued even with all of my bullshit, help spread my animations around via retweeting/sending it to folks/Doing sound edits/etc. I know I ain't that big on the food chain but screw it, I'll continue to get better at my craft and try to better myself in progress. Even if this security guard job sucks the life energy outta of me, you guys help me a lot more than you think. 2025 HAS to be the year I finally get a better job, at this rate I don't get a fuck what it is, as long it's better my current. Commissions will stay open but more as a passive. If someone ask me and if their idea is good enough, I'll agree to it

Animating on the RWBY Christmas animation continues on Friday and streaming resume on Saturday and Sunday, gonna do my damnest to try and have this finished by Christmas

Anyway, I have rambled for long enough, enjoy the rest of you guys day. Be prepared for a truly packed 2025 worth of animations