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Choking on Your D*ck at the Bar [Sloppy] [Quickie in the Bathroom]

Added 2024-07-31 15:50:31 +0000 UTC

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Summary: We’re exes, and run into each other at a bar. Nothing’s gonna happen between us. Definitely not. Not a chance. But the way you’re looking at me…

Tags: [M4M] [Bar] [Exes] [Public] [Slightly Toxic] [Banter] [Flirting] [Kissing] [Bathroom Suck] [Oral] [Facefuck] [Rough] [En is Down Bad] [Sloppy]

(art by @rentigj)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:

It's coming down to the wire with this thing I have with my day job -- in about two weeks I'll know if I'm getting fired or not. At which point I'll have to reorient literally everything in my day to day life to either look for a new job or double down with content creation. I'm going to rant about something completely unrelated to keep my mind off of it, at least momentarily.

I had a teacher in high school who, just speaking bluntly, was incredibly racist. But I was either too shy or too unaware to really recognize it as such at the time. Every time I would raise my hand to speak, she would sneer and make fun of the way that I talk even though I literally do not have any kind of non-American accent. At several times she accused me of plagiarizing my essays without any proof and even said at one point that "people like me" wouldn't write sentences the way that I do. What's especially ironic is that this was an Advanced English class where you needed to take a specialized test in order to get get entry, so I obviously had the chops to be in the class to begin with.

As I said I was too shy to ever make a stink about it, and this was also in the early 2000s when I feel like (especially for a young person like me) we weren't as aware of concepts like racism (even though I understood it was some sort of prejudice I was facing). I don't bring any of this up to garner sympathy but I sometimes wonder how much my interaction with that teacher really influenced my upbringing if only because I have a natural distrust for a lot of people who focus too heavily on the way that I talk or carry myself. I haven't had to second-guess my actions in my adult years but this whole thing at work really brought all these feelings back up, I suppose, because I'm the only non-white guy in the team at my company and it sometimes feels like my bosses are talking to me a certain way.

I promise you I'm not trying to turn this into some kind of diatribe about white racism in our society, but I oftentimes wonder about the character of that teacher: how did she turn out the way that she did that she felt the need to antagonize a student who should have been nurtured and empathized with. I'm not saying I'm trying to understand her to the point where I would excuse her behavior, but there are certainly people I meet where I can see that their behavior is so deeply-entrenched that they take for granted how hateful they are, and I've never been able to grasp that fully in my mind.

There are people that I interact with out in the world where when I'm talking to them, I can immediately tell that I'm like the first Asian person they've ever met in their lives who can speak English. Surprisingly I even get these kinds of interactions on the Internet as well as a streamer. I'm not comparing my teacher to these people, obviously, but I just wonder if there's something about people after getting to a certain age where they just stop being curious about the lives of others outside of their own experience, for people like my teacher to get to how they were.

This was really rambly and I need to get back to work, but I hope you enjoyed this audio and are having a nice day. Luv y'all.

As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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