The heavier I get, the more I want to show off. It’s so strange, I didn’t feel like this when I was fit, and I didn’t even really feel like this the first time I got fat. But lately, I’m just desperate to flaunt, to show every new roll as it develops, capture it all and blush as I look back through them. I feel really hot in a way I didn’t the first time. When my belly slips between my legs, it’s not just a shiver of hot shame it gives me, it’s more than that this time. I can’t wait to lean into that more and more.