Health update! Numb hand shenanigans!

I'm over the hospital since monday and wasn't able to check in on you guys!!! I did was able to talk a bit about over the discord server.... And I'll get what I wrote there to here!

Hey @everyone ... This weekend I slept in a bad position and woke up not being able to move my right hand. It didn't get better and today I'll have to spend the night on a hospital...that way we can determine if my multiple sclerosis has something to do with it or not. I really hope it doesn't. And I want my hands to get good again.

I asked a nurse for some pen and paper. It's really really far from 100% but I can handle things with fingers and have some degree for finer control. I want to go back bein 100%!!! I don't want to lose anything. Drawing is all I am. And I'm not even good at that! It's my worst fear!!!!!!!!!!! What I means is, this week has started very very very bad!!!

Me posting a very similar thing over twitter to the thing I posted it here rn....

Not a healthy behavior at all. But please, I'm a very lonesome guy and I just wish for someone to prove I'm not a disgrace at what I do, that I'm just not playing around!!! I know ideally this should come from yourself but....

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-I'm sharing a room with a man that will make an open chest heart surgery! It's a traditional bucolic catholic couple. At the start I was a bit annoyed at the songs they were putting on but the more I knew about their situation, the more I understood and was patient. Trying to be a fun room mate to make a difficult moment a bit more easier!

-they were going to sleep and started singing hymns together, even if none of them are particularly good singers. I found the moment very beautiful and inspiring. For a moment, I think I witnessed true love.

-they brought in a lady to pray for them. She is Venezuelan! I've never seen someone preaching in spanish. It was very interesting. She offered to pray to me and I accepted, even tho I'm not religious. The way her words were passionate, it fired me up!

-did an eletroneuromiography test! Basically someone constantly shocks me and puts nails on my skin. Sounds like it hurts, but it's kinda funny! The body moves by itself with electric stimuli. The dude doing it was a total cutie too.... A handsome dude shocking me up?! What's this, bdsm hospital?! 😂😂😂

I may be home tomorrow. I'll be sure to tell you guys!

Update: a doc came over and told me it's advised to keep up with the multiple sclerosis treatment. I'm on day 2 of 5.... The thing is is that home care is an option, so I'll be waiting for confirmation. I just want to go home... I hate living in fear I might just wake up  someday and MS will take something important from me.

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Update: less than an hour to be discharged. But. After this experience... I'm not the same. I've changed.