Monthly Challenge #2: Trance Development, Week 2! (April 8th-14th, 2025)
Added 2025-04-14 23:30:03 +0000 UTCWith Week 2 done, we've now crossed the halfway hump of the challenge~ if you've played along 'til now, kudos! You've done a great job prioritising yourself, your growth AND your pleasure, and you deserve lots of praise for it. 🙂↕️ Claps, props, etc.
That being said, this post is gonna revolve around the theme of how ummm... well... sometimes shit doesn't always go to plan, too.
Welcome to The One About Mental Health. 🙂↕️
But first ~
LET'S RE-ESTABLISH THE RULES. SUCK EM DOWN. IMMEDIATELY.
AND WHEN YOU DO, REMEMBER THAT SPITTERS = QUITTERS
1. Pick your own trancing schedule (something that's a bit ambitious, but reachable) and stick to it. Can be "per week" or even "per month" or whatever, however you'd like to shape the goal yourself. I am aiming to trance daily; you don't have to, and you're not less valid for a lower goal.
2. They don't have to be just Jockout files.
3. The aim of this challenge is Trance Development. What's that?
Trance Development = developing your skill with trance.
That aside, let's get into the meat of this post: how did I, the noble hypocrite, do with this week myself?
Yes. You are seeing correctly. I missed 2 of 7 days. 🙂↕️
And that's fine.
Some people in the Discord missed days too and I could tell they were a little bothered by it, feeling that they had to make it up somehow by maybe... trancing extra, or adding bonus days, or even (self-report) staying up late to squeeze in a trance even after it was LONG past the time you should have been sleeping Jockout you stupid fucking -
*deep breath*
But it's OK to miss days. C'est la vie, right?
I could leave it there. Just say "yeah i missed some, oops, but anyway here's what i braingooned to -"
But instead... I'm going to be an emo little dog... and take this chance to talk a little about Mental Health⚠️🤯⛈️
Because -
Huh? Why would you do that!?
-- I'm getting to that!
To date, I don't know if I've ever really spoken about anything vulnerable on Patreon.
If you follow me on other platforms, or have interacted with me with any depth, I'm not a secretive person about these topics. I think it's important that people be open about how they feel, especially if they're in any Position Of Influence, so that people (subjects, listeners, consumers) aren't left to unfairly compare themselves with a curated, Perfect Presentation we hand them. That kind of fantasy has a place. And this isn't a dig at tists/artists of any kind who keep that stuff separate. For me, I feel I want Jockout to be authentic, more than a role I'm playing, without it devolving into just - venting, or whining, or whatever, because THAT... is for my friends to deal with. 🙂↕️
So bearing that in mind...
This was just kind of a bad week for me in terms of depression/anhedonia (a more specific word that just means, you can't find pleasure in much. It's considered a symptom of depression, and is pretty typical of it.) And that then drives a lot of anxiety because I'm struggling to get work done, or manage my time well, or anything and it all gets very overwhelming.
These feelings peaked on the 10th/11th, when I didn't trance because I couldn't excavate any Drive to Drop... even with my hardest psychic shovels. Just didn't have it in me.
(Sidebar: I also trance worse when my mental health is poor, which makes sense. Hypnosis can be a great comfort to me when I'm low, but there are times that the failure to drop just becomes another steel-capped-boot to kick the little brain dog with. If it's only going to make you feel worse because it's Not Perfect, you've gotta know when to call it quits and do something else.)
I slept like 4hrs a night for several days because I just couldn't unwind, I was irritable as shit, and it was kind of all I could do to keep working at comms and meet my workout goals - both of which I did, and so claps to you, depressed little shithead Jockout, for successfully doing so. 🙂↕️
I've picked myself up a bit since, but I'm still kinda in the hole. I delayed this till midnight and barely did anything today besides lift.
But that's fine.
That's how life goes sometimes.
I have no rich philosophical point to tie this up with; no "it gets better, we all go through it" platitude. Both are true. But you don't need to read either right now. 😝
Even with the best intention, we will sometimes fail at something we set out to do - completely, or partially.
And we will fail not just because of external contexts, but because of internal events too.
And those failures will sting worse, because they feel like Our Fault. Like we should be able to just shut an internal event, any internal event down, and Function As We'd Planned. That the strength and skill of Shoving It Down would rescue us from that most awful condition, having feeeeeeelings.
But that's not how emotions work, lol. It's not how YOU, a whole and full Person with a brain (for now), and a heart, and a life of great joy and sorrow and the conflict that rises between all those fighting emotions... should expect yourself to be.
It's futile to try force yourself into being anything other than what the given moment allows you to be.
It's, unfortunately, a lesson I seem doomed to forget/relearn again and again till the end of time... that our demons can't be mechanically, ruthlessly exorcised. They're a part of us; and it's more productive to, when they come knocking, invite them in for tea and sit with them, as a witness, than to take up arms and fail to drive them out.
(For context to that metaphor... read this!)
But.
That aside.
Here's what I tranced to this week~ hell yeahhhh bet you're horny for it nowwwww, woooo hypnosis!!!
Jockout! That was all booooring. What have you been brainfucking yourself with this week?
Let's go through it a day at a time.
April 8+9th:
Avis Sapiens: (secret) & So Stupid For Muscle: I'm gonna dump my description for this from last week here, since my views hadn't changed on it. Remember I wrote last week's post on April 7th and this was "only" April 8th and 9th so no, I haven't had my brain explode out my ears because of this one yet. In time.
A recent release of Avis'. More intense than I usually go but I've been playing with orgasm denial for a bit and it's definitely skewed me towards wanting more intense vibes in my hypnosis lol, so it's hitting the spot. Installs a very fun dumbing/brain freeze trigger that was sticky for me from listen #1... so I'm excited to see how that progresses, haha.
Unfortunately this one ISN'T free but he has TONS of free stuff on his Youtube, so go check it out. If you like mine, you'll maybe like his. Idk. I'm not your dad. Unless you pay me enough. Then I could be. But we'd both know it's a lie, and is it really worth it?
... Maybe.
Give it some thought. 💖
April 9th:
Chew Toy: In The Background 1/2/3
Chew Toy is a tist I'd never listened to before chatting with another tist called Mutt, who recommended him quite strongly! I checked him out one day while I was on a big walk in the woods, after having dropped to my (secret) Avis file for the day. Chew Toy had three files designed for background play, and I said... hey, why not?
Very glad I did.
Very very clever technique, great rhythm and timing, lovely voice, everything was immaculate mwah mwah kissy chef mouth, super pleased I took the time to try him out. He has lots of content available free, so please go check him out and enjoy - his work is less, like, m4m personality stuff as mine is ofc but it's great hypnotic fun for anyone. And all trance is good practice~
April 10th/11th:
the dark days, cometh...
April 12th:
Followed by the horny days!! I've done this file twice and find it very interesting structurally, but would want to train on it for a while longer. It's both very does-what-it-says-on-the-tin and also i-cant-read-the-tin-it's-all-whispers-and-BG-vocals, so a fun blend of "I know exactly what's happening but also no the fuck I don't what are these animals even SAYING right now". Recommend. It's free! :3 Just makes ya hornier, really.
Hypnotic conditioning for the word "good" to trigger pleasure in you. It's 10 minutes long. Do not let that fool you lmao. I am embarrassed to describe how much I enjoyed this one, but: on a random and totally unrelated fun fact, I've only ever been made to moan out loud by two files. I wonder if you can guess one of them?
April 13th:
Chew Toy: Very Good & Just Can't Get Enough
Sequel to Good, building on its programming - and a general trance trainer/compelled relistening file which I found weirdly... like, I haven't gone back to relisten yet, but I keep thinking about it so clearly it worked. I amnesia'd hard this morning and can't tell you much about either tho, sorry. I loved both...? 😝
This... is hard to describe.
In a good way. I listened to it sleep deprived and hypnohigh as shit effectively, and like... I know what it did but also that's a spoiler. So. Hmmm. How to word. Let's say that it'll give you both a horny funtime afterwards, and make you a nicer person? 🙂↕️ That works.
Mutt is great at eliciting a sense of confusion/brain-falter "i'll just roll with it" in trance, which I know will appeal to you dumb bros... I came out feeling, confused about what had actually happened, but very pleasantly controlled and fucked-with. It's a fun time, and I plan to relisten. 😝
April 14th:
Mutt/DriftingOneiros: Good News, Everything is Fine!!
This is a file themed around listening to a radio show. The kind you might have dozed off listening to, as a kid, safe and sound in the backseat while your parents drove somewhere late at night...
It's a conversational file - not my forte as subject OR tist. Never done one before this, iirc? So I was kinda listening at first going "oh this is like a podcast i guess okay, not what I expected but I'm comfy so I'll just keep listening" and then... well, I tranced and woke up and wasn't too sure what I'd done besides 1. Be Horny and 2. Repeat Some Mantras (like a good listener) so clearly I had a good time! Mutt and Drifting both have lovely voices, so this was an enjoyable listen for THAT if nothing else; but the hypnotic content was certainly compelling.
And again, it's novel, it's fun, and it's FREEEE, waowwwww. Poor Avis being the only tist here with a paywalled piece; my b, bro.
Check out Mutt/Drifting by the links to their sites above.
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Aaaaand that's a wrap.
Let me know! How'd YOUR second week go? How are you feeling about the upcoming week 3? And if you didn't join me yet... you still can. SOME is better than none, and all are welcome~
