IMPORTANT UPDATE: Mail Rewards Closed Indefinitely

Hello Blush Miibaes,

This may be a long read so if you want to skip through all of it you can go straight to the bottom to the updates. I know I haven't been the best with updating the mail rewards, so I sat myself down and gave it a really long thought. I realized that when I first started my Patreon page in December 2018 I was in a different place and time in my life. It felt like so long ago but I wasn't pursuing streaming as a serious option for myself. Fast forward 4 years to now in December 2022, I knew that I had to make a decision as it was affecting me mentally. As time dragged on I was having a hard time balancing and juggling different things and being able to make my deadlines of not only commissions but also my Patreon content and being able to focus on streaming. 

Back then I was able to give my all and just focus mainly on building my Patreon and sending out mail and packages to the small amount of patrons that supported me here (thank you so much by the way). Slowly as time went on my priorities shifted and I began to enjoy content creating a lot more. At first, I wanted to have a harmonious balance of being able to content create (stream) and draw at the same time (Patreon content) but I also had to take on commissions in order to support myself financially and pay for my bills (rent, food, taking care of my cats, necessities). It slowly started to become increasingly difficult for me to juggle doing these things. It started to become very overwhelming. As of right now since my Patreon doesn't generate enough to support myself financially, I decided that the mail rewards are not worth the struggling and stress for me to continue doing and have decided to take it off the to-do list.

For those that don't know about the behind-the-scenes of my mail rewards, it would take up at least 1-2 full weeks just to print everything out, manually cut them up, and carefully package them and send them up. Almost 80% of the sticker cutting was an intensely manual and time consuming process that required much precision and care as there was a common chance of it messing up easily if the paper was shifted ever so slightly or even if the lighting was too bright or too dark (and if there was a shadow casted over the machine), meaning that it can result in not only wasting the limited materials but also it meant that all the time and labor I put to setting it up was for naught. It may not seem like much but I began to deteriorate from making the mail rewards and eventually it dragged on and I kept holding it off until the last second. It caused major delays with mailing out the rewards. 

The guilt of being unable to fulfill the rewards and especially mail rewards ate away at me until I just let it drag on more and more, letting my guilt sit and steep while growing larger and intensely overwhelming. It always sat in the back of my mind with every action I did. I don't like letting people down, yet it felt like I was letting every one of my patrons down every day...and to be honest I was. I wasn't updating on here as frequently nor sending out the mail at the promised times. 

So here are the new updates and what will be happening starting in the new fresh year of 2023:

1. I will continue creating DIGITAL content every month: 1 full drawing, 1 full nsfw drawing, and 1-5(or more) chibi-like sticker drawings.

2. I have closed my mail rewards indefinitely. To those that are currently subscribed to it, you may remain subscribed to it but there will no longer be mail rewards starting in 2023 indefinitely. When I feel ready to return to being able to take on mail rewards I will post an update about it. If you would like, you can downgrade to the $5 tier instead if you would like to continue supporting me!
One important note: since the tier options for mail rewards are hidden on my page now, you can only see it if you are currently subscribed to it otherwise once you unsubscribe it will no longer appear as an option for you.

I will send out all mail rewards that I owe up until this month: December 2022. 

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Even though I no longer want to make the physical prints and stickers and send out mail rewards at this time, I still wish to create art and will still keep our digital tiers on Patreon. My goals right now in 2022/2023 may have changed course from back in 2018, but they are still not far off from what I wanted. I still want to work on improving my artwork and style. I still want to be an artist! And I also want to stream and create other types of content as well. By cutting out the mail rewards it will let me have a clear conscience and continue down this path that I have chosen for myself. I am not closing any doors for myself, I want to continue drawing but I just want a little more time for myself to do other things too. Right now I need to prioritize my commissions so that I can continue financially supporting myself. I would also like to prioritize my streaming.

Thank you so much for just...being the kindest and supportive people. I am truly grateful that you all were very patient with me and my content, no one ever complained to me about it, though I would have completely understood if you did. It makes me tear up and cry that I have such supportive people here, thank you again for your kindness to me. Please know that I completely understand if you will cancel your patron subscriptions. I will be back to doing mail rewards when I am ready. Thank you everyone and I am sorry that it took so long for me to come to this decision. I am sorry for making you wait.