Hai ♡ [little update] [TW: depression]

Hey everyone!

I hope you are all having a lovely weekend. If not then I hope you find some time for yourself today so you can end the weekend on a calm note. You deserve that. ♡

I'm here in this text post just to update you a little really on what's been going on with me and how content is coming along! So I'm just going to hop straight in: I had no idea at the time or during but it turns out I've been suffering with some depression, anxiety and burnout. I'm not sure when it all started to get so bad but it did and I think it was a combination of many things. I try really hard to keep a balance between all the chaos in my life but sometimes unexpected or hard things get added in that throw me off and then I get stuck in a hole that feels impossible to climb out of and all you can do is cry. If anyone else has experienced this you'll know that being in that hole makes you question your worth and makes you feel like talking to anyone about it makes you annoying/a burden. It's a dangerous & slippy slope to ending up somewhere really far away from the person you are and that's what I've been experiencing for the last few months.  

Anyone who has been in our community for a while will know that I am a huge advocate for mental health and it would be hypocritical of me to urge others to talk about their struggles whilst staying quiet about my own. It's sad to think how common mental health struggles are but they really are. You are not alone in how you are feeling. If you are struggling I want you to know that you aren't a burden or annoying. Your brain might feed you those thoughts and feelings which changes your perception about things but the people around you who love you still see you for you, someone they want to help. Always talk about how you feel because it is so important and I promise there will be people who want to help you.

Feeling the way I did I wanted to try and produce some content to ride the storm until I felt better but in doing so I completely burnt myself out between doing that and teaching. One of the children I teach lost their mother over Christmas and it's been really tough to keep everything in balance and so script writing/recording is the area of my life that has had to give for the last couple of weeks. I have been so tired and unable to be creative. Streaming has been the only thing I've been able to do and that's only because I have the most uplifting community.

As I'm writing this I can tell you whole heartedly that I am feeling so, so much better. I am hopeful that my creativity is just around the corner now waiting for me and I'll be back on track over the next week. I am taking care of myself to the max and getting better. ^-^

I want to thank each & everyone one of you reading this because without you I wouldn't be where I am in my life now. You really are giving me a chance every day to build a better life and I do owe it all to your support. I might be able to take a step back from teaching after this academic year to make audios/stream full time, which I still haven't really gotten my head around yet, but it would make me the happiest girl in the world to be able to dedicate all of my time & attention to making things for you.

Thank you for taking the time to read this post. I'm going to leave a website at the bottom of the post for anyone who is struggling. This is a global list of websites and emergency services for those in need of help. Please reach out to someone if you need to. They want to help you. ♡

Take care of yourselves,
Peaches

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https://checkpointorg.com/global/