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When life hits hard...

Hey, sorry about the silence, I'm here to talk a bit on what has been going on and what can be expected in the coming weeks. But first I like to welcome in everybody that has been joining in the last month or two. To see the influx of people has been amazing and more so see everybody putting it to good use. Everyday I get surprised how many new people is willing to give the bot a go, it has been very humbling and I want badly to give back to you guys, both by developing new and cool features and by trying to foster a good and helpful community around the bot, as I've said before I don't just want this to be a bot but a community!

So what has been going on? why haven't there been an bot update in soon 1 month? The start of the reason is the 3 ear infection I had within 6 months of each other and the biggest reason is the tinnitus that started just before the 3 ear infection. That started in the middle of January,  I had hopes that the ear infection was the cause for the tinnitus and that it would end when the infection was over, but the infection was over more then a month ago and the tinnitus is still there. So I've had to come to terms with the fact that the tinnitus is likely a permanent thing and this fact has effected me so much that even I am surprised how fast and low my mental health fell, I was almost back to where I was 3 years ago where I was just a step away from being suicidal. there's likely other factors that also influenced my health as I likely have Seasonal affective disorder (this is undiagnosed, but those that was here already last year might remember that I had a similar down period around this time). But luckily this time I had better understanding and tools for how to handle it.

But yeah, the SAD and tinnitus hit me hard and I have a newfound respect for people who live with tinnitus as I might have underestimate it before as I have had tinnitus that has come and gone (last a day or so). The sound level of my tinnitus is at a level where I can quite clearly here it in a normal conversation and has a ringing sound. Been to a ear doctor and they found nothing wrong with the ears themselves, but I have gotten a remiss to another type of ear doctor that will give me "tools" to help live with tinnitus, I also gotten prescribed anti-anxiety meds and I'm slowly coming to terms with it and learning to ignore it, but it has been a battle.

So that's the reason why the has been no updates in a month, my mental health has just not been good enough to be able to focus on the bot, it has taken all my energy to focus on myself and trying not to fall deeper into depression. I would not say I'm good at the moment but I'm feeling ready to start working on the bot again. I do plan to start working on the bot this week, don't know how much work I will get done but I do want to get back working on it both as it's my passion and I want to deliver for all you guys that support the project.

So what's coming up, the same thing as last time I talked about what's coming next(just as the tinnitus came), bit alerts! My hope is to have it out within 2 weeks, but I make no promises. After that Randomizer weights and emulated keyboard presses is on the list together with other alert types (like subs, raids, follow, etc.)

Something I also plan on "releasing" earlier then first planned is the to put the bot into Beta, this so I can give you guys more options to at what tier you guys want to support at, as to be honest at the moment the only alternative is tier 3+ and I know that can be a lot of money for some. The alpha will still be a thing as when beta is a thing, new features will still be released into alpha first where they will be for a month or two before going into the beta branch (the amount of time will be an ongoing work in progress).

Again thank you all for supporting the bot and for being understanding in these times, I hope to be back in full production mode sooner rather then later so I can deliver one of the best bot to you guys! You all are after all the reason this project is possible!

Comments

I know this post was back in march but I do hope things are getting easier. I hope you take lots of rests and take the time for self care as much as you work on the bot tho! You are important to you. ^w^ Thank you for all your hard work!

PuffySheepLexi

Thank you for all that you do! I know it can be difficult to work when things are seemingly grim, but knowing that you have a fighting spirit encourages me to continue to support this project. You are also inspiring me to push past my own difficulties and focus on my own goals too! So, thank you, again!

Amyrlin


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