Cringe Worthy

Progress can be a really difficult thing to track. But every once in awhile you may come across something that really points to and highlights the "Where You Were" versus "Where You Are". Such is the case with this cringe worthy video. 

I don't believe that this has ever actually been seen by anyone else. I feel like perhaps it's only ever been seen by me, and even at the time, I found it cringy and awkward. I don't have an actual date on this piece.  It could be anywhere from 3 to 5 years ago. It's clear that I don't know what I'm doing. In this particular clip I was walking with a gimbal in hand rather than a selfie stick. The gimbal has a tendency to wander a little bit because I didn't know how to use it. While I was trying to direct it towards my face or the scenery around me, it just kept looking down my shirt. Like some kind of pervert that can't make eye contact. Presently, when I walk and talk I use a selfie stick (even if they've become a bit of a cliché). 

I've always been a little bit uncomfortable with turning the camera on myself and knowing how to talk to a piece of equipment as if it is another human being. Because ultimately, that's the goal: to connect with someone that will be watching this. Be it someone I know, or someone I don't know, or perhaps someone in the future. Whenever that connection may happen, the goal is to connect. The reality is  that I still get nervous when I turn the camera on myself. I still find difficulties in finding the words and knowing what to say. I have a fear that whatever I say may not be interesting and it may not land with someone else. But as I reviewed this footage of walking the dog In the garden, the differences between then and now became so obvious. 

As awkward as I find this footage, I'm happy to share it now with you. It marks progression.  It would have been really difficult to walk that path of progression without you and this platform. Your support has allowed me to grow and progress and has held me accountable along the way. Thank you so much for your support and for being here!