Hey Everyone,
Some of you may have noticed how quiet I've been, and the lack of posting lately both here and elsewhere, and I feel like I owe you all an explanation/apology for why I haven't really been active.
Truth is: I've been feeling more depressed, burnt-out, and anxious lately and it's kinda made me want to just take a step back. It's a weird feeling, because I haven't really been this way for a prolonged period of time like this before. I haven't done much artwork for the last three weeks at this point, and don't really have any drive to, which is a very strange place to be. It's hard to explain, but I've frequently been very exhausted and feeling "off". I am extremely proud of how far Murphy & Mitzi has come, and am honored to have so many people who support my work. However, I am starting to feel overwhelmed by it all. Three years ago when I started posting stuff with M&M, I never imagined I'd get this far, and I am seriously so grateful! But as someone's who's suffered from social anxiety my entire life, it 's starting to take a toll.
It's made me realize how much time I'm spending online, and using constant work to avoid addressing aspects of my physical and mental health. As I grow and move through life, my priorities are changing. In the early days, I made a short every single week because I wanted to go big or go home. Now, I feel this unending pressure and discomfort trying to keep up. The pressure I feel internally is less like M&M is my own small personal project, and more like it's got the expectations and treatment of a well-established "brand", which I don't really like. I'm just one guy and I feel like I don't even have control of my own project at times. Of course I always wanted it to grow, but I need to recharge and consider my other priorities too.
Rambling aside: please don't worry, I'm not going away! But I am definitely thinking of downsizing things. I am proud of what I've created and it's very dear to me, but right now I'm taking some privacy and me-time. More than likely, what I am going to do is finish out the backlog of content I have completed, and then think about where to go from there.
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For those of you who might feel the need, I would not blame you if you wanted to suspend payment for this month or next month since there hasn't been content. I can't really say when the posts will start coming again, but I hope to be back on track soon. My apologies for waiting this long to say. As a bit of an apology, I've included some stuff that may or may not ever get finished. There are captions included with each image.
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2022-11-16 22:39:25 +0000 UTC