I'm sorry for the lack of updates...

I guess it's time to be honest. I also kind of regret that I have to do this after Patreon has billed everyone. I should have done this sooner.

Right now I'm having lots of mental blocks and lack of inspiration that is heavily slowing me down on animating. Also as from the last time I mentioned an emergency. My mother was having abnormal acid reflux that it's causing her difficulty in breathing so we had to go to hospital to have her checked. Unfortunately, the better hospital is quite the distance. We also only find the doctor's availability when we go there so there's a lot of back and forth since we need the doctor's permission for lab tests and the labs sometimes has fasting requirement and availability so we'll have to go back some other day. A lot of time is wasted.  I'm also worried for her since the symptoms come up randomly a lot lately.

Ah, money isn't problem for now, my brother has medical benefit with my mother as dependent.

As for the mental blocks, I guess it's the lack of real 3D knowledge. Thing is, I don't have any 3D education background. (I'm a business degree graduate) I'm just someone who played around MMD for some time. A fake 3D animator me doing all of these, I feel guilty at times, that I sometimes think I'm ripping people off. Last year when I quit my job and was looking for a new one, my MMD patreon became a thing so I kept going on it but now I've become dependent on it. At the same time, I'm struggling to keep some posts a month since a lot of times, I can't figure out how to do something to look good. The expectations are there and can be quite the pressure.

I also want to apologize to the person who commissioned me. It's been like 2 months overdue. The collab was also supposed to be due on end of January but...Well...

I'm not sure if I should've posted this...