I Don't Know What's Going On Anymore...

I needed to update this at least once and stop hiding under my bed to keep people informed on what's been going on with me lately; this place is just as if not more important than all the others, after all...I wish I could bring myself to feel that way, way more...><;

So, anyway, you all have probably heard about the...events....that took place all throughout this month essentially...and you probably also know by now that it legit killed me on the inside, therefore hindering my ability to do much right now. I do have some "back up treats" I could post for people, but beyond that I'm not confident that I'll be able to provide a lot of new content over the summer and that both frightens and worries me, for various reasons.

This site is an important way for me to both support a community (which I also, admittedly, haven't been doing much due to mental health issues) and make extra funds so I can pay off the required bills at the beginning of every month. Since my BF and I separated this has been especially hard; the electricity bill has been neglected for almost four months now and my internet providers are insisting I cough up ASAP. I am trying my hardest right now with what I have, but it still feels like I'm not even doing a good job with THAT and just everything is a mess and I hate being alone all the time but I am too socially anxietic to do anything about it because I don't want to get hurt anymore and just fuck

I also feel like I have been HEAVILY neglecting the Discord chat too and for that I am sincerely sorry. :( I might need to give the server a bit of a makeover/re-design as well as some of the channels have been lying dormant for quite awhile. Will put that on the "To-Do" list....

I'm happy to say as well that the link to the Cadence video has been fixed and is fully operational, so if you haven't checked it out (or just want to watch it again) it's there now~

Again, I apologize. This entire month has made me feel worse than I have ever felt in a LONG time. I'm attempting to get back in the saddle but this is one of the absolute hardest states to heal from and come out of--I've experienced it before and it took me WELL over a month last time to actually get into my senses. Hopefully it won't be the same here, but I'm not getting my hopes up, nor making any promises.

I'll just....try to get some stuff together.