For those of you who have been following my stories, I should throw some context for what was going on with me at the point of my life when I first started modeling. I counted down to the day I would become a legal adult. I raged at the fact I had to go to high school. I didnβt even go to my senior year because I turned 18 the summer after my junior year. I got my first job when I was 16 (fast food), bought my first car when I was 17, with my own money, even though my dad told me he would help contribute to the cost, I wanted to do everything on my own and be completely independent, apart from his control.
I had been designing my first tattoo by tracing my own experimental designs on a notepad with sharpie marker. I got my first tattoo immediately after turning 18, and I truly love it :) Itβs my tramp stamp on my lower back. This was my physical reminder that my body was my own, and I could do what I wanted! To this day I still love my tattoo, and I couldnβt imagine my booty without it. Itβs a part of me!
I also got my belly button pierced, I still have and love my navel piercing!
Since I was a legal adult finally, it was time I ran myself through the crucible with drugs, sex, alcohol, and finally expressing my inner feminine beauty that I was shamed for for my whole life leading up until that point. I got approved to rent an apartment that summer with one of my coworkers who was only 17. I was finally free.
One of my biggest problems was that I trusted everyone so easily. I didnβt know that the world would be full of people who wanted to take advantage of me. I didnβt know people would say βI love youβ when they really were just trying to bleed you to death for everything you are. I didnβt know how health insurance worked. I didnβt know what collection agencies were. I didnβt know fake institutions would try to scam me. I wonder if my parents knew I would slingshot away so fast, if theyβd have tried to prepare me? I probably wouldnβt have listened by that point anyway. I was so turned off by trying to be controlled.
Thanks for reading...
*Kristy
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