A little bit about what's been going on

Hello everyone! 

I'm sure some of you have at least noticed that there has not been a whole lot of released content these past few months other than the monthly wallpaper and commissions. 

The truth is, I'm doing my best but I'm chronically ill and since the beginning of the year I've been having a lot of doctor appointments to hopefully have a little more quality of life. I recently received an exit survey saying I wasn't engaging like the patron expected, so I figured I'd go a little more in depth about my situation and if any of you have the time and are willing to share your thoughts about the service I offer, it would be appreciated! 

So you see, not to give you a life story, but my mental and physical health has never been the greatest, and the people around me seemed to believe I was just dramatic so it's been drilled very deep into my skull all my life that I need to suck it up, compensate and hold an exterior that makes me look like I function like a normal person, am happy and not share any of my issues. It's not something I want to change or regret, as I would much rather inspire people and be positive than dwell on bad things.

But the truth is, I'm always completely worn, exhausted, and in pain. I've been diagnosed with chronic (daily) migraines in 2015 so far, but we're still trying to figure out if that's really it or all there is or... what. It's not like being told you have a broken leg. It's a daily battle with tons of uncertainty, lots of appointments and test results with no answers, and it's hard to talk about because most people don't really understand that stuff, which is okay. 

Being unhealthy makes me restless and moody, so I end up trying to keep myself busy. I feel the best when I'm working and being productive and clearing things off my to do lists! It's how I cope. Sometimes I overdo it and spread myself thin. 

The list of things I do every single month include updating and working on a long term comic that updates 3 pages a week, a full illustration wallpaper, various patreon commissions, various NON patreon commissions, doctor appointments, eat, sleep (or try to). I don't have any extra energy to spare. I take every weekend off the computer to rest so I don't burn out again. I've burned out 3 times in my life so far.

I have a bad case of social anxiety, and sometimes even talking to long term friends or seeing people in person is not something I can handle every day. I always, always do my very best to respond to messages I receive and be as friendly and kind as I can be. 

I'm sorry I haven't had the energy to put it upon myself to be more engaged on my own. I try, but I just can't do it. I'm so tired, my head hurts. But I don't bite. If you'd like to interact with me more, please just drop me an email, hit me up on social media, leave a comment anywhere that invites me to respond back to you. I'll reply back! It'll be a fun time! I'm not too busy to respond to people, I'm just too tired, shy and anxious to start the interaction myself most of the time.

As for the 1$ content on here, I would love to hear what you guys would like to see. Releasing character and environment comparisons every chapter is something but chapters are long and it's sparse and I can't think of other things by myself sometimes. No one talks to me, so I don't know what any of you expect and assume I must be doing alright then. But it's okay to have requests for fun content to see! I'll probably be excited to have a direction on something to work on and share that I know for sure people want to see.

Thank you for your time! I hope you have a great day!

~Love, Chris