Empty Nest: Chapter 107

Standing in front of the door to the spare room I take a breath then give it a light tap.

“Hello?” Says Lily from the other side. A moment later the door open a few inches. The surprise on Lily’s face is obvious as she sees who it was that had come knocking. “Elliot?”

“Hey…uh…” I scratch the back of my head in a nervous fidget as suddenly my capacity for language escapes me. I was getting serious flashbacks from high school where she and I inhabited very different strata of the social hierarchy, hers near the top and mine far below. Combine that with her being the hot sister of my bully and it made her the most forbidden of fruits in the school garden.

She snickers, amused by my squirming through the interminable moment of silent awkwardness. “Cat got your tongue?”

“No, yes, no. Um…” I take a hard breath. “Your mom said I could…um…help…um…”

“Have you come as friend or Prince?”

“Er…both?”

She chuckles. “You really don’t waste any time, do you?”

“If you want me to go…”

“I didn’t say that.” She smiles.

Stepping back she pulls the door open and waves me inside. Once I am inside she quietly closes the door behind me. She leans back against the door and crosses her arms as she looks me up and down.

“I can’t imagine how peculiar this all must seem to you. Though you are managing admirably.” She quips. “I guess guilt-free pussy inspires a man.”

“You got me all wrong, Lily.” After a short pause I confess. “Well…maybe not all wrong.”

She laughs. I liked her laugh. It reminded me of her mother’s but with a snark at the edges to give it some spice. This was a woman accustomed to sibling style banter.

“The fact you chose me to come to is…interesting.” She says, a curious glimmer in her brown eyes. “Given that you know about my predilections.”

“Who said it had anything to do with predilections.” I say. “Maybe I’ve been holding a lifelong crush on you.”

“Have you?”

“Well…no.” I say as she chuckles again. “You were too scary! All hot and popular with a protective big brother who hated my guts. If I thought you were anywhere CLOSE to my level…maybe.”

“Flatterer.” She steps away from the door and slinks closer. Stopping just beyond arm’s reach of me she begins to circle and check me out. “The popular girls used to talk about you. Did you know that?”

“Really?”

“Not in the most flattering way most of the time, but you were on the radar at least.” She says. “That’s better than at least half the other guys.”

“I had no idea.” I say. “Was I…on your radar?”

Lily stops to give me an apologetic look. “Afraid not.”

“I guess we’re even then.”

“Guess so.” She says. “You were cute enough in your own geeky way but…I like girls. Always did.”

“Even then?”

“Yes, Elliot. Even then.”

“I just meant…all the guys used to go wild talking about you.” I say. “And I heard some stories that, uh…”

“Me and Tyler Grayson?”

“Yeah.” I say. “They said you and he were messing around behind Demi’s back for years.”

“Who do you think started the rumors?”

“You!?” I laugh. “Serious?”

“Uh huh.” She nods. “Nobody was gonna mess around with the star quarterback’s side piece. Kept the other boys at bay until graduation.”

“Clever.”

“Between Liam, Tyler, and the rest of the football team looking out for their QB it was like having 24/7 protection.”

“Ha!” I sit down on the bed and pat the spot beside me. “But…why didn’t he or Demi say anything? Why didn’t they squash it?”

She looks to the door as if checking for any peepers then rushes in to sidle up beside me and whisper. “Because the truth was wayyyy worse.”

Caught up in bygone high school drama like it was fresh news I lean in and whisper back. “Spill it.”

“I can’t.”

“Oh, come on!” I lightly smack her leg. “You can’t leave me hanging on that!”

With an impish grin she says. “Well…”

“Come on. I’m a claimed man now. I couldn’t betray this family if I wanted to.” I bump my shoulder to hers. “Talk to me, girl.”

She giggles and immediately give in with an excitement that told me she’d been holding this secret for a very long time. “The truth was…” She gives me a guilty cringe. “…I was kinda…cucking the ever-loving shit out of Tyler.”

“WHAT!?”

“Shhhhh!” We both titter and immediately lower our voice again.

“What!?”

“It’s true. Tyler might have been a stud on the grid iron but between the sheets…not so much.” Lily face had turned a lovely pink. “Two-pump Tyler. Clitty-dick Tyler. Oh man, the things Demi used to say to that poor bastard.”

“No way!”

“I swear.” She crosses her heart. “Demi played the happy, ditzy cheerleader in public but in private? Geeeez!”

“Oh my God! So it was Demi you were fooling around with?”

“Well, I mean…Tyler knew.” She says. “In fact he…kinda…watched us. He kinda begged to watch us. A hot chick to fuck and a dude to smell when she got to be too much for me, it sorta worked for a little bit there.”

I blink. “Lily Hutton!”

“Ha ha ha! I know, I know! Not my proudest lay.” She chortles. “Don’t tell Mom unless you have to. She’d be horrified.”

“You think you know a girl! Ha ha ha! Here I thought you were such a nice girl.”

“I was! I am! I’m just…complicated.” She says. “What? You’ve never done anything stupid for a piece of ass?”

“Pffft.” I laugh. “So they know about…” I nod down to her crotch.

“Obviously.”

“And they kept the secret all this time?”

“Oh yeah. They’re cool.” She says. “We’re still on good terms actually. I’m having brunch with them next week.”

“Good terms, huh?” I raise a brow. “How good?”

“Not THAT good!” She elbows me. “I had to cut that off. Tyler started wanting to eat my cum and…other stuff. And his smell was starting to get to me. It almost became a problem. A big problem. I haven’t been anywhere near that close to a man since.” She sighs. “I was happy when it ended. That whole scene…really wasn’t my thing.”

“I heard you tried to have girlfriends.”

“You heard, huh?” She gives me a look, probably wondering who told me. “Yeah. I tried.” She leans into me. “I can’t help it, Elliot. Women are just so…soft and…pretty and…sexy. They’re just…nicer than men.”

“Hey! No argument here.” I say. “Just between you and me I don’t have a clue what chicks see in us guys? If I was a girl I’d be lesbian too, no question.”

“Ha!” She puts her arm around my shoulders. “Birds of a feather.”

“You be you. It’s cool, Lily.”

“Is it?” She sighs. “It’s not so cool from where I’m sitting. I can’t describe what it is like for me. My mind and my heart want one thing while at the same time my senses and my body insists on another. You can’t fight biology. You ever want something so badly only to become physically ill once you dare to get close?”

“No.” I say with sympathy. “I haven’t.”

“I am the moth and women are my flame.” She says. “I can’t even play with them. There are no honey girls. For whatever reason our ‘gifts’ only works on guys.” After a pause she corrects herself. “Well, guys and trans women. Thank God for them! They give me…hope.” Her smile returns brighter than ever. “Hope and a dream for my own happily ever after.”

“That smile.” I point. “You’ve got your eye on someone!”

“Elliot!” She giggles and slaps my arm. “How could you…?” Lowering her voice even though she nobody could hear us back here. “No! There isn’t.” After a moment the grin widens. “Yet.”

“Come on now, spill the tea.”

“She’s an X-Ray technician at the hospital. We have lunches together.” Lily says softly with a far away look. “Her name is Juniper.”

“Pretty name.”

“Ohhh, Elliot. You have no idea.” She swoons back onto the bed. After telling her mother that her attraction to me was simply ‘chemical’ I found her hypocritical swoon amusing. Of course I don’t say anything about it. She goes on. “She is tall and beautiful and charming and funny and smart and…perfect. She’s perfect!”

“Oh boy. She’s got you hooked alright.”

“I wish. That hook’s already been bit.” She says, the smile fading a little. “She’s got a partner.”

“Oh.”

“I don’t know. When we talk I get the sense that they’re not that happy together. But…” She looks at me. “Am I a fool for waiting?”

I shrug. “I’m no expert in romance but…if she might be the ‘one’ then I think it’s probably worth waiting a little while.”

“That’s what I think too.” She says. “It works out that I’m so damn busy right now anyway that I don’t have time for…that sort of thing.” She turns to lay sideways, propping her head up on her hand. “Rebecca would tell me to just slip her some honey and take what I want.”

“Your mother would be very disappointed if you did that.”

She laughs. “Thanks, DAD.”

I chuckle too. “Just sayin.”

“Of course I’m not going to do that.” Reaching out Lily runs a finger lightly down my arm. “We’re running out of time. You still want to stay?”

I smile and give her a nod. “Yeah. If you’re interested.”

“Yes. I’m interested.” She smiles back. “I’d like to feel somebody touch me again. I’d like to smell somebody that I can actually get close to. Even if he is a boy.”

“You did say I was a femboy. That’s gotta count for something.”

“HA HA HA! I said twink, ya nerd!”

“You said femboy too.” I tease. “If you need somebody…I’d like to be that somebody. If that’s cool.”

“You do smell reeeeally good.” Her expression softens as she starts looking at me in an amorous way. “Can you be soft? Can you be pretty? Can you touch me like a woman can? Can you moan like one when I touch you?”

“I’ve never…allowed myself to get in touch with my feminine side.” I lay down beside her, facing her with my head propped on my hand as well. Staring into her pretty brown eyes I say. “I can’t make any promises.”

“The fact that you’re here and you’re willing to try is already more than I expected.” She runs that finger down my chest then slowly circles my left pec before taking cupping it gently as if it were a breast. “You don’t have to do this, Elliot.”

“I want to.” I whisper. “Tell me what you want, Lily.”

“Hmm.” She thinks a moment. A moment later I see an idea light up her eyes. Rolling onto her back she reaches down, hitches up her dress far enough to reach under it, then pulls panties down and off her legs. Rolling back to face me with a playful glimmer she lays the simple pink cotton panties on the bed between us. “How about you put these on and we’ll see what happens from there.”

Chapter 108