What has been going on. 04-Mar-2022

You’re all probably wondering and thinking what has been going on. I’ll try to keep it brief and thorough on what has happened the last months, and I mean the true story without the bullsh*t.

Around August as I released the last current part, my health went under real crisis, I was hospitalized for almost a month. Both my physical and mental health were at a state I could not even describe with words. I’m not expecting anyone to understand and I honestly do not believe anybody here can (unless he has been through some very serious health issue) but nevertheless I will try to explain what happened.

From day one that I started working on this project I didn’t give my 100%. 100% is probably the maximum of your time in a day, and I did give more than that. Every second and every minute I had spare and not, all my time went through the project, (how to improve it how to proceed and all that kind of things).

The project never really paid the expenses but as time went by it started getting a little better but this was still nowhere near the expenses that were appearing to support a game of the scale/features I wanted. I was putting pretty much all the money( and I do mean all) I was making from my full-time job into the project for a while (maybe the first 6-8 months) and there were even times I was asking for my friend to bail me out and pay the artists/voice actors/music producers etc etc etc.

I was always hoping things will eventually get better and I would not have to go to such extremes, I was pushing myself harder and harder by the day, back to back to try to meet unrealistic deadlines that I was setting up on myself alone in order to keep the project going, because without frequent updates this is what happens on the financial support backing.

Then after a while from working my full-time job and on the game 24/7 (literally)

My body started giving out but I was still pressuring on, to release updates without taking any breaks. And things went from bad to worse from then on, to the point that I have injured myself and even all this time after I still have problems with my hands and cannot use a computer for long. I probably have caused myself irreversible damage but things are slightly better now as I don’t have the pain and numbness on my fingers I used to have.

And despite all that I kept working but what I couldn’t work with was the people that kept ghosting and refusing to communicate properly to work with me. Even if I paid what they wanted, there were so many times that people literally disappeared as if earth opened up and swallowed them whole. This was such a big problem as this happened mainly with the voice actresses, and especially the lead voice actress of Eris, who I changed three times. I literally paid someone three times for the same content and had to change thousands of voice clips (I cannot even describe how much work and how many bugs this can cause aside from the money that I was giving) but what it was killing the most was my morale. And this is not a thing that happened once or twice this was a frequent thing every one or two months with another member inside the “team”.

During those last 6 months I lost pretty much everything, my girlfriend, friends, any money that I had, family members from passing away, got myself covid... But I am still in recovery. Even after all this time I still want to do the game and continue with it but the help I had throughout this project was not nowhere near enough that I needed.

I myself do want to continue the game but I currently cannot do it alone.

Pretty much everyone I used to work with is gone/ not caring/ not willing and I cannot even pay them or sustain the expenses currently. I am not a studio, and I can assure you studios that make good profit from making this kind of games are not putting near the work in their games that I have.

So for the time being I am not able to work on the game, I do wish to resume it, but I cannot do it alone. I want to reboot the project and I even have some meetings with a couple of people to train into devs next week in real life to discuss the matter but even if I continue the game, it will probably not be in the way that it used to be as the budget has also diminished greatly.

I understand the frustration of players that have been waiting all this time for an update and I promise you I wanted to release updates of the game more than you have anticipated it, as there is nobody around here that likes the game more than I do but with the current situation I still cannot. I have not quitted yet, i’m still trying to recover and come up with a solution on how to proceed.

I am not gone, just weakened.

Only you players can help out of this situation.

That’s what’s up,

Dokan.