July news and notice

As I was hospitalized at the end of May, by suffering from enteritis 4 times continuously, I couldn't do anything for 3 weeks. As I've promised for June that I debut for my return on June and work but enteritis got so bad that I had to go to the hospital twice. It just tired me out so much that I spent most of my days lying down or asleep.

It wasn't a food poisoning or anything but this was the first time that enteritis continued on for such a long time.

As I've finally got back to recovery from last week, I've been working on the managa work but I also started back on drawing the old commission works. These people were the commissioners that knew of my situation on last year's Fall and made the reservation for commission on upfront pay to help me out. They know of my situation but I can't continue to leave them waiting forever either. Thus why I got to work on both of them.

As I did promise to come back on June, as I've finally got back on drawing last week, the promise was kept. However, the most important thing, finished patreon rewards and finished commissions we'll be released on July. For June, here are some of the practice works I've done as to show 'oh finally this guy's drawing again...' so please wait a just a bit longer.

Of course, as I've proudly announced that I'll be coming back on January and wasted whole lot of time and betrayed many patrons, July rewards will be released to everyone regardless of the tiers and will also be sent to patrons who has already cancled their support. If you plan on stop subscribing please note, you'll still get the reward.

As I've always mentioned, thank you for understanding my situation and waiting for me and supporting me all the way here.

P.S - I've said that I'll be coming back on January this year but I've taken my mental health too lightly. Extreme stress would never have taken just one or two months to heal, I should have jus taken the whole half a year off. But I've been a stubborn idiot and promised to come back in January, February, and so on month after month. And I've finally grabbed my pen on June. 

Last year's patreon fell apart only because I've ignored the problems I've had and tried to pretend that I'm fine and I'm strong. But that wasn't the case and I blew up, and I realize I was doing the same thing again for the half a year. For this, not only have I pressured my self into serious stress, but I've made my self a liar and betrayed my patrons with promises that I wasn't capable of fullfilling again and again like a dumb ass. I am so sorry for everything.

I've driven my self to self hatred again, but I got hold of my self again thinking about everyone who've been waiting for me to comeback, supporting me for over 9 months even though I was in all this mess and did such shameful things. I realized I couldn't afford to go back to that mindset again and snapped out of it.

During last year's September, when the situation turned to the worst, I could not perform any daily task. Even just looking at my tablet made me vomit. However, after 9 months have passed where I can draw again with my tablet would be the proof that my mental health has recovered considerably. Few months back I was in a situation where I didn't even want to look at pictures anymore but now I can feel the enjoyment of drawing, practicing, patreon manga or doing commission sketch. Finally able to snap my self out of this, even when it was impossible to go to the hospital, is all because of the support from you patrons. You guys have my most sincere gratitude.

It was a post about how I couldn't thank you enough, but it felt like I had lots of unnessary words making things longer. For July, I'll come back with even better works to repay what I owe to you patrons. Thank you.