The Tuesday To-Do! - Week 13 - Unexpected Breaking

Hey Everyone it's Adler the Eagle! It's Tuesday and it's time to do the To-Do!

This week I don't have a picture of my working hours as I had a hard time tracking them, so we will probably keep it pretty short this week. I felt though that we needed a moment to explain a few things as well as apologize.

The last two weeks have been a very large time for reflection for me. As you all know I would never want to spread any hate or malice. There was an incident on Twitter where I talked about cultural appropriation and it was taken very poorly. I feel horrible about the post and have taken the proper action to apologize and raise awareness for the cause.

 In the following days I slowly started to have some of the worst mental problems I have ever had. I felt so horrible about having offended people with my post, and the negativity surrounding the post slowly started to eat at me. After that happened I felt it necessary to lock my account and give Blazen the ability to change the password so I didn't get on and cause further confusion.

One of my biggest goals of this channel and of this patreon is to create a space where everyone feels welcome and can learn, and I felt I had failed at that.

I ended up finding help in both the Self Harm Hotline and returning to therapy, so if anyone else has ever been in a bad spot i can highly recommend both of those resources.

I sincerely want to apologize here again if I offended anyone, I am taking the appropriate steps to heal and learn, and thank you for sticking with me.

In the meantime I have been taking a good long hard look at my work/life situation. I am trying to decide what is good for me, how certian things are serving me and if they are worth the energy. After talking to my therpist I can safely say that at this time I will not be returning to Twitter. I feel as if a lot of my time is consumed by making posts there when in all reality it isn't benefitting me in anyway other than small amounts of entertainment and some publiic outreach.

I will however be putting more time into Instagram, as it makes me post a picture and i like that I have to put more thought into my posts there. feel free to follow me over there if you want!

There will also be a few other changes as well, so here they are in order!

• Roller Coaster Tycoon is officially going to be a Patron and Member only stream, as viewership was low AND it's mainly all of you anyway! this way we can get a little Bird to Patron communication in a less formal setting than discord!
• I will most likely only be posting one video a month, this way I can spend the appropriate amount of time I would like to on them without crunching myself.
• Painting live streams on Saturday will be a more reoccuring theme to keep the art theme alive on the channel. We will also hopefully have special guests for that.
• We are no longer looking at studio space, and I am happy to say I have found a Co-Working house in the area that fits our need and vibe VERY MUCH, More on that later!
• I will be online much less often, as I find constantly being connected to be one of my main sources of anxiety and discontentment.
• I will be making more excluzive content for patreon!

These changes are hopefully going to be the right decision for me in the long term, and I hope you are excited for them as well!

The next video is going to be Bargain Bird apple which will hopefully happen within the next week or so, and I am for sure getting back on track with being on schedule. Until then thank you for your love and patience and Help Someone Smile Today!

Adler/Foster