Some Life Updates

It's official, I am medicated. They got me on some stuff for my stomach, which I thought was an ulcer but is just (probably) gerd, which makes my stomach acid splash up my throat sometimes. Lemme tell ya, this hurts a fuck load even with the extra strength Gravol doing its thing. I've lost a lot of sleep to this as it will sometimes wake me up in the middle of the night and hurt so bad I lay there for hours. I don't need to tell ya how bad this sucks.

I'm also on some anxiety meds, and my doc put me on a list so I can get tested for autism and ADHD. These are not likely to come through for years though, the list is long, and there are few docs out there doing the testing. He feels confident in both things though which I guess makes sense, as I've certainly seen this coming for a while.

Gonna take a bit until I see the benefits of any one of the three different meds I'm on but the relief I feel is immense. I've struggled with incredibly painful and near-constant heartburn for months, as well as a few really bad panic attacks. These new meds should help with both of those things and eventually, they were thinking of getting me on some better stuff for anxiety/depression. None of these meds are cheap, but a program might be coming down the pipe via the province to help and for now I can just barely afford it.

What does this mean for ya'll?

Well, more updates and a faster turnaround on your commissions if the meds work. I've been perpetually exhausted, stressed out, and self-medicating with booze and weed up until now (Not a ton mind you, just when the days are bad). Both of which I will have to quit cold turkey as they clash with my meds but w/e I don't mind so long as the meds work as I'm not much of a drinker or a smoker.

And yeah, that's been my last week or so.

Finally, I just want to apologize to those of you waiting on commissions. I know it seems like I've been making tons of excuses these past few months and that my struggles with mental health have made dealing with me difficult, but I feel like this is a turning point. I've finally gone to the appointments I've been putting off forever, I got the meds I was supposed to pick up weeks ago, and I got some therapy lined up for the end of the month.

So yeah, here's to a productive month, and the start of something beautiful!

My current goal is to crush so much of my backlog, that I can open public commissions again by the end of the month, but that's a bit of a moonshot.